I Love You (1/2)

We shared a life that wasn’t short

Our hearts matured

Rather than lovers, we were like family

Now whatever we do, feels like we already did it

Exhaling puffs of smoke gently, the handsome figure observed every drop of the sky's tears tenderly. Soft drizzles and washes drowning him in his nostalgia. Cold. Is what is creeping through him slowly. It used to be warm. Unknowingly, flashes of memories clouded his thoughts, his lips curling into a delicate smile, he chuckled lowly. Warmth was a figure tinier than his own, fitting his like a missing puzzle, beautiful soulful droopy eyes, always so loving, so calming, thin cherry lips with a smile so divine and bright, he probably had to cover his overly wide eyes in a scramble. Flawless feather skin and petite fingers tracing his long, rough, and lean ones in hypnotic circles. Yet he remembers. As clear as yesterday, how that beautiful face was void of emotions, pain embedded deep in those doe eyes, harsh marks smearing the perfect white skin like a mockery. He broke his promise. He had hurted what matters to him the most. Chanyeol could only laugh, his whole body trembles with the pain in his heart. The harsh sound of rain covering his own tears.To Loey glitzening spotlights and faded cheers was his warmth. His private ecstacy. Yet. To Chanyeol, warmth was his pretty love. His pretty love that Loey had clearly disregard of importance.       Loey was charismatic, fearless, an artist at heart and a beast on stage. He was unstoppable, his rivals and friends would say. Like a black hole, sucking his audience deep into his own ideals of world of contradictions and wonder. His aura was unapparalled, until it was proven wrong.  Despite it just being a few years into his debut, Loey had quickly become a chart topper, a monster talent that sweep awards and cause conversations in anything he pursue. Shortly he's the entertainment industry's black horse and residential heartbreaker. It had been just a normal night out after an award ceremony, a high end gangnam club created exclusively for the most sensational after parties; a prestigious event reserved for industry biggest sweethearts and talents, billionares, CEO, models, actors, directors, writers. Loey had smiled dorkily as he reach his favourite group of best friends located in one of the private section of the club. "kyungie! its so weird to see you here by youself without your second shadow, where's Kai. And I see you dae, working that charm, you're out to get those actresses aren't you. My lil bro Sehun, congrats on your win." He winked cheekily as he greet his friends excitedly, tackling each of them in his "best" hugs, earning disgusted groans, especially from the maknae of the group. "come on, hyung, you're disgusting" Sehun snarled in fake discomfort before snorting at Chanyeol's insulted expression loudly. "Jesus Hunnie, control yourself, Is this how the youngest ever daesang actor behave" Kyungsoo had teased him lovingly, earning a deep whine from the youngest. "You guys are mean. 'Angelic Vocals' and 'nation's golden voice' is just your disguise isnt it hyung. You're actually a devil. An adorable tiny one though". "Take that back Oh Sehun! I'm not adorable! and I'm not tiny!" Kyungsoo growled, diving to strangle Sehun in his grip. "Woa Woa calm down cuties!" Chanyeol exclaimed.  "We're not cute!" the two shouted irritatedly in twin defense  Before the pair could strangle him, Chanyeol had thanked the heavens for Mino, Dean, and his senior Teddy's saving grace. "Hey Loey whats up man! didn't know you'll show up tonight." "Yea man, just need a change of scenery" Chanyeol had hugged them as a form of greeting. "whoa were we interupting a fight, Kyungsoo look like he's ready to claw your eyes out" Teddy laughed lowly. "Yes hyung, how do you stand him, can you send me a copy of his tracks, I would love to insert some free back up vocals" Kyungsoo had offered kindly, smiling <del>devilishly</del> angelicaly. The mood just increases ever since, with new additions of friends joining their light banter of loving disses and arguments. That is until, a loud squeal had erupted in between them, It was Jongdae, followed by Kyungsoo. "My gosh he's here dae, I didn't know that the rumours were true" "My God kyung he looks much more heavenly in person than those expensive magazine spreads". Kim Jongdae is raving about someone? hold on even the residential 'cold prince' is actually <del>squealing</del> excited to see someone else apart from his lover Kim Jongin / Kai? A frown grace his features, as curiosity filled them, following his friends' gaze. Chanyeol felt his heart stop. His mind creating a tunnel vision focused on the arriving figure. Never had he seen such a beautiful creature, it actually physically pains him to blink and breathe. "earth to Chanyeol, you alright dude?" Mino asked, his tone laced with worry. Coughing quickly, to hide his flustered mindset and blush, Chanyeol nod meekly. "um who is he? do you guys know him?" Chanyeol question quietly, faking indifference. With that Mino raised one of his eyebrows in amusement. "Do you not know who he is?" Offguard by the accusing stares of the whole table, Chanyeol had stammered in defense "hey I rarely leave the studio!" The rest of the table had started to laugh fondly, resulting to the tall man flushing a deeper red. "That's alright bro, we all know you're a hermit crab" "That my friend, is the current nation's sweetheart. Top international model, grazing millions of high end mags and runways. And to add to that perfection, he is actually Dean and Teddy hyungs' composing and writing partners, definitely one of the most divine voices i've had the pleasure to hear and work with. One of the humble but fatally talented beauty in the industry. He's perfection on legs. Byun Baekhyun."       