Hesitant Feelings (1/2)

**________’S POV**“WHAT?!” I exclaimed at the living room where Geun Seuk and I sit beside each other. I was looking at him, trying to get him to repeat what he had said. But he did not talk back. “Geun Seuk-ah! But you told me that we are not going to the party.”

“I said, I… Will go to that party.” He replied as he continues to read his book.

“You? Alone?” He nods. “If you are going, then I am going…” I said, insisting.

“You just stay here with, hyung. After all, there is nothing much to do in there. I’ll go home early.” He told me and taps my head like I am a little girl and went upstairs as if avoiding me. I do not even understand the change of mind that happened to Geun Seuk. He keeps on telling everybody that if I’ll not go, he’ll not go either. There is something weird about that, too. I crossed my arms as I lean comfortably on the sofa.**Gahd! I am starting to get crazy in here** The party will be tonight. I do not know if I’ll follow Geun Seuk’s command on not going. But I am kind of worried, knowing that he’ll go alone. Yeah, Choo Hee and Hong Ki will be there but I really wanted to see with my own eyes what Hae Yoon Is trying to do. It’s not even impossible that girl like to reconcile but it’s impossible either that she wants to do that. I sighed deeply. I really do not know what to do. Maybe I should just keep quiet and follow Geun Seuk on that party without him knowing.“Hong Ki-yah! I need your help!” I said to Hong Ki on the other line.

“Oh yeah? What is it?” He replied.

“Can we go to the party together? Yeah, I mean, keep me out of Geun Seuk’s sight. Is it okay?”

“What are you planning to do again, you weird girl”

“Come on! Is it a yes?”

“Sure… sure… Just explain to me everything when we see each other, ‘kay?”

“All right. See you later. I’ll call you if Geun Seuk already leaves.”

“Got it!” He told me. We hung up and put my phone inside my sweater’s pocket again. I ran upstairs to check on something I could wear for the party. I opened my cabinet and checked my outfits one by one. I only have few girly blouses and few skirts on my things and it’s been a long time since I used them. I sighed deeply. Then I saw the brown skirt and my brown legging that I’ve bought for my brother’s birthday. It was a complete set. I love him coz it’s not that daring and the skirt has its own legging.YOUR OUTFIT: nicefun.net/userpix/10_Cute_korean_outfits_2_1.jpg I laid them all down over my bed and smiled at the sight. “Heeee~ I hope I can pull this off” This will be the first time I will wear anything girly again. I went down and saw the whole house empty. I went to my elder’s brother room. It was empty. Then I went to Geun Seuk’s room and poke my head inside and it was empty too. *Where the hell was those two* Then, I saw a box of choco boy over Geun Seuk’s study table like a statue. I was kind of surprised knowing that he will not buy something like that on his own. I entered Geun Seuk’s room and approached his study table. I grab the box; it was empty and felt something behind it. I turned the box on the other side to see what it was. What I saw surprised me. It was the sticky note pad that I posted on that choco boy box to give to Geun Seuk as a breakfast when I told him to not to go to school that day.*He kept this?* I felt happy, my heart were racing as if it will never stop. I could feel my face getting redder. I smiled.*Aisht… That guy* I put the box down on it’s place and exited Geun Seuk’s room. Then, I heard someone opened the door, I checked it and it was Jung Su-oppa. He turned to me as he put the keys back to the holder.“_______-ah…” He smiled at me.