Chapter 3 *Inner Conflict (1/1)
That Kwon guy was absent for a whole entire week and I couldn’t help but think it had something to do with me. Maybe he went to a mental hospital or something for his condition. Each day in class, I’d be comfortable since I didn’t have him glaring at me as if he wanted to stab me to death. I didn’t even know what the hell I did to piss him off! I met a few friends in school and hung out with Yongbae occasionally. He was a pretty cool guy and very muscular. Jaejoong was doing okay but he still couldn’t cook his own dinner. Hell, the boy could hardly make a bowl of cereal!So, here I was sitting in the school cafeteria in the morning since that was where my friends hung out. I was just busy reading some stupid vampire book when the doors of the cafeteria opened. A group of students were walking through the door. It seemed that somehow everything was in slow motion and just by chance the HUGE ass fan in the cafeteria blew in their direction, making them look like models.I looked at my friends but they didn’t seem to notice them. So, I poked Sohee. She stopped from chatting with Donghae and looked at me. “Who are they?” I nodded toward the group of students.“Oh…they call themselves Big Bang.”“Big Bang…?”“Yeah…I’ll tell you who’s who…”(Insert Stong Baby music here)“The guy who looks like a panda is Lee Seungri and the girl with him with the really, like, thick bangs is Lee Chaerin. The girl with the short black hair is Gong Minzy and with her is Kang Daesung.”The girl Minzy glanced over to me and slightly smiled. She pulled Daesung along with her. Chaerin almost glared at me as she linked her arm with Seungri. I thought that was the end of the “group” but then another boy walked through the doors. It was that crazy guy! He actually came to school today! AMAZING! Oh, shit! But that means I’m going to have to endure him glaring at me again. Fuck my life! “Who’s he….?”Sohee looked over her shoulder and sighed. She had a weird expression on her face. It was just her but the other girls, too. What the hell is going on? I even saw some of the guys stare at him and sigh! What the hell did they see in him? I snapped my fingers in front of Sohee. “Oh, sorry, that beautiful, hot, sexy, single guy is, Kwon Jiyong. He’s, like, single and not to mention hot—did I mention that already?”“Yes, you did actually. Is he…I don’t know…mental?”“Mental…? What are you talking about? Kwon Jiyong is, like, one of the smartest students in this school. He’s, like, a celebrity or something! So is the rest of their group but Kwon Jiyong mostly since he’s the only single one…but you shouldn’t waste your time. They, like, usually keep to themselves, especially Kwon Jiyong.”So, his name is Kwon Jiyong, huh? I wonder why he doesn’t date if he’s so liked in this school. Maybe he was gay or something! Yeah, that’s it! He’s probably gay and mental. Oh, poor guy. He got hit by a double whammy. Being gay and insane wasn’t a good combination. “Dara, Kwon Jiyong is staring at you!” Sohee whispered.“Eh…?”I looked up and caught his gaze. His eyes were golden today. Weird…I could have sworn they were black before. Maybe I was the mental one… he frowned as he stared at me. I felt like going over there and smacking him! Why the hell was he frowning at me?! What the fuck did I do?! Geez, did I fuck up his life in a past life or something?!The bell rang and it was time to go to class. Lucky for me, my first class was with Kwon Jiyong…joy to the world! I took a seat at my desk and waited for class to begin. While waiting, I took out my notebook and started doodling again. My body stiffened when the chair next to me moved. Stay cool, Dara. You can handle this freak. I went back to my doodle. “Hello...I’m sorry I didn’t get to officially introduce myself last week. My name is Kwon Jiyong.” I lifted my head up. It was amazing! He speaks!“You’re Sandara, right?” I restrained myself from punching him in the face.“Dara…just Dara…”The bell rang signaling for class to start. The teacher took role and all the normal shit teachers usually did in the morning. He stood up from his desk. “Well, I don’t really have anything planned today since I’m really lazy and school cut my pay. So, go do whatever the hell you want! Just don’t leave this classroom or if you really want to do something, you can study onion and whatever.”He took out a sack of onions and put it on the table. The class ignored it and started talking amongst themselves. Since, I really didn’t know what else to do I grabbed an onion from the front desk. I avoided Jiyong’s gaze as I sat down. “You’re actually going to do it?” He asked.“Why not…? There’s nothing better to do.”“Really…? Because I was hoping we’d get to know each other a little bit.”My jaw dropped as I stared up at him. Just the other week he looked as if he hated me and now he was all Mr. Friendly? Damn, what’s up this guy’s mood swings?! I swear his mood was all over the place! Seriously, was this guy safe to be around? “Wh-what do you want to know?”“Everything…I want to know everything.”