Thanksgiving (Part 2) (1/1)

"Tiffany?" He asked again."Uh..." I snapped back to reality. "Yeah. I'm fine." I smiled.He smiled back."I invited Jay too, but his break doesn't start for another five days, so for most of your thanksgiving break, it'll just be the three of us," Taecyeon piped up. "Surprise!""I thought you said you weren't coming...?" I asked Chansung."Wait..." Taecyeon looked at the two of us, "you ruined the surprise?!""You never told me to keep it a secret, dude." Chansung laughed, "plus, I was just asking her if she was okay with me third wheeling on the two of you."He looked at me, "...And what did she say?""She said it was okay for me to, but I could tell she wanted to spend all this time with you," he smiled.What... That never happened, though...Taecyeon put his arm around my waist and shuffled around me to give me a back hug.I shot Chansung a confused look now that Taecyeon couldn't see my facial expression, but all he did was smile back at me. After we ate dinner, I volunteered to do the dishes. Taecyeon wanted to help but he had to take an important phone call before dinner could even end.Chansung shuffled into the kitchen after me."Mind if I help?" He tilted his head as he watched me grab gloves out of the drawer.I shook my head and passed him a pair of gloves.Turning on the tap, I began taking one plate at a time and scrubbing with the sponge."I thought you weren't going to come because you thought it was ethically wrong to."He helped me roll up my sleeves as they started to soak up the soapy dishwater, silent."Chansung?""I really wanted to see you. Plus, you never told me what your decision was. I was... curious.""Oh," I continued scrubbing the plates, "Well...""Is it bad news for me?" He winced."No. He and I are on a break," I said."What? So you're not dating anymore?" He looked extremely surprised.I nodded my head, "He also said that he cheated on me while he was away in college." I looked back down at the plates. It hadn't really fully hit me yet that I had been cheated on. Granted, I did the same, but that only makes me feel a little bit worse to know that I'm so selfish.Chansung swept the hair in my face behind my ears as the water splashed around."It's weird. This whole predicament. I feel bad for what I did, but I also don't. I'm hurt that he cheated, but then I realize that I did too. I just feel so... terrible."He winced and opened his mouth to say something, but as soon as we heard footsteps approaching the kitchen, we fell silent."Didn't you want to help me with these dishes?" I started up again."It's so hard to stop you when you're washing them with such a determined expression," Chansung smiled. He put his gloves on quickly, "Move over, I'll do the rest.""No! I just want you to help, I actually want to do them." I giggled."What... How do I help?" He asked, furrowing his eyebrows in confusion."Just help me dry them or something."He chuckled, "You're so weird."Taecyeon walked through the kitchen door, "Hey, sorry about that."I smiled, "That's okay. Chansung's being such a big help." I said sarcastically."Hey!" He crinkled his nose and tried to look angry, but just ended up looking really cute."I can take over," Taecyeon suggested, "If you want.""It's fine. Just keep us company," I said.Chansung scanned my face with a slightly more serious edge.I caught his eyes for a moment before I turned back to wash the dishes."We're almost done anyways.... Or at least I am. Chansung's the worst dish-dryer on the planet..." I stuck my tongue out at him.Taecyeon came over and wrapped his arms around me as I continued washing the plates.I grabbed the last plate and scrubbed and rinsed it, handing it to Chansung as he quickly finished off the last few plates. For the next few days, everything seemed to be going well. The three of us would reluctantly go to bed at 3AM and wake up at ten. At night we would stay up talking in the garden and watching a movie on the outdoor movie screen.One morning I woke up to find Taecyeon lying next to me-- just for your information, we also agreed to not sleep in the same room for Chansung's sake.I was only mildy startled.... okay, that's an understatement. I really freaked out.But could you really blame me? Only the night before I was out in the backyard talking to Chansung about stuff as Taecyeon had a private chat with his father.We had planned to just go out to read our own books and listen to our own iPods... but as expected we didn't read at all but instead talked."So explain to me what the relationship between you and Taecyeon is like now?"I set my book down next to me, keeping my finger tucked between the pages that I was reading."Well... we're not together anymore..." I sighed."But he keeps acting like you are.""I know... I think that... he doesn't want to let me go... I don't think it's really hit him yet."He looked down and chuckled, "So... then what about us?"I bit my lip, "Technically we're free to do whatever we want, but I get the feeling he'd be... I don't know...""it would just bother him that you'd be with me, right?""Yeah...""So then what?""I'm ready for it," I blinked.He was about to say something but decided against it. He stared at me."I think it's worth a try," I said, "I told him that we'd be on a break so that I could sense the world for