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“Ri? I thought you went back to your apartment right after work?” Yoona asked as soon as Seungri entered the house. She is watching the television with Daesung who is lying down with his head on Yoona’s laps in the living room on the couch.  Seungri shakes his head with a smile. “Tomorrow will do…” he said softly and then his eyes meet with Daesung’s. His smiles fade a little, and with that Daesung is confident that his maknae already knew the truth. Daesung fakes a small smile to his maknae in return. “Have you had your dinner?” Daesung asked. “There is more in the kitchen if you want…” “Where’s hyung?” Seungri asked directly, without responding to Daesung’s question before. Yoona looks at her brother in law weirdly, feeling different with Seungri’s manner tonight. He seems distant and Yoona is not used to this side of Seungri. “Upstairs… In his room maybe…” Yoona answered on behalf of Daesung. Seungri just let out a comforting smile and nods his head as he heading upstairs leaving the two in the living room. As soon as Seungri leaves them, Yoona looks down at her husband with worried expression. “He fought with Seohyun?” Yoona guess. Daesung shakes his head. “I don’t know… Let him be… He can’t be cheerful all the time, baby…” Daesung said reassuring. Yoona frowns at her husband’s words. She loves Seungri’s cheerful character. “Everything is fine, right?” Yoona asked again as she looks down at her husband one more time. Daesung smiles as he takes his wife’s right hand in his and kiss it softly, while looks into her eyes. “Everything is fine, don’t worry,” Daesung comforting and continues watching the television, ignoring his wife’s frown and now, his mind is back wandering to his hyung and the maknae upstairs. Meanwhile, Seungri is now standing quietly in front of Seunghyun’s room. Not daring to move, not daring to knock as he just stands there and stares emptily towards the door. Still thinking of what he wants to say and how he should react. He feels like he is back to 10 years ago. Scared and not knowing of where to go. He plucks his courage and slowly lifting up his right hand, knock the door.  “Come in…” his hyung’s deep voice appeared at his second knocking. Seungri takes a deep breath and then, opens the door slowly and walks in. He sees his hyung still with his glasses, is reading a book while leaning on the head of his now king sized bed, leisurely. Seunghyun’s bedroom is now larger and the bookshelves that before located right in front of the door now was move to the side of the wall. There is even a balcony was built for the room and it was all are their ideas since beginning. Seunghyun just followed what they want. Exactly like what they want.  “Weird… You would just barge in without knocking…” Seunghyun said as he smirks at his maknae, while pushing up his glasses which already fall down a bit at the tip of his nose. Seungri is not moving from the door and just stands there in silent while staring at his eldest hyung who is looking at him with his dumbfounded face. “How long do you plan to stand over there?” Seunghyun asked as he looks at his maknae who is just standing near the door.  Seungri let out a small smile as he then finally closed the door behind him, walks slowly towards the bed and like a kid, he climbs up on the bed, crawling next to Seunghyun’s side. Seunghyun just looks weirdly at his maknae who moves next to him, sit beside him on the bed together with him. “You stink…” Seunghyun said shortly as he looks back at his book, ignoring his maknae. “I’ll shower after this…” Seungri replied as he looks at what his hyung is reading right now, as he leans on his back at the head of the bed, like his hyung. “You should go back to your apartment right after work, right? Why are you here?” Seunghyun asked innocently, while slowly his fingers turn his current page to the next page of his book. He knows why Seungri is here. Seungri didn’t answers right away but just keep quiet, while stares emptily to Seunghyun’s book, ignoring his hyung’s question. While Seunghyun being Seunghyun, hating his question being ignore, he finally looks at his right side and looks at Seungri who ignores him. “I want to come home…” Seungri replied softly, finally answered. Seunghyun looks at his maknae who is not looking at him right now. A maknae, who no matter how older he gets, he will always be a maknae. “Do you want to talk?” Seunghyun asked again. What is there to talk about, hyung? We are back to square one. We are already come back to our old tracks. So, what is there to talk about? Seunghyun sighs at the empty respond from Seungri, so he just looks back at his book, continues reading, while waiting for Seungri to talk. Few minutes passed between them in silence. Seunghyun already turn his pages of book twice now, but still nothing from Seungri.  