Decisions of Our Hearts (1/1)

"Hello everyone, we are 2PM!"As my members all happily clapped and maturely introduced themselves in order of age, Junho passed me the recording mic. I then smiled big and bright while gazing at the camera. "Hi everyone, I'm Chansung.""So today, we are here to announce our new comeback, Go Crazy!" Taecyeon said proudly while we all whooped excitedly and clapped. We sat on fancy couches in a super comfortable waiting room of the JYP Entertainment Building. This place is where all our dreams and hard work had taken off from. Once we had flown back to Korea yesterday, we have been finishing up our Grown and A.D.T.O.Y performances all over Asia and we've now begun to work on our newest album. This whole album and the song itself is just about being crazy and having fun at a huge party with your friends while possibly finding the perfect girl there."'When you get drunk'," Jun.K hyung laughed from embarrassment while reading from the question notes which were sent from our fans. "'What were the craziest things you guys did?'""Nichkhun likes to kiss other people when he gets drunk." Taecyeon motioned to Nichkhun who sat near me. Nichkhun blushed deeply and shook his head. Wooyoung smiled cutely while playfully pushing Nichkhun."Hey! Junho..." Nickhun beckoned to Junho who sat next to me. Junho gave Nichkhun the "I got nothing to hide" look but also trying to hide his shy smile. Nichkhun smirked at the camera. "Junho, here... Always sleeps... No... Passes out, when he drinks too much."Junho waved his hand and shook his head. "Aniya, aniya! No! I don't even drink that much." he said almost anxiously to the cameras. "I usually just drink 2 bottles of suju and that's basically it.""How do you pass out from that small of amount?" Wooyoung asked with an innocent look but a teasing smirk. We all laughed. Junho couldn't hide his laugh and his famous eye smile."Now this fan has asked a question for all of us," Jun.K read from the note card. All 6 of us looked intently at our older hyung. "She asked, 'Since your guy's comeback is about going crazy while also finding love, what do you like in a girl and who is your ideal type?'"My members and I all nodded as we were all in awe about the question. Talking about these kind of topics can be very stressful especially when everything is being filmed live for the entire world to watch. Scandals and controversies occur all the time because of these kind of questions. It's a question that challenges the mind and opens up the heart. Also, not to mention that national and international fans may be heartbroken by the answers too, which may cause an upbringing scandal and a lot of anti-fans and hate for our love interests. But especially personal things like this can cause netizens of the media to misinterpret one word that can cause a devastating situation for an idol star's career.As nervous as I was with my heart beating loud in my chest, I managed to clear my mind of everything negative. I focused on my group members. My members and I are so close that we consider one another as brothers. I knew fully well how nervous they all get when talking about who they like. I held in my laugh as I saw each of my bros cough and clear their throats. Some of us even sighed and took a deep breath simultaneously."Of course, there are girl groups that we like," Junho started as a small blush appeared, "Like SNSD, because since there's a lot of them and they're pretty and cute."Everyone nodded and laughed at that. SNSD are super sweet and adorable. At dance battle competitions or on some live variety shows, SNSD were funny and cute. All Kpop boy groups like them because they're super popular, lovely, sweet, and cute... and since there are about 8 beautiful girls."But we also like Miss World Stars..." Junho laughed out of embarrassment.All 6 of us started smiling and laughing like love struck fools as we thought of the Miss Worlds. Not only were there 6 of them, but they're the 6 "Most Talented and Beautiful Girls" in the World. They were incredibly gorgeous, amazingly gifted, but were also very cute, kindhearted, and love able. The world couldn't help but fall in love with them."So who do you like out of SNSD or Miss World Stars?" Taecyeon asked with a goofy smile.Wooyoung spoke innocently. "I kinda like Lela and Nevaeh. They're both fiesty, hard working, and sensitive. And not only that, but they are extremely beautiful." He blushed cutely."Yah! You can't like 2 girls at once!" Jun.K playfully teased Wooyoung.Wooyoung cutely shook his head. "Why not?! Taecyeon hyung likes both Shay and Yoona!" His tone was humorously defensive.Taecyeon squealed loudly in a joking manner. "They're super kind and sweet. Yoona is pretty and cute and Shay is super lovely.""So you're saying that... Yoona isn't as good as Shay?" Nichkhun teasingly asked to embarrass him more.Taecyeon turned beet red. He sighed at Nichkhun and smiled big and wide. "They're both hot."All of us laughed super hard and agreed with Taecyeon. After that, we couldn't stop laughing after a while."I like Seohyun and Deja," Jun.K hyung's blush deepened. He chuckled uncontrollably. "I really like the innocent and cute type.""Hey!" Junho spoke up, his face serious. "Deja's mine."

Everyone started to laugh from surprise."Oh sorry, Junho yah!" Jun.K bowed slightly to him. "But you do realize Junho yah, that this, right NOW, is being broadcasted LIVE?"Junho turned to the camera. "Everyone, let's just all agree that both SNSD and Miss World Stars are super talented and beautiful and seriously, it's kinda hard to choose who we like from the other."

We nodded in agreement and clapped.While we all continued to laugh and clap, Nichkhun's eyes wandered and landed on me. I had realized that I was day dreaming and remembering those wonderful moments I had shared with Kaelonni. Nichkhun saw me sigh and his eyes immediately lit up. I looked up and saw his excited expression. I shook my head at him while controlling my laugh."Wait, wait! Everyone! Stop!" Nichkhun quickly stood up and announced. I was so gonna punch him after this. I covered my mouth with my hands and held my breath. My members gazed at Nichkhun."Chansung..." Nichkhun smirked and beckoned at me. "Who do you like?""Yeah, we didn't get to hear about the girl you like, Chansung ah!" Wooyoung said excitedly.I chuckled from embarrassment as I saw each of my members excited expressions gazing towards me. I then realized the knowing and understanding of who the girl I was always thinking about was.