Feeling a weird heat spreading all over his body, Chanyeol try to divert his attention pretty quickly. Loey is a women and men magnet alright, 'panties dropper' people would say as they fawn over him. With his tall majestic physique, sculptured handsome features, enticing barritone trebles and melting gaze he can't deny he had land some wild night adventures of the most beautiful and influential people in and out of the industry. He is never one to commit, his fans and admirers would know. Never one to fight but flight. Yet something about Byun Baekhyun makes his own panty drop, and that scared the hell out of Park Loey. The Chanyeol in him is trying to send him signals though, he's unsure what, but he's going to ignore it religiously. Byun Baekhyun already seems like trouble to him, like a future mistake, his immature self would think. One second he's indulged deeply in his own narrative yet the minute after a blur, he find himself standing almost in the middle of the crowded dance floor, his friends beside him, draping around him like an expensive blanket. Yet what shocked him is that he's standing directly in front of the petite unearthly male, whose currently laughing at one of jongdae's pick up lines, Kyungsoo closely behind, eyes twinkling with what seems to be adoration and mutual soulmate like connection in his eyes. His world stops when mino's deep voice seem to mute beside him, it was along the lines of "hey hyunnie, meet one of the underground hotshots, he's an alright man, pretty decent" Mino joked. " Park Chanyeol slash Loey....". A pair of enchanting eyes had stare directly into his soul, plump lips gifting him the sweetest smile to view. "nice to meet you Park Chanyeol slash Loeyy". Chanyeol felt gravity is sort of betraying him, he would have melt into a puddle of goo if it werent for his autopilot stage persona "ummm.. m..me..me too.. I guess..ange-..." fuck. "i...mean..Byun..B..Baekhyun..yea..cool..hahaha" wow real smooth yeol. real fucking smooth... he cursed at himself inwardly. A shy melodious giggle grace him though as exquisite rows of pearly teeth displayed beautifully. "I have to say you are pretty charismatic Park Chanyeol slash Loey" the figure assure him comfortingly. "Chanyeol is fine..and you'll probably going to cringe at this overheard invitation but..dance with me?" for the first time Chanyeol felt there's no need for himself to give a suggestive smirk or charming sultry gaze, his child like joy of sunny beam appearing against his own will. He could feel the shock stares of his close friends burning on his back. "lead the way. Mr. Chanyeol" Baekhyun smiled softly. Chanyeol find himself holding the beautiful petite male like he's fine china the rest of the night. Hype crowd and mad beats seem silent to him, as they both sway gently, lost in their own universe. His big warm palms resting protectively against the small curvy planes of Baekhyun's waist and hips, Baekhyun's enchanting lithe arms enveloping his neck delicately. Chanyeol can't help but think about how everything feel so new. So different. So right.    The next couple of months feel fast forwarded in his mind. Him slowly wooing the beautiful top model/singer, casual dates, to eventually a solid committed relationship. There is just explosive chemistry between Baekhyun and him. Baekhyun fit around his life like a glove, like a missing piece of the picture around his close friends and even his family. Like a chilly breeze in winter night, Baekhyun had creeped into his heart like an invisible thief. They both had fell in love so fastly, madly, deeply like an explosive sparks of fireworks, that their friends can't even dare to warn them. Baekhyun and Chanyeol were so in love and so fated. Baekhyun was Loey's electrifying muse and Chanyeol feed Baekhyun's fiery drive. They were a powerful couple. Yet their young heart, goals and ambitions had influenced them to keep their relationship private. To them it was perfect. It was thrilling. They feel invisible. Unstoppable. From their secret passionate make out sessions in Chanyeol's backstage concert changing rooms, to midnight arcade escapes, winery trips, cuddling sessions in Baekhyun's private jet rides to varieties of different shoot locations and countries, silent whispers of confessions in between abandoned planes of grassbeds and meteoric starry nights. "I love you Baekhyun ah" Chanyeol felt his heart stop, those words just slip past his lips so effortlessly. Baekhyun had been closing his eyes, his pretty face glow under the illuminating moonlight. "Marry me" Chanyeol had tears in his eyes by now as Baekhyun were staring with the same beautifuly pure glassy shining eyes he first met under the strobe lights. "Chanyeol..." his honey voice had trembled with fear, tone laced with such overflowing and unsaid love it render Chanyeol weak. Chanyeol knew they had drown and fallen too deep. Kissing the wet smooth cheeks tenderly, Chanyeol's heart could only explode with love. "Be my forever Baekhyun", with a nod, Baekhyun could only giggle when his tall handsome lover had lifted him abruptly. They were in one of their escapades in a beautiful yet small town of France."Yeollie! put me down! where are we going! you'll be too tired" Chanyeol hushed his lover while kissing his forehead lovingly as he ran even more excitedly. Chanyeol put Baekhyun down gently once they reach what seems to be a stunning private vintage church; its amber walls decorated by twrills of plush green leafs. A foreign priest and government officials greeting them warmly and patiently. "Park Chanyeol! are you crazy!" Baekhyun had stated in shock. "I'm crazy serious about you Byun Baekhyun" Chanyeol had smiled at the small male dotingly, his feelings as bare as it could be. In midst of disbelieve, Baekhyun found himself pampered and ushered by foreign assistants, the reflection before him felt unreal. Clad in an all white set of a body hugging suit pants and an exquisite off shouldered silk top, his face was dolled to perfection, a flower crown of baby breath placed divinely on his soft locks; a long train of veil sheltering him elegantly.      Chanyeol had never forget how perfect baekhyun looked. How beautiful he was for him. How he was walking towards him. Loving teary smile underneath his soft veil, matching his own. How baekhyun's petite fingers had curled around his firm suited arm delicately, as they exchange their vows, rings, and promises of forever confidently, drowning in each other's love.   <blockquote>The moon and stars were the testimony of their eternal love.</blockquote>  Now our answers have become short