It must be so hard for you, right maknae? “We had a wonderful 10 years isn’t it, hyung?” Seungri finally opens his mouth but still not looking at Seunghyun. Seunghyun stops his reading as he heard that, and slowly his lips turn up to a warm smile. He can’t help but to think to himself, on how different Seungri’s reaction just now, compared to his maknae’s self from 10 years ago. If this conversation happened 10 years ago, Seungri might scream at the top of his lungs and questions fate on why this thing happened to their family but now. His responds is different. His words are different. A 28 years old, Seungri indeed. “Yes, maknae…” Seunghyun replied softly as his eyes are still on his book. “Are you happy hyung?” Seungri asked again. “So much…” Seunghyun answered. Few seconds, silence comes between them. “We are back to square one, is it okay hyung?” Seungri finally said it. Seunghyun just smiles and nods his head, as he closes his book and moves to put it on his side table. Let’s talk. “You will need to be admitted as soon as possible… Are you okay with that?” Seungri asked softly. Seunghyun again still with the smile on his face. “If you guys want it, hyung would do it…” as he now looks at his maknae beside him and Seungri is looking at him too this time. Seungri frowns at his hyung’s words. “What do you want, hyung?” Seungri asked suddenly. Seunghyun raised his eyebrows at that sudden question. What I want? “It’s always us… Since day 1, it’s always us… So, now I’m asking you… What do you want?” Seungri said. Seunghyun smiles warmly at his maknae as he moves right hand to Seungri’s head, and softly patting Seungri’s head. His maknae is asking him what he wants. What he wants now? If this question was ask to him 10 years ago, it would be “his family”, “his dongsaengs” and “more time”. Thankfully, he got all the things that he wants. Taeyang came back after so many years being away. Then, finally his dongsaengs are with him, stays in their home together. Everything went greatly and perfectly happy for them in those 10 years, even till today, right this second, everything is still perfect. He is able to get everything that he wants, thanks to someone, who died, just for him to live his life happily with his family. Having more time to live, more time to create great memories, more time to taste the real happiness of having everyone around him, having more time to feel the love of a father, more time to watch what God have in stores for all of them and just like he said before, he has a wonderful 10 years. Seunghyun still remembers about his own reaction when Jong Suk told him that his tiredness, shortness of breath and dizziness was not because of overworking, but it because of the heart. His body is showing rejection towards the heart. Seunghyun laughed at the news. His eyes warm in tears, as he digest the diagnosis but it’s not because devastation. Seunghyun knew himself. It was not devastation that he feels at that time.  “Expiry date is coming…” he said with a bitter smile to his friend. This is not his heart to begin with.  “Another transplant will help, Seunghyun-ah…” Jong Suk replied.Seunghyun shakes his head in responds.“This heart is not the problem, Jong Suk-ah… It just that, this heart is not even mine to begin with. My body can shows rejection for the first or second year of having it in me, but like you said before, it matched. It matched perfectly with me. So why now? Why my body is rejecting the heart now?” Seunghyun asked. Jong Suk keeps his mouth shut, not knowing how to answer. Seunghyun looks directly at his best friend with a smile.“She just gave me 10 years, Jong Suk-ah… And I am very very happy in those 10 years…” “What do you want, hyung?” Seungri asked again, patiently waiting for his hyung to speak. Seunghyun pulls his hand away from Seungri’s head as he looks at his maknae with a meaningful look. “Hyung wants to go home, Seungri…” Seunghyun said softly as his own eyes slowly brimming with tears.  Seungri clenched his jaws as heard that. He notices the tears.  “But you are home….” Seungri’s voice is shaking when he replied sadly, half begging. He doesn’t know why he is begging but this is it. The fact that he knew his eldest hyung so well, he just can’t help it as he looks directly into Seunghyun’s eyes. “We had a wonderful 10 years, Seungri… I get to stay with all of you, seeing all of you growing up, married, have kids and even now you are a heart specialist. Luckily I get to see all of that. Don’t you think?” Seunghyun continued and finally Seungri looks away, not knowing what to say to his hyung at the moment. Just like what Seungri has expected, Seunghyun continues. “It’s been 10 years Seungri… I miss her…”  That kind home… It’s her…