My broken heart (1/1)
" There's no perfect love. If you found one, You are lucky enough my child. But we have the this assumption of having a perfect love but the minute it falls apart, everything just end. So I rather not let you be in love. Because I dont want you to feel the pain I felt sweetheart." My mother will always say that while caressing my hair. The time my father left us, the house was never the same again. Reading books was my past time. The ones with hapy endings, with perfect love. It was the time when I thought father just took a vacation, and I often ask mom if I can find my very own fairytale. Damn, I was wrong.Never fall in love. I hoped I have just listened to her.They say Love is the powerful thing in the universe because it has the ability to destroy everything. It breaks barriers, breaks all the hindrance and it also broke my heart.They said love will kill me, so I should stop.
But my heart screams his name.
How can something so deadly be the reason of my happiness?
"Your ancestors never wanted to fall in love, because they were scared to fall apart and break, causing the heart to break as well. Shattering it into small pieces and you know what can happen next."Death. But, Id rather die than waking up to see him never being mine.Lay gave me a cup of hot tea. "Drink. It helps calm the nerves."
I was feeling the cold air that the night is giving me, Drying up the tears that was present before. But, everytime I take a breath, a short pain shots up through my chest making me wince. " They say that the golden heart is the most powerful, I was wrong." Suho said, leaning on the cold rail and looking at the view. Taking Lay's tea, I took a sip and the flavor of Jasmine just burst inside my mouth.
"Its actually love." He softly smiled as his eyes shifted his gaze on me. "It actually broke my heart..." I took a sip again. "Is it bad? The crack, I mean." I asked them both. " worse than a migraine. I cant heal heartbreaks permanently, but someone told me if love destroyed it, Love will mend it back together."
"Prevention is better than cure minnah. Its better to lay low with the boys for a while until you forgot what happened today. I know its hurting and Lay can temporarily ease the pain, but the minute you think about Xiumin, It might get worse."
It was a mistake, my mistake. I should have kept my feelings inside so that I wont be hurting like this. I tuck my hair in my ears as I made my desicion.
"Give me your best shot lay. Make me better."*****************************Baby don’t cry tonight eodumi geochigo namyeon~I was lying down on my bed like a paralyzed psychopath. I kept listening to exo for me to be better, skipping xiumin's singing part. Its better to be early for school so I grabbed my clothes and started to got ready. I cant sleep anyway since yesterday, so whats the point of sitting here, having a staring contest with the ceiling. The volume on my phone was on high volume that their song filled my room with emotions.
Baby don’t cry tonight eobseotdeon iri doel geoya
Mulgeopumi doeneun geoseun nega aniya kkeutnae mollaya haetdeon~Yeah. You tell me exo. one of your members just made me cry last night.
It was an ordinary day for me. Its like a day before I met exo and weird things started happening to me. Back to messy bun, ordinary minnah who skips breakfast and works at night. I wanted to call Diana and cry my heart out, But I'll save it for later because I was planning to have a date talk with her in Lin's club. I grabbed my jacket in the laundry and planned on leaving early to avoid other members and have a conversation with them.With headphones on, and volume on high, I ignored the world and let myself sink in the melody of the music. Sun was peeking out of the clouds and my hands was wrapped aroung my guitar bag and started to walk my way to the bus stop.*******************************Luhan's POVI was fully aware of the rule that our leaders gave us when we started to protect minnah. It was to never fall in love with her. The consequences was too hard to face and I cant let minnah to be hurt. Even though she's always on my mind. The way she smiles, her eyes that talks when she looks at you, I always stare at her from afar or even take quick glances whenever shes around. Yes, I am lovesick, but it seems her heart was meant for another person. It was obvious that everytime they are together, Her smile is much better and her radiance was more beautiful.I was jealous. I envy my hyung who's being loved, but everyone knows his secret why he doesn't have a girlfriend. He cant love. And still, he was being liked by minnah. Why not me? Let me love minnah back, the way she gives of hers. But, whats the point of being jealous when in the first place, she was never yours.
"Hyung." I remember last night when he angrily walked his way in our shared room, grabbed his jacket and went out of the dorm. He didnt came back until I woke up early in the morning and planned on having an early walk, have my breakfast on the convenience store on the corner of the street.sitting relaxingly on the palstic chair outside as I wait for 3 minutes for the instant noodles to cook, I had the time to look and admire seoul early in the morning. until I saw a goddess walking down the street. Her newly dyed red hair (courtesy of Tao) was seen from afar. She was like a rose with that hair, making me stare at her walking dazed in the streets. "minnah!" I tried to get her attention, but it seems that her mind is wandering off. I left my ramen uneaten and went to the pedestrian lane in which I stood there, still calling her name. The red light that indicates stop was the only barrier thats stopping me to reach her from the other side. But, Im thinking she cant notice the red light and started crossing the lane.Why do you have to listen to music?! You'll die! AISH. This girl...... She's really crazy... she was committing suicide when she crosses that street in a red light and a fast car is about to hit her and bring her to the afterlife. "Minnah!" Goddamit. My legs began to act on its own, sprinting to where minnah is located, in the middle of the pedestrian lane with empty eyes and wandering mind. I held her hand, as I hear tires screeching, like it was screaming near my ears and the wave of energy that made me manipulate the fast car to a halt was the only one that saved us from dying. I can still hear the engines revving, and inside was the shocked driver in the seat, hands clenched tightly on the handle.
I was standing stiffly as the car's headlights was touching my knees. Minnah was tightly gripping my shirt and the other was holding the guitar case so tight, face buried on my right shoulder. I can sense she was scared as I was scared. Her headphones were singing loudly as I took it off and began to scold her. "You should not be listening so loudly minnah. It might get you killed!" I reached for her chin to face me, and my eyes met a crying one. Her eyelashes were wet with her tears and black mascara was pouring waterfalls down her cheeks. "i--im...im---.. s--sorry." she stammered.The crowd was gathering and cameras were flashing everywhere. oh damn. We shouldn't be here for a reason. I hear gossips that makes minnah more uncomfortable. I took her shaking hands and pulled her away.Away from everything and into my arms, because the last thing I wanted to do was to protect her.Because I love her.