[M] GERALD-ANDERSON Way (1/1)

Chapter 16  Kim: Gerald-Anderson way.       I took the longest time in the shower to change the weird thoughts in Gerald's mind. I know what he’s thinking and it’s something I am afraid of. Noo. I’m not ready. I can’t, I don’t know, basta di ko kaya.. hindi pa..yata! But thinking about what he has said, him and me in shower. Woooaah. Oh my! I’m absolutely crazy because I can’t help but smile. His gym-build body, those packed abs so strong, the thought of him naked standing next to mine. Yaaaay! I’m afraid I can’t help my thoughts from screaming, Damn, he’s hot!       After I'm done wanderlusting in the bathroom, I made milk for him.Maybe this would change his mide, if it isn’t yet. He has turned on the music player of my ipad and played my 'mellow' playlist. ‘Here.’ I hand him the warm milk I made. ‘You can stay here tonight, I know your tired. And that milk will send you to sleep.’ ‘And what babe, you're gonna rape me. huh?’ teasing me after gulping the glass of milk one-shot. ‘Let's just see tomorrow if you see yourself naked when you wake up! Ha-ha.’ I was trying to be funny! But.. ‘Drown me with milk then..everynight..’ he whisper the the last words in to my ear with eyes wild. I swear my heart raised its beat into thousand times , I forgot how to blink my eyes. He laced his hands into my hair and began kissing me, I could taste the sweet milk in his mouth, soft and gentle at start and strong and needing as he advanced. I could feel his strong desire for me, he never kissed me this way before, this one is strong.. and wild. A tiny part of me is startled but, I can’t seem to stop myself to want this, to want more. I don't have the courage to end something that feels so good. Oh gaad, he makes me feel sooo good. He gently withdraws and carried me to my room. Once laid in bed he then continue kissing me, pinning me with his stong arms behind either sides of my head. He stop for awhile for few breaths. ‘You make me crazy Kimberly.. I love you with all of my heart.’ Awww. I can’t help but close my eyes and drown my self with his euphoric words. Now I say sorry to that part of me that keeps holding back my wild thoughts. I’m loosing, and I think I want it this way. I rest my hands around his neck. His mouth then slowly moves from my lips to my jaw and down my neck.  I feel a foreign sense of goosebumps. My knees trembling. I can't believe this is actually happening. He was doing it slow, so slow that it makes my body burn hot. Our breaths were so frantic. He then returned his eyes on mine. A pair of guilt eyes looked mine. He stopped. ‘I'm sorry, Gaad..I'm sorry..Kimberly, I got lost.. I..’ He looked down, looking so upset. ‘You didn't!’ I snapped. ‘Stop apologizing Gerald, please?’ I hugged him and rubbed his back.      I hate how he thinks just now. How he think he had done something very bad when in fact he didn't, we haven't done anything wrong.. it was just.. almost. ‘Stop apologizing. It was me..’ I continue rubbing his back, ‘..cos I didn't want you to stop.’ After a minute of maybe, thinking about my words, he finally smiled and moved me to face him. ‘Really?’ finally he smiled full of love. I nod. ‘But.. Kimberly really I'm sorry. Don’t get hurt, I love you soo much. Now, uh..listen.’ He looked into my eyes full of seriousness and concern. ‘I love you and everything about you. And damn, your body is a glucose in my head I really wanted to make love to you, badly. Make you feel how beautiful you really are. But when we do that thing, I want that to be perfect, to leave a perfect feeling for you, for me, for us..not just physically but emotionally too, in our hearts too.’ He took my hands with him and kissed them. ‘I need you to do that with me with both of us sure of what we’re doing. I want it to be something you and I will treasure..forever.’ I was beyond move of his words I didn't notice the tears streaking down my face. No one would said those words to me better than he just did. No one else could pull-off that scene, those lines, those emotions, the way he did. No ones’s gonna love me the way this man does. Words grouped into that way, Gerald Anderson-way, the most perfect group of words ever! I will never be loved and feel loved this way again.       My mind has already wandered into places with him. A place full of hope, happiness, and love. A place of forever. His hands wiping the tears all-smeared in my face brought me back to reality. He tucked both of us in bed and kissed my forehead.      Lord, thank you so much for giving me this man, he’s the best of everything you gave me, I never will have another him in my life, so please don’t take him away from me. -- END of Chapter 16, KIM's POV.