Admit It (1/1)

It was summer and it had been about 3months since Baekhyun had found out and admitted to his friends that he was gay. Although he had admitted that he was, he had gone out with a few girls to see if he was wrong and even kissed most of them, but he was still gay. When he was at school he would look on the guys just to see if he would feel anything but he didn’t. The only time he felt enticed or felt intoxicated was when he saw Chanyeol at other concerts or online doing something or the other. After that day when he first met him, he hadn’t met him again. Anytime Baekhyun went to a show where Chanyeol would be performing, he’d hide in the shadows and watch him fearing if he went to the front Chanyeol would spot him and notice him.Baekhyun sighed and looked over on his bedroom’s wall. There staring back at him was the brown curly haired boy with that blinding smile. Baekhyun couldn’t help but smile also. He had gotten the poster out of a magazine and couldn’t help but put it somewhere in his room.“Kris would tease me for years if he knew about this.” Baekhyun grumbled to himself.“No use hanging around here anyway.” He said tearing his eyes away from Chanyeol’s twinkling eyes. He grabbed his car keys and went towards his front door. His mom had sent him a car from Japan as his graduation present and he had accepted it gratefully. He climbed into his car with no real plan of going anywhere, and turned on the car.He was just driving on Toksu Road for like the third time when he saw a group of girls screaming and chasing a tall guy down the road. By the looks of it the guy was tired and the girls were catching up to him and Baekhyun really didn’t want to know what’ll happen next so being the hero he was, he drove up and pulled his car over alongside the guy. To his surprise it was the rapper, Chanyeol. Sweaty and out of breath. Baekhyun really didn’t have time for fantasies right now, so he stretched over and opened the car door.“Get in!”Chanyeol didn’t need telling twice. He hopped in the car and screamed at Baekhyun to drive the car before the girls came and killed him.It was 3 minutes into the drive before Chanyeol had gathered his breath and said something.“Hey man. Thanks for saving my life.”“Ye-yeah su-u-re” Baekhyun stuttered.Baekhyun looked on Chanyeol sideways and noticed Chanyeol staring on him. He quickly set his eyes back on the road.“Hey! I know you………Baekhyun isn’t it? You’re that guy from that concert in Seoul.”“Yeah. That’s me.” Baekhyun said“How’s it going man? I really owe you one you know.” Chanyeol said grinning.Baekhyun noticed that this guy was always smiling, always happy. Like a happy virus.“It’s ok. Where do you want me to drop you off by the way?” Baekhyun asked.“Um…..is your house ok? Because those girls or some other girls are going to be waiting for me at home for like hours. Waiting to maul me or something.”Baekhyun slammed on the brakes.“Woah! Dude!” Chanyeol screamed“My house?” Baekhyun asked heart beating hysterically fast.“Yeah. Is that ok?”“Um.”“You don’t have to bring me there if you don’t want to.”“No! It’s ok.”“Well drive then, you’re building up traffic.”Baekhyun drove for the rest of the time in silence towards his house and listened as Chanyeol talked about music, his life and his many other talents. By the time Baekhyun had reached his apartment, he had learned waaaay too many things about Chanyeol. One of which included that he can burp the alphabet. Although such weird random statements should’ve turned off Baekhyun by now, it just made him want to know more about the guy.“Well here we are.” Baekhyun announced as he opened up his apartment door throwing his car keys over the hook by the door.“Nice place.”“Yeah it’s not much.”Baekhyun then remembered the poster he had on his wall.“U-um-umm I’ll be right back. Make yourself at home…. I guess.”Chanyeol looked on Baekhyun’s turned back with raised eyebrows as he watched him rush towards what must have been his bedroom. Chanyeol got suspicious and followed him slowly. As he opened the door leading to the bedroom, he saw Baekhyun kneeling on the floor, pushing something under his mattress.“What’s that?”Baekhyun looked up in panic and looked as if he had been caught with his pants down.“Uggghhhh…..nothing.” Baekhyun said standing up.“Didn’t look like nothing.”“Just drop it. Ok.”“Whatever.” Chanyeol shrugged and walked over to a set of pictures he saw strewn out on a table near the window.He smiled when he spotted the people in the photographs. He picked up one and turned to Baekhyun.“Hey! Aren’t these your friends?”“Yeah.” Baekhyun grumbled still in the moment where he was caught off guard.“How come you remembered me? You know…..back in the car.” Baekhyun asked dropping himself onto his bed.Chanyeol was still looking on the photographs on Baekhyun’s desk. He grabbed one and sat with Baekhyun on the bed. The motion made Baekhyun scoot a little away from him. Well with the guy of his wet dreams on his bed, he had to move away a little.“Hey. I thought that tall guy was with that chubby cheek one? What’s he doing kissing the panda looking one?” Chanyeol enquired pushing the photo in Baekhyun’s face to see what he was talking about. Baekhyun scanned the picture before answering him, and noticed what he was talking about. Kris was at a bar with a couple drinks in front of him and he was kissing Tao. Well Baekhyun would have more said sucking Tao’s face off but words are words right. He shoved the picture out of his face and begun to explain to Chanyeol, who was by the looks of it very keen to know what the situation was.