Scar (1/2)

(Cheombuteo sijakdo maraya haesseo

Niga ddeonagan keu sunkan buteo

Dein nae sangcheoneun deo kkeojyeoman kasseoWe shouldn’t have started from the beginning

From the moment you left me

the burn wound grew bigger) The lightning flashed, the thunder roared. Heavy rain drops began to fall, hitting the glass windows mercilessly. Somehow the windows were not going to break or crash into small fragments.I stared out of the window. Even the sky was crying, with me. So I was quite pitiful, right?It was not that I wanted to cry, burst out of tears out of the sudden. It was just a random song from my i-pod blasted into my ears and made me reminded of those…damn memories. *** “Don’t leave me,” I whispered in his ears.  He cupped my face and gave me a light peck on my lips. He just smiled as he packed his clothes in his luggage, obviously ignoring my pleas. I frowned and tugged his sleeves. (Amudo moreuge (sumgyeodo)

Aesseo keunyang oimyeon (haebwado)

Amulji anhneun nae mam hankeuseokeseo

Jaranan keu hyongteomankkeum apawaSo that nobody knows (I hide it)

I try my best to ignore it (I try to)

In the corner of my heart that doesn’t heal

the scar that grew hurts) “I said, don’t leave me,” I begged helplessly as he began to zip his luggage.“Whatever you say,” He patted my head and began to walk out of our room with his luggage.Tears started to form beneath my eyes. I had an urge to let my tears flow but I bit my lip to prevent this from happening. I rushed out of our room to stop him.Probably this was the last chance to gain him back. (Neoman isseumyeon dwae dorawajweo

Neoman saranghaettgo da mideosseo

Neol nohchiji mothae neol ddeonaji mothae

Dashi dorawajwo

Apeun kieokdeureun kajyeokajwo

Doryeonaebwado nae soge ittneun

Nae kipeun sangcheodo neolhyanghan miryeondo

Modu kajyeokajwoI just need you, come back to me

I loved only you, and believed everything

I can’t let you go, i can’t leave you

Please come back to me

Take away all the painful memories

The deep hurt inside me I keep trying to cut away

The lingering stubbornness towards you

Take it all away) “Please, I-I will listen to you if you stay and I will stop contacting Key,” this was already my last resort.He stopped in his steps and turned to glance at me.“Is it?”I nodded earnestly. “Yes, I love you, I cannot live without you.” (Chadichan neoui ibsure majimak touch

Sunkan kipeojyeo ganeun eodum soge siryeojin hush

Imi kabyeowojyeo beorin neoui hyangki

Sumjocha meojeobeorin deuthan chakaun nunkil

Munsincheoreom jiwojiji anhneun dokhan sangcheoThe last kiss on your cold, cold lips Touch

The sudden darkness, the cold Hush

Your scent that has already become so light

The cold gaze that threatens to stop my breath

The harsh wound that doesn’t erase, like a tattoo) He just rolled his eyes and said, “If you could not live without me, you wouldn’t sleep with Key.”“This was just a misunderstanding!” I retorted. He was not going to believe me, right? Where did the understanding Minho went to?That day, Minho was not at home again. It was already past midnight and he was not home. I punched his numbers on my cell phone for at least 50 times and still…“The number you are calling is currently unavailable, please try it again later.”I was frustrated and worried, but what could I do? So I called Key to came over and accompanied me, since he just lived opposite of my house.We drank soju and chatted, unknowingly we fell asleep on the couch together. His head was just lying on my lap. What was wrong with that? Why Minho made a big proportion out of it? I did not blame him for coming home late without telling me, I did not blame him for coming home with clothes smelling like rose perfume. Those females’ perfume...“Whatever you say,” this time he gave me a small smile, or more like a fake smile and walked towards the door.“DON’T!” I screamed and this time I felt my hands encircling his waist, not wanting to let go.Probably this was the last back hug I ever gave him.“YAH, LET GO!” Minho hissed as he tried to yank my hands away. I refused to let go and cling on him like a kola bear hugging its tree.“Since you refuse to let go, fine, I will tell you the truth.”Truth? Truth, regarding on our breakup?“I don’t love you anymore. The person I love right now is Krystal,” he spoke in a cold tone.W-What...?My hands gradually fell limply to my sides and he took that as an advantage. He scoffed a little as he pulled his luggage and off he went, never once turning back. I stood at the door looking his back view slowly disappeared out of my sight. The next thing I did was to slam the main door shut and rushed into our shared room. Correction, previously shared room. I climbed up to the top bunk and hugged my knees tight The tears started to flow like a heavy rainfall, unable to stop. I sniffed, I bawled, I choked, I wailed. I knew nothing would change his decision.Why...why? Why did you choose someone who was my damn god-sister? Why did you choose to hurt me?Am I not good enough? Was she better than me?(Amuryeohji anhke useodo

Aesseo neoreul jiuryeo haedo

Mareuji anhneun nae mam hankeu seogeseo

Heureudeon keu nunmul mankkeum apawaI try to laugh as if nothing’s wrong

I try my best to erase you

In the corner of my heart that doesn’t dry

it hurts as much as flowing tears) So it was not my fault at all, it was his.He used the reason of Key and I caught sleeping together as the reason of our break up; when actually his heart was no longer mine.He changed his heart; he did not love me anymore. He did not love me anymore. (Chorus:

Neoman isseumyeon dwae dorawajweo

Neoman saranghaettgo da mideosseo

Neol nohchiji mothae neol ddeonaji mothae

Dashi dorawajwo

Apeun kieokdeureun kajyeokajwo