oh,come on (1/1)

“ji....... it’s the first time you were in such a broken down state because of a girl , ji , i can tell she’s your true love , am i guessing it right?” top came closer to him and give him a glass of mineral water try to soothe him down ,“no you’re wrong , she deserve better than a trash like me” jiyong spoke with a tears on his cheek“chaerin babe..... remember when the first time we met? Haha...... it was just embarassing , i’m being a really rascal riding my new car with high speed , bump on your BIG exam in a festifal , and it’s almost your turn to be examined ,the judges were on their way to examine your works, but i bump on your tabble and broke all the things on it , thankfully you mad at me and we met it’s just so amazing thanks to you for all the happy moments in my life it’s just you just you, remeber when everytime we wandering around the town in midnight with my cool ride and you will scream your hearts out and we cry to let our heavy feelings go , you said that you can only do that if you were with me, and that time i feel no pain , it feels like i’m finally become a usefull thing not just a crap not just a useless man just like what my parents say , it’s just you ,i’m sorry for the fact that i did no good,i’m sorry for the wrong thing that i’ve done, i’m sorry for all the things that i did not see, i know it from the start that you’re the best thing in my world but now i loose that best thing, guess that my life will become as messy as it used to be before i met you . Chaeriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnn please i need you” he now feeling useless all over again all he want to do is just die , and he know that she is now gone and will never coming back and that fact is killing him“hyung, drive me home, and burn this fckin hell , i won’t remember this painfull moment ever again”“but ji....” “no but hyung, just burn this down, now let’s go” ‘it’s weird he is weird i know him like forever but never before he gone rambling about his feeling like that, he usually expresing his eeling by doing something bad, i’m glad that he has change little by little but without chaerin......... i’m not that sure’ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i find myself laying on my bed in our house no not anymore... it’s now only mine ... i woke up frantically just to check up on her stuff .... i’m afraid she’s really leaving me, i don’t find my head hurt... that’s a good moring up till now because i know that i’m not get drunk last night , then suddenly a smile crept up my face “chae will like it” and when i see no rilakkuma bear in this room my tears came out to rplace those smile in my face then i realize the fight yesterday it was all disaster... i open chae’s wardobe abruptly and find only a letter , all her fashion collection is nowhere in sight i pick up the letter and read it painfully , ‘i’m taking all my stuff, bye’ my eyes blink several times just to make sure whether if this true or not but as much as i re-read those simple five word my heart just so hurtfull“bye”“bye” “bye”  "bye”“NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO” i scream as loud as i can , wait... no that coudn’t be........Our couple leather jacket , our couple bracelet that we bought from a granny in manhattan , our couple sneakers , our couple HBA, our couple cap ....... no freaking way no hell way no!! Why does she need to bring all her stuff out but this all ....... no way!!! I can’t believe they are still here, she didn’t care about our stuff anymore, I look up for my phone , i remember that i put it on my pocket but it’s not there then i look at the coffeetable and it’s laying there ... i try to find her contact but it was gone all the way..... i notice a note beside me“ji ..” i read it loudly ... what the heck even this ‘ji’ she write is hurting me“i erase all our photo in all your gadget,and my number too, don’t contact me i need my time alone”  NO! Chaeriiiiiiin you’re not sorrryyyyyyyy!!! god enough that’s enough no more painfull day please no more!!!!!! Now i’m just like a mad man living on his own and soon i think i need to burn this home too , too much sweet moment to remember........ but i need to remember those if i want a happiness......“chaeriiiiin please come back!!!!!!” i’m so weak i collasped to the floor and cry again, she is crazy to make me gone mad. Now i know what it feels like to be hurt by love