“Well uummm where should I start? Well first of all it’s not what you think. Kris, Minseok and Tao are in the Caribbean for their summer vacation. Tao had written me a letter explaining the picture. He said they were playing a drinking game and Kris got a little too drunk and kissed him. Minseok was the one who took the picture, so he was there. Tao said that Minseok really didn’t mind and even joined in after awhile of watching him and Kris. Let’s just say that things got a little kinky when they got back to their hotel, because I really don’t want to tell you every single detail that Tao was juuuuuust so kind to write to me about in his letter about what happened later.”Chanyeol stared on Baekhyun with his mouth slightly open. Baekhyun even saw his left eye twitch for a second.“You were right. It really wasn’t what I was thinking. Your friends really know how to party.”“Yup. They do, and I really don’t wannna know what would’ve happened if I was there with them.” Baekhyun said suddenly imagining Tao and Kris dragging him to the shower to play ‘rape Baekhyun’ while Minseok laughs and videotapes it. Baekhyun shuddered at the thought.“Oh and as for your question.” Chanyeol said scooting a little closer to Baekhyun on the bed.Baekhyun’s heart raced as he watched Chanyeol get closer and closer until their legs were touching.“What question?”Chanyeol touched his hand and gave him that blinding smile full of teeth and everything bright.“I never forget a handsome face when I see one.” Chanyeol said.---------------------------------------------------After that day Baekhyun and Chanyeol started to hang out more and more as the weeks flew by. Baekhyun even forgot he was a celebrity, well with Chanyeol always being over his apartment and everything. The only times Baekhyun remembered that he was a celebrity was when he would get picked up by Chanyeol’s driver, who drove a black Mercedes, from the mall or something when they were out together. But when they’re together it was like Chanyeol was a normal person. They watched TV together, played little games, and even at times Chanyeol would just call Baekhyun and tell him to cook some dinner because he was coming over and was hungry. Chanyeol even calls him ‘Bekkie’ but only when he’s being sweet and also wanted something, on other occasions he’d just call him ‘Babo’. Baekhyun really didn’t mind though since he also called him stuff like ‘Twitchy eyes’ or just ‘Twitchy’ but Baekhyun also had a sweet heart inside him and called Chanyeol ‘Curly Fries’. The name came up one day when they were out in the park eating curly French fries and Baekhyun had threw one at Chanyeol’s head because he was annoying him. Baekhyun had gone to take it out and burst out laughing when he noticed that the fry kind of blended in with Chanyeol’s hair.…..Tonight they were at Baekhyun’s apartment as usual, and they were watching this comedy movie. They were on the couch and Baekhyun’s head was in Chanyeol’s lap while the rest of his body was spread out on the couch.“Hey Curly Fries.”“Yeah?” Chanyeol asked stroking Baekhyun’s hair.“You wanna sleep over tonight?”Chanyeol stopped stroking Baekhyun’s hair and looked down on his head. Baekhyun noticed the reaction and turned his head to look on Chanyeol.“What’s wrong?” Baekhyun asked fuming.“Nothing….u-um-ummm. Why do you want me to?” Chanyeol asked averting his eyes from Baekhyun’s face.“Because you’re my best friend and that’s what best friends do.”“Best….friend?” Chanyeol repeated slowly, licking his lips in the process.Baekhyun could never get used to Chanyeol doing that. He felt a familiar heat in his pants he was used to getting nowadays. He sat up and looked on Chanyeol.“Yeah…..haven’t you ever had one? I thought I was……I-I guess I was wrong.” Baekhyun said swallowing and suddenly the carpet on the floor was the most interesting thing.Chanyeol heard the hurt in his voice and hugged him slightly.“I’m sorry…..its just-its just that I never really make people get this close to me.”“Why?” Baekhyun asked“Just because…….” Chanyeol said letting him go.Baekhyun looked in Chanyeol’s eyes and saw that Chanyeol was hiding something. He was about to open his mouth to speak...“I’ll stay ok. The movie is finished anyway, let’s just go get ready for bed before I change my mind.” Chanyeol said getting up quickly and retreating to the bedroom. ……..They had showered and everything and Baekhyun had just finish convincing Chanyeol that he just had to sleep in his bed and not on the cold floor because that’s how sleepovers are.“I really hate you right now.” Chanyeol growledBaekhyun laughed. “Shut up Twitchy. I wanna sleep.”Baekhyun had his back turned to Chanyeol for more reasons than one. He really didn’t know why he had convinced him in the first place to stay over. He was just in the moment at the time and just wanted Chanyeol. He knew what he just jerked off to in the shower wasn’t really going to happen but he couldn’t take back what he asked of Chanyeol. Chanyeol sighed and turned on his side throwing his arm around Baekhyun’s chest area and scooting closer to cuddle with Baekhyun’s backside.