~*~ When Monday came around, I was totally prepared. I drove into school with my sexy white Bentley and walked into the school cafeteria with full confidence. I wasn’t going to let some bitch keep me away from school. Yeah, I was the GREAT and AWESOME Kwon Jiyong. I could handle anything! As we walked into the cafeteria, I heard our names being mentioned. I snapped my head in the direction the thoughts were coming from. I saw Ahn Sohee talking to that girl. She was introducing us. She even called me hot and sexy. It wasn’t like she wasn’t telling the truth. I mean, I couldn’t help that I was so hot. Just to give them a show, I did a cool hair flip. Sohee sighed. The girl, however, frowned while reading some book. She’s the girl? She’s so pretty! I heard Minzy say in her head. I glared at her and her thoughts quieted. We sat on our usual table in the corner of the cafeteria. My eyes travelled to the girl once again. I still couldn’t read her fucking thoughts! Maybe she really didn’t have a brain! She had an irritated expression on her face. I lost focus when Chaerin kicked my leg. “What?” I growled. “Stop that. You’re being weird. You know, she probably thinks you have mental issues or something.” I ignored her. Once the bell rang, everyone went to class. I prepared myself mentally before going into the classroom. I seriously did not want to lose it and end up killing the poor girl…and possibly half the student body to avoid being questioned. She was sitting at our lab table, drawing something on her notebook. She didn’t look up even when I sat down. “Hello...I’m sorry I didn’t get to officially introduce myself last week. My name is Kwon Jiyong.” I tried to be as friendly as possible but she only looked at me with a confused expression on her face. “You’re Sandara, right?” “Dara…just Dara.” So, class began and the teacher started saying some shit but I didn’t give a damn. I was interested in the girl. She seemed pretty interesting and I might as well convince her that I’m “normal” and I wasn’t going to murder her like I constantly thought of doing. She left and got and onion from the box up front and sat down at the lab table. “You’re actually going to do it?” I raised a brow. “Why not…? There nothing better to do.” “Really…? Because I was hoping we’d get to know each other a little bit.” Her jaw dropped. I restrained myself from laughing. Was she that surprised? Then again, I probably looked like I wanted to kill her last week. “Wh-what do you want to know?” “Everything…I want to know everything.” “Uh…like…?” “Why did you move here?” Yes, why the hell did you move here? “My parents wanted me to watch over my step brother Jaejoong.” “Oh, right…I’ve heard of him.” “It seems like everyone knows Jaejoong.” She muttered. Jaejoong was known to be a very “special” kind of guy. He was a disaster waiting to happen. I’ve heard people talking about him and how he would do the most stupid things sometimes. I’ve never met him personally but it must be hard handling one idiot. I nearly lost all sanity living with a bunch of crazy people, Seungri for the most part since he was so fucking annoying! “You were gone last week…” Dara said softly. “Yeah…about that…I was…uh…out of town…” I had to get away from you because I didn’t want to end up killing you. “I see…did you get contacts?” “Uh…” “You’re eyes were black the last time I saw them…but now they’re gold or—“ “Oh, it’s probably the lighting. Hehe, yeah, nothing weird there. Let’s work on the onion! Yay! Onions are great don’t you think but you know it kind of sucks that they make you cry. Do you cry when cutting onions? Most people do…” She blinked as I continued to ramble on and on. I tended to talk a lot when I was nervous. Chaerin was probably right about Dara thinking I had mental issues. I shut up and started observing the onion. “So, do you like the weather here?” Well, that was a stupid question. Way to go Kwon Jiyong Shut up, brain I’m you, dumb ass!Don’t you call me a dumb ass! JERK!By calling me a jerk, you’re calling yourself a jerk, idiot! I’m your brain! DUH! Now, stop talking to me! Talk to Dara! She’s looking at you like you’re a freak. I looked at Dara and she really was looking at me like I was a freak. Then again, who wouldn’t? Who the hell had conversations with their brains? Yeah, I probably did need to seek some “help”. “I’m taking that as a no?” I looked away from her.“Yeah…I don’t really like anything cold…or wet.”She flipped her hair back, sending her scent in my direction. I felt the burning in my throat but I could control it. I ignored the thoughts in the back of my mind to kill her. Kill her. Do it!No, don’t do it! It’s not rightThe little angel and devil guys appeared on my shoulders. Did vampires have consciences? You can’t kill her, Jiyong. That wouldn’t be very niceFuck what that stupid angel says. Do it! Killing one little human won’t hurtNo! Don’t listen to him! He’s evil so obviously he’s going to try to steer you in the wrong direction! I’m the good one! Listen to me!Guys, can you seriously leave me alone? You aren’t helping me at all!No, duh they aren’t! This is why you should listen to me! Your heart! And your heart is telling you to be a good little vampire and not eat this human. It’s not nice.Holy shit! My heart speaks to me, too?!Yes, idiot ! I always have! Just like your brain does.My brain is annoying…I heard that! I’m still you, you know? So, you’re basically calling yourself annoying. My head hurt from all of this twisted shit. I was seriously losing it here. Before this girl came, I think I was “normal” well, as normal as any vampire trying to be human could get. But since this girl came, my mind has been all stupid and fucked up. I heard that! My brain said.Shut up!I was pulled out of my thoughts when the bell rang. Dara got out of her seat and left. She was still looking at me as if I were crazy. I wanted to scream at her that I