[M] HIS EYES (1/1)
Chapter 10I’m falling fastbut the truth is I’m not scared at allyou climbed my wallsSo lay here beside me just hold me and don’t let goThis feeling I’m feelingis something I’ve never knownAnd I just can’t take my eyes off you~ Can’t Take My Eyes off You – Lady AntebellumKim: HIS EYES. Just as I came after a refreshing shower. Gerald came with a glass of cool water. He laugh just as he saw me in his jersey. My confidence just hit the ground. Why am I in this room with this guy that has the most gorgeous smile? Now I feel so average. ‘I must look bad I know. You ain't gonna kick me for bringing home a lousy girl, are you?' He laughed more. I wanna turn back to the bathroom and change with my own clothes. But before that thought fires my body, he took my hand and lead me to sit on his bed. Oh gaad, here we go. Nooo! No, I can’t resist how those big brown eyes bore into mine, they are hypnotizing in just a milisecond stare, impairing my innate ability to breathe. ‘You sleep here in my bed, I'll sleep on that couch. The spare room has my brother's classmates. It's too late. You must be tired. If you need something just call me. You can even wake me. Okay?’ I nod and tucked myself in Gerald's bed. He turned the lights off and I hear him crash on the couch. ‘Goodnight Kimberly.’ How does he do that. The word ‘Goodnight’ plus my name. How could he make it sound so endearing?
It was a moment of silence, all I can hear is my breathing, the sound of the air condition and my heart that's still beating fast. I can't send my self to sleep. I wonder if Gerald is already far in his dreams. I wonder if he’s just fine on that couch. He's tall, he must not fit his entire height on that couch.
‘Gerald?’ I'm just a crasher, how could I stole his big bed from him? ‘Gerald!’ I'm going to wake him now. ‘Yes Kimberly?’ ‘I'm never gonna let you have muscle stiffness tomorrow. You should be here in your bed.’ Oh my gad, I think I sound pleasing. But I want to please him not to push his self on that sad couch.
‘But I.. you're..’ ‘You will not touch me, will you?’ I asked blatantly, to get this over, the akwardness, if he feels that, too. ‘I won't..’ ‘Good. C'mon get up here.’
He moved into me, yet he kept the distace between us. ‘Sleep Kimberly.’ Now that was a command. ‘Goodnight Gerald.’
Three minutes. Tick-tak-tick-tack. Five minutes. Lub-dub lub-dub lub-dub. Why does my heart beats like an athlete? Ten minutes. I still can't slow down everything in me. my breathing, beating and thinking. Why oh why? Why is there an endless question inside my head? A part of me knows that it must be with this bed and with this gorgeous guy with me. But I can't seem to accept that I feel this way. Shame on me for thinking about how it would be like, his lips in mine, here in his room in his bed. Shame on me for feeling like this when this man didn't even think a single second of feeling the same way I'm feeling. I couldn’t shake these thoughts away. Ugh. I hate myself, just now. Until.
‘Kimberly.’ his soft voice now startles me. I thought he's already asleep. ‘You with my jersey is the most gorgeous thing I've ever seen.’ Oh my gaad why is he saying this thing now. It only makes everything im me risen more up. He turned his face into me, and even though the lamplight is dim I could see his eyes on mine.
‘This isn't right, sorry but.. please listen, I think I will never be able to sleep if I don't say these things to you.’ I turned to face him. Now we're face to face. I wish I could see the brown hue of his eyes under this dim light. ‘I'm listening.’ I assured him. but I'm not sure If I am really listening, the beats of my heart are getting loud I'm afraid he might hear. ‘I really really like you Kimberly. I have never liked any other girls this much before. I admit these all started physically, but I think this will be more than that. I want you safe. I want you near me. I never want you say stupid things on your self because you're so beautiful, and amazing.'
Did he just say those words to me? I wanna pinch my self. Those words formed a lump in my throught now it’s hard for me to breathe. This is overwhelming. I must be dreaming, but I'm here with him. I see his eyes. I see love in his eyes. I grab his hands and I entwined mine mith them as a reponse. I don’t know what to say, words will fail me. I just smiled. ‘Now it's my turn to ask what's this?’ he has that smirk in his smile. Did he really want me to blurt it out right now? I've never been shy in my entire life like this. I can’t tell him that I feel the same way too. It’s.. a little embarassing. I’d rather hide my face. He leaned closer to kiss me. The touch of his soft lips in mine feels so sweet and so right. Like I was made just for this kiss. I was lost in seconds count I didn't notice I already was responding with his kisses. All I was aware of was his hands that cupped my face gently and the strong desire of his mouth on mine. We stopped for few breaths and he began kissing me again. Sliding his tongue into mine. I could taste the sweet mint of his. My hands were already in his chest where I could feel his heart beating fast, too. He then slows down and kissed the corner of my mouth and looked into my eyes. ‘I love you my Chinese Angel.’ He put his arms around me and said. ‘I wanna wake up tommorow with you in my arms.’ ‘You will..’ I said. We hugged each other and just that, we finally fell asleep, snuggled into each others arms.- END of Chapter TEN, KIM's POV. -