“Umm….what are you doing?” Baekhyun asked, heart now racing a thousand miles.“Shut up Babo. I’m trying to sleep.”  Baekhyun really was too tired to think about the situation any further, so he closed his eyes and hope to God he would fall asleep.It had been about 2 hours now since Chanyeol last said anything before he realized he was still awake, taking in the scent of Baekhyun’s newly washed strawberry flavored hair. By the sounds Baekhyun was making now he would say that he really had fallen asleep. He was getting a little worried when Baekhyun started yelping like a dog softly about an hour ago. Chanyeol sighed.“Oh Bekkie. If only you knew……..”  Chanyeol started to say sleepily.“….If only you knew I was sick.” He finished.Chanyeol sniffled and closed his eyes.---------------------------------------------Baekhyun noticed that Chanyeol had stopped coming over his apartment often now, ever since that sleepover. He tried cornering Chanyeol at shows he were performing at to ask him what he did wrong but Chanyeol only treated him like a normal fan, when he saw him. Baekhyun was hurt by the whole situation. He was worried that he might have done something or said something to destroy the friendship that he had with Chanyeol. He was worried that Chanyeol had caught onto his feelings and wanted nothing to do with him. He was worried about so many things and it pained him to know that they were drifting apart like this.He had gotten a call from Chanyeol last Friday unexpectedly while he was cooking. Not only did he overreact when he saw it was Chanyeol calling but he got so giddy that he hit his hand against the hot pot, turning it and its contents all over the floor. Chanyeol had only called to invite him to a party he was going to keep to celebrate his first music award.It was Saturday and Baekhyun was now getting dressed for the party. Well, he could’ve been dressed hours ago if he hadn’t been trying on everything he owned. He had even called Tao who was on vacation to get some fashion advice but it was a big mistake. As soon as Tao answered he heard Kris moaning Tao’s name over and over again while he told Minseok to suck on him harder in the background. Baekhyun had hung up immediately and wondered if when his friends got back from vacation if he’d ever look on them the same.Finally Baekhyun decided to go with a coral blue button up shirt with a denim pants and shoes to match his shirt. When he reached the party, it was in full swing. Seeing that it was 10pm and all. Chanyeol’s house was like any other person’s house. Just that it came with its own pool, Jacuzzi, master bedrooms, butler, maids and chefs. Aside from that it was a pretty normal house.“Hey! Look who’s here!”  Baekhyun heard a deep voice boom over his shoulder. He turned to see Chanyeol smiling at him with a bottle of wine in his hand.“Hey Curly Fries.” Baekhyun smiledHe only saw Chanyeol’s smile fade just a small fraction but he noticed.“I thought you weren’t coming!” Chanyeol shouted when the music changed to this song called Bonamana which blazed throughout the entire house. The scene reminded Baekhyun of a nightclub with half naked girls everywhere and horny men chasing after them and other horny hungry men. Baekhyun wouldn’t have really called it a celebrating party but he guessed it was what Chanyeol wanted.“I’m sorry I’m late. I didn’t know what to wear.” Baekhyun grumbled.“What was that?!” Chanyeol asked over the music.Baekhyun shook his head.At that moment a guy a lot taller than Baekhyun but a lot shorter than Chanyeol came over staggering, clearly drunk.“Baby face! Why’d you leave me over there?”  The guy asked, walking over to Chanyeol and planting a wet sloppy kiss on Chanyeol’s cheek.Baekhyun froze.Chanyeol wiped away the wetness off his cheek and said, “This is Zhang Yi Xing…..my drunk um friend.”Baekhyun looked over this brown side swept hair, pink lip, so called friend and couldn’t help but feel jealous.“I see…” Baekhyun managed to say and walked off to find the nearest beer. Unfortunately the nearest beer wasn’t far enough from Chanyeol and he took it glumly, drank and watched as this Zhang Yi Xing person rubbed his hand up and down Chanyeol’s arm and whispering things into Chanyeol’s ear. What he could be whispering Baekhyun had no clue because all he could do was drink more and more beer. He felt like he was about to die on the spot when he watched as the guy put his hand underneath Chanyeol’s shirt and move towards Chanyeol’s face as if about to kiss him. Baekhyun couldn’t take it anymore and ran out of there as fast as he could. He ran to his car and forced his door open. He knew he should really call a taxi since he felt dizzy from all the beer but he knew he really should’ve called a taxi because he was heartbroken. His world felt like it was sinking into the pits of hell…..no the pits of the coldest thing he could think of. He cried as he started the car and drove off. He was now on the main road and could hardly see anything because of how much he was crying. The tears blocked his vision and he only pressed on the gas more.The crash came so quickly he didn’t have time to think. He had crashed head first into a steel light post and his last blurred vision he saw was a picture of Chanyeol with his blinding smile that he kept on his dashboard. And before his eyes closed all he could whisper was“……C—uu—rrlly—“Darkness.