wasn’t crazy and I was just having some issues with my inner self but then I’d look even more like a dumb ass. School went by and it was the end of day.My “siblings” and I were standing in the parking lot, chatting amongst ourselves. Suddenly, Minzy gasped. An image played in my head, a car coming straight for Dara! Holy shit! I looked toward Dara’s direction and saw a car coming straight for her. I didn’t even think. I ran toward her and stopped the car from hitting her. Dara looked shocked and slightly confused. We stared at each other wide eyed. I was fucking screwed. I can’t believe I just did that! “Umm…well, I have to bake some muffins at home! See ya, buddy!” I said nervously and fled the scene.Looks like someone’s in deep shit…Shut up, brain! I don’t want to talk to you!You’re talking to yourself, once again, idiot!Fuck my life! I completely exposed myself back there! Aw, man! Top hyung and Bom noona were going to fucking kill me if they found out! It’s alright. It’s cool. I could do this! Yeah, I will just explain to them calmly. “Kwon Jiyong messed up today!” Chaerin announced as soon as she walked into the house.“Fucking Chaerin!” I glared at her while she just smirked.“Kwon Jiyong! What did you do?”I cringed at Bom noona’s voice. Oh, I was a dead man…well, technically I was already dead but Bom was going to kill me again now! Damn that Chaerin! I’m so going to get back at her later on. “I sort of exposed myself in front of a human…” I scratched the back of my head nervously.“YOU DID WHAT?!”Top hyung had a really loud voice. I was sure all of Spoons could hear him and his voice could possibly generate a tsunami. He grabbed me by the collar and pinned me against the wall. “Kwon Jiyong, you dumb ass! What the fuck did you do now?!”“I just saved a girl! Is it a sin to save someone’s life?! You’re always telling me to be a good person so that’s what I did!”“Did anyone else see?”“Only Dara…no one else. I left before other people could see me.”“You’re damn lucky, Jiyong. Shit, I guess we have to move now before the girl finds out what we are.”“WHAT?! I don’t want to move now! I like it here! Kwon Jiyong, this is all your fault!” Chaerin snapped.“My fault…?”“Yes, you’re fault, you bastard! You just had to save her, didn’t you?”“Well, I couldn’t risk her spilling blood unless you wanted Daesung to expose us! I can handle this! I will take care of everything!”Minzy gasped once again. I looked over to her and saw more images flash through her mind. What the fuck?! The images were of Dara…she didn’t even look like herself! Her brown eyes were black with a crimson color outlining the irises. Why the hell was she a vampire?! The images shifted and I saw myself holding Dara in my arms, she was dead and my lips were stained with her blood. “Oh, no…oh, hell no!” I shook my head.“The way I see it, one of those visions will come true…“No, it won’t…”“You can’t hide from it, Jiyong. You know my visions are usually pretty accurate.”“They aren’t coming true! I can—I can---““You’re not going to avoid her again, are you?”“Uh…well…”“Once again, the ‘great’ and ‘awesome’ Kwon Jiyong is being a coward again.”“Shut the fuck up, Chaerin!” I hissed.“There’s another way, too…”My head turned toward Minzy again. She was hiding something from me again. I tried to read her thoughts but she was blocking me out. Damn it! What was it?! “What is it Minzy? What aren’t you telling me? Is it about Dara?”That was all it took to break her down. The vision was weird and slightly disturbing. we were holding hands, skipping through a meadow of flowers. (insert happy music here) The both of us had big smiles on our faces. It was the type of corny scenes in a love drama. What the fuck was this? What kind of stupid vision was Minzy having? “What in the world…?” O.o??“If you’re strong enough, you should be able to be with her.”“Huh…?”Chaerin groaned. “Oh, hell…”“What…? What is it?” Seungri asked.“I can’t believe that this idiot is actually falling for a human!”Fall…for a human? What the hell? Where did Chaerin even get that from? I wasn’t falling in love with Dara! I just met her! That wasn’t even realistic! Bom noona looked shock. Jiyong...falling in love? Could it be…? Not her, too!“Yah! I’m not! Minzy, whatever you’re on, I think you should stop. You’re freaking me out here! Whatever stupid visions you’re having, aren’t true. They’re ridiculous! I’m not falling for Dara!”“Eh…whatever you say, Jiyong…” She smirked and walked away from me.Aish! Why was it always the quiet ones that were the most annoying?! I hated when Minzy did this to me! She was sweet but damn that girl! I was so NOT going to fall in love with Dara. That was impossible…right? Right?! RIGHT?! Shut up! No, you’re not going to fall in love with her! Happy! You’re hurting me!Shut up, brain! I’ve had enough of you for today! You’re going to fall in love with her one way or another… Damn it, I don’t want to listen to you either, heart! You, brain, angle, and devil need to shut up! We’re you, DUMB ASS! I don’t fucking care! If that’s case, then shut up self! You shut up!OMG!!!!!______________________________________________________So, i decided to update since i survived throughout the day...barely.Don't worry guys...it gets weirder as the story goes on. Anyway, please comment, subscribe, and tell others about this fic.More subscribers and comments really help me with updates! If you want updates, COMMENT!ahaha, jk. but i do appreciate comments. Anyway, THANKS for reading! XD