"You guys!""C'mon, Chansung ah!" Minjun hyung urged supportively with a small smile."Just tell your fans who you like." Taecyeon said as he waved a hand to me. "Describe the perfect girl is what they all want to know."I sighed slowly. I chuckled a little. "For me, I like a girl who has a sweet and kind hearted. A girl who's not only beautiful on the outside, but on the inside too. That's perfection to me.""Sorry, Chansung but I think everyone wants to know who the lucky girl is. Just tell the world right now." Wooyoung spoke with sympathy and worry in his eyes.I could feel the heavy weight of anticipation and weariness in the air from my older brothers. Everything of 2PM depends on my words. All of us went through hard times individually and together just to be here. For me, my career also meant the world too like everyone else. It had made everyone I held dear so proud of me. I also felt happier knowing I was heading somewhere better and brighter as an artists and composer. New, possibly bright opportunities were popping up all the time now in my life and I need to take those chances. Which means right now, that even though I may take a risk just a little, I have to take this chance by making the right decision of my own heart."Chansung."I woke from my thoughts for a quick second as I looked over at Nichkhun. Nichkhun's steady gaze held understanding for he too was dating SNSD Tiffany and also had to deal with this great ordeal. He took a great risk and I feel that it's time that I should do so too. Love did demand sacrifices and it's a challenge. But I know now that I'm willing to do anything to be with Kaelonni. She is my new happiness.Nichkhun spoke to me through his own eyes and mind, Everything will be alright, you'll see. You love Kaelonni... Just listen to your heart, Chansung.I nodded and smiled a little. Through my eyes I told him through my gaze, I'm ready to tell the world now..."Chansung," Nichkhun began steadily with a small smile, "The world wants to know who you love."I closed my eyes for a moment. I saw her beautiful, goddess face and her radiant smile. She was like the world's most beautiful princess. I heard her beautiful voice and the way she sang and danced with all her heart...This was my decision now. My members were right. If I don't say anything at all, there could be huge trouble for 2PM. Which may result to us never performing again...

Love can be wonderful but one must always be cautious. Loving anyone can be dangerous, for theirs and your own safety may be jeopardy of anything. There are always huge risks when it comes to love but sometimes if you're brave enough, it's all worth it. Also, maybe the world may happily accept us too. If only it was easy to confess your feelings about someone... I feel like I'm standing on the edge of the highest mountain or the oxygen is escaping from my lungs.

But it's a great risk I'm willing to take for Kaelonni. Everyone had already seen the recent and most anticipated interview with Miss World Stars, including myself. My heart felt like soaring from Kaelonni's words. It had made me think about my life for a moment. If Kaelonni was courageously willing to tell the world of her heart, than if my love for her was true, then I will also make my decision to be heard by the world.I thought again for a moment. Unless the world wants to know and accept Kaelonni and I together, then we both have to make a decision... The decision of our hearts. And if the world wants to know so badly about peoples love lives, it's better to confess now, that way mine and Kaelonni's future won't get interrupted because of the biggest love scandal in this generation. I truly do love her and I want to be by her side no matter what our future may hold for us. And if there is a positive light from this, I'm willing to do anything just so I can hold her again in my arms.I took a deep breath as I gazed into the camera. This is for you..."My heart belongs to Kaelonni."2PM excitedly cheered and clapped in amazement from my words."Cheers!" Nichkhun held up his water glass, "To our love struck maknae!""To love and for bright futures!" I announced proudly.

We all laughed and clinked our glasses together. I gazed around and I caught my hyung's proud expressions. As soon as I had said those words, I felt free and just full of energy again. I must have been that relieved that this interview is about over now.Wooyoung made a heart with his hands and sent his "heart" to the camera. "Thanks everyone for watching tonight! Saranghae everyone~""Please wish lots of love and support for 2PM's newest comeback! Thank you all so much!" Jun.K hyung clapped cheerfully.We all smiled and waved goodbye to the camera. As soon as the directors gave us the all good sign that we were no longer live, we all thanked the directors and camera staff. All of us heaved a sigh of relief."We did super good, guys!" Taecyeon childishly yelled in triumph. "We're finally done."I fell back against the couch and sighed out of complete exhaustion. Beads of sweat formed on my brow and I wiped them away. I just realized that my heart had been racing the whole time and I felt my pulse finally slowing normally.As we all got up for our next schedule, my members smiled at me and I did a bro handshake with all 5 of them."You did really good too, Chansung ah," Nichkhun smiled and placed a hand on my shoulder. "We're super proud of you. Kaelonni would also be happy and proud right now too.""You really think she will apreciate it?" I asked as I took another exhale of relief.Nichkhun and the rest of 2PM all nodded and agreed excitedly."Good job, Chansung ah!" Junho eye smiled happily.Wooyoung jumped up and cheered, "Chansung's in love! Chansung's in LOVE~!""Thanks a lot, hyungs." I smiled happily at my supportive members. As we left the JYP office building and we got into our gleamingly black SUV, I sighed once more. The rest of that busy day, through fan events and photo shoots, I felt able to breathe joyfully from relief now, knowing that my heart was free from the negative chains of scandals and hate, and that I had made the right choice.