Feeling the difference in the weight of our hearts

Our silence forecasts the end

On our lukewarm night Being two individuals too deep in love..  what could've gone wrong?   You had high expectations

And I was really tired

Would we be different

If we understood each other a little more?     "Why is he fucking touching you Baekhyun?!" Chanyeol had snarled viciously. Trapping the petite male to the lavish walls of their private home."He's my shoot partner Chanyeol! Why is it a sudden problem now when you have dozens of naked women in every single frame of your music videos or performances!" Baekhyun had seethed back. He was tired. Tired of all of the judgements, distrusts, and accusations."You're fucking mine Baekhyun. You should know how to behave." Chanyeol growled."Oh really? Cause the last time I checked Park Loey doesn't know a Byun Baekhyun" "Are we really going there Baekhyun? We can't risk our careers Baekhyun!" Chanyeol shouted angrily, before his eyes soften at the trembling state of his beautiful petite lover."baby...please..understand me..we'll announce it one day. Trust me. You know its what is best for you. You've work hard to be where you are baby. Having me, a rapper as your husband will just tarnish your reputation""when will that happen Chanyeol? What is best for me? me? I only want you Chanyeol. Is that so wrong? to be able to love my husband publicly. I'm fucking tired Chanyeol. I'm tired of being secretive. Best for me? We both know that its probably what is best for you."Raising his hands in rage, Chanyeol stopped when he see the hurt and broken expression of his lover. His wedding band seem to reflect under the dim light like a cruel joke. His hands shake in tremor as it dropped in regret. He had almost raise his hands and hurt his love.Breaking from his initial shock, mustering his courage Baekhyun had muttered quietly "We should have a break Chanyeol". Preventing himself from running to embrace his husband, Baekhyun started to walk away to pack his belongings from their shared room. Strong arms halt him as his body was crashed to a much broader and stronger one. He could feel the wetness smearing the surface of his smooth neck, butterfly kisses on the planes of his collarbones and jawlines, purple marks of Chanyeol's strong grip from previous night still evident, like a hauntingly beautiful criminal record. Chanyeol had bury his face deeply into his neck, his taller body quake with a restrained sob. Pulling the beautiful tiny male into a desperate deep loving kiss, the two could only endulge deeper in the current warmth of their toxic like love.    <blockquote>The rest of the night were accompanied with slow caresses of warm skins, subtle rustles of silk sheets, faint pants, salty kisses, and silent vows watched by the moonlight. </blockquote>   When you have to try in love

That already means it’s not love