[M] Whos First? (1/1)

You can hear a knock on your door. It wakes you from your rest.“Sweetheart?” A voice says sweetly. You Get your eyes open and see that it is Jackson.“Jackson?” you say in a disoriented voice. “What is it?”“I need to talk to you about something.” He says firmly. To this point you’ve woken up. You pat the side of your bed urging him to sit. He comes over and instead of sitting, lies comfortably in your bed. He places his hands behind his head and looks up at the ceiling. “What did you want to talk about?” you say to him.He doesn’t move or look at you when he begins to speak, “This idea of sharing. It’s different for us. Especially the idea of sharing you.” You feel as though your throat closed and you stopped breathing for a moment. You knew what he meant. It was bound to happen soon, this sexual stuff.“Oh.” Is the only word that you are capable of muttering out in this moment.“Be comfortable around me and lean on me if you need to.” You’ve never heard Jackson talk so seriously. He always had such a playful tone to himself.  “Jackson,” His movement stops you from continuing. Jackson then sits up on the bed and looks at you. His eyes gaze into yours and it sends chills through your body. He then places a hand on one side of you face and leans in slowly without losing eye contact. As he gets closer to your face he stops and says very softly, “Do you know how hard it is to control myself around you.” Then he places his lips to yours and kisses you passionately. You’ve never been kissed like this before. Your whole body wants to react and you start to kiss him back. He pulls his face away from yours and looks away from you, “I’m sorry.” He says.You’re still wrapped up in the feeling you had during the kiss, “Don’t be sorry.” You say and he looks back at you. He gentle moves a piece of hair out of your face to behind your ear. You’re hoping he will lean in for another kiss. Instead he says, “Let’s go down and get breakfast.” You’re disappointed but nod anyways and follow him out the room. You see the others are gathered in the living room and they watch you both exit your room. You are confused at the way everyone has gathered.“Took you long enough.” JR says to Jackson.“Your just made I got to wake her up and you didn’t.” Jackson says in his playful tone.“Let’s just discuss what we need to guys.” JB says to the guys. Jackson goes over and sits. JB gestures you over to sit as well and you do.JB looks to you as he talks. “~~~~~~~~~yah, you have been able to look over the contract so this conversation should come as no surprise to you.” The words ‘oh no’ pop into your head and you think about what Jackson had just said in the room.  “We are having a few problems with choosing who gets to be with you first.” You catch JB shoot a rough look at Jackson. “We also want you to be as comfortable with this situation as possible ~~~~~~~~~~yah. So we’ve decided to let you choose who will be first.”You sit there silently and think about the situation. Not only do you actually have to do this but now you have to choose. You’ve never done something like this before. To even think about it made your palms sweaty. You finally think of something to say, “When do I have to choose by?” you ask.JB replies, “Tonight.”Tonight! You yell in your head. You must have had a worried look on your face because everyone was completely silent and staring at you. “I um….I’ll be in my room for just a little.” You say as you feel your palms begin to sweat and your voice get shaky.“Noona, wait! Take some breakfast with you.” BamBam jumps up and grabs a bowl of food from the kitchen and hands it to you.“Thank you.” You go into your room, shut and lock the door and just stand there in shock.Your mind races with so many thoughts; your body is filled with so many different feelings. You don’t know who to choose and you are afraid of just do anything. You try and calm yourself down by controlling your breathing. You stay in your room for hours mentally preparing yourself while the boys are left to their own thoughts.“Gah, Noona toy looked so worried.” Yugyeom says while sprawled out on the floor tossing a small ball up and catching it repeatedly.“May she is worried because you keep calling her ‘Noona Toy’!” Mark says back to him.“Jackson probably scared her when he woke her up this morning.” Jb says from the kitchen. They share a small laugh except for Jackson.“Hey, I did not!” Jackson says defending himself.“Hyung, who do you think she will choose?” BamBam asks JR.He replies, “Me, duh.”“You sound a little too confident over there.” Mark Counters.“Oh really? You think she is going to choose you?” JR says snarky.“Hey, girls can’t resist me.” Mark says jokingly and laughs.“I think I have a shot.” Youngjae says.Jackson quickly stops him, “Youngjae, you’ve barely even talked to her!” Youngjae shrugs his shoulders.They all hear your door unlock and freeze for a moment. You leave your room when you realize it is already evening and the guys quickly gather to meet you in the living room. They all sit while you are standing in front as if you were about to give a big speech.“I’ve made up my mind.” You say nervously. The guys all sit there and wait in anticipation. “I choose…” Writer's NoteWhew! Who will be first??I'm Happy that you all are able to enjoy my story so far. Look forward to the next few chapters!