myself. He's my first boyfriend and if I think if I'd know for sure if he was the one... and I'm only eighty-five percent sure right now.""What happens when he finds out that you called the break for me, though?""I hope he'll understand; even if it turns into hate... I don't know... maybe trying to figure out what the rest of the world is like is worth it?""Is it?"I nodded, "I hope so."Without another word he took my hand into both his hands, playing with my fingers, intertwining mine with his.I stared at his profile, defined by the light spilling out from the glass windows.He turned to look at me, and for a moment I had an urge to kiss him, but then my conscience stopped me. The part of me that still loved Taecyeon stopped me.He stretched one arm around my shoulder and pulled me in, still holding onto one of my hands with his free hand.I temporarily let go of his hand to grab my iPod headphones: one for him, one for me.The first song that started playing was "The Way I Am" by Ingrid Michelson."Cause I love the way you call me baby, and you take me the way I am."I felt a shiver run down my spine at how applicable the lyrics were.Suddenly I saw a star shoot across the navy blue sky and quickly pointed it out to him."Make a wish," I said."I don't need to. My biggest wish has just been granted," he leaned his head against mine.I blushed and felt a fluttering in my stomach.Taecyeon never came down that night, though. His mom told us that he had to make a phone call back to his school. We tried to wait up as long as possible, but as the temperature began to drop and we got tired, we both decided to just go straight to bed. And now I was lying in bed next to Taecyeon.After I collected myself and fixed myself up with the help of the mirror on the bedstand, I rolled over to check if he was still sleeping.I prodded his cheek."Mmmph," he rolled over and waved his hand around his face to get my finger away from his face.I giggled, "Is there a reason why you're sleeping in my bed?"He shook his head, "I just wanted to be with you last night, but you guys went to bed early..." he mumbled into the pillow.He placed a hand on my lower back and pulled me into his body."Ta~ec," I whined."Ten more minutes," he grumbled.And for ten minutes, I stared at his perfect facial featurres, feeling his body against mine, wanting to pull away but also not. I counted the minutes."It's been ten minutes," I whispered."Ugh, fine." He let go of me, and I rolled off the comfy padding.I pulled my hair up into a bun, walking to the bathroom.He followed me in and we brushed our teeth together. I caught him staring at me once or twice."Am i really that pretty?" I asked sarcastically."Yes," he answered without any thought.I quickly gargled the water and spit into the sink."No." I smiled wittily back at him."But you are," he did the same."Let's go wake Chansung up."He reached for my hand and pulled me back into my room. "Wha--" I began, "Taec, what are you doing?!"He grinned and closed the door, pressing me against it. I could feel my body getting hotter."Come on, we just woke up," I whined. Seconds later I realized that I should have said something like "We're on a break, we shouldn't be doing this.""So?" He said, leaning into my body with his.I looked down and then back up, "Taec, we're on a break. We really shouldn't be doing this..."His cheesy smile soon turned into nothing. He pulled his body away from mine. "Sorry.""It's okay.""Can i just ask you something?"I nodded."Are we on this break because I cheated on you?" He sighed, "And... are you going to go after Chansung now because of that?"I bit my lip. How did he know that i was going to give Chansung a shot now?"I was on my way down to hang out with you two last night when I heard him ask you what our relationship is like now. I know I shouldn't have eavesdropped, but I just wanted to get a sense of how you felt..."Should I tell him what happened when I went to visit Chansung a month and a half ago? Was now the right time?I cowered away from the opportunity."So... is it?"I shook my head, "Taec, I know this is totally an overused sentence, but... it's honestly not you. Like I said earlier, i just want to try something new... not that you're not good enough, because trust me, you are more than enough, I just don't know if I should commit to something when I haven't tried anything else. Sometimes I think that you're too good for me.""But I'm not." He looked at the floor between us.We stood silently."I'm not good enough for you. That's why I'm scared that you'll find someone better than me and leave me for good."I didn't know how to respond because I knew I couldn't guarantee anything, instead, I gave him a hug."Whatever happens will happen for a good reason, Taec." I squeezed his body tightly."Will it?" His deep voice echoed into my ear.I didn't respond. I couldn't. "I'm sorry." I wanted to say, but I couldn't.He sighed and grabbed my hand, "Let's go wake him up, then."-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Are you sad or happy now?I seriously can't decide how I feel. haha. Anyways, you guys are OSM readers and I love your comments. ^____________^hohoho. I hope you'll continue to support this fic. I'm having a lot of fun writing it!love,

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