Chapter 12 (1/1)

Your POVThe booming music can be heard from the outside. To be honest, I’m nervous. I don’t even remember how the dance goes. After this performance from TVXQ we’re next. I’m scared, so scared. What if I mess up? What if I trip or fall or faint on stage? What i-“Don’t worry. You’ll do fine.” He said as he put an arm around my shoulder. I don’t need to check who it was. I know that voice.“I hope so!” I exclaimed nervously.“Come on! You’re being hysterical. You’ll do great. Trust me.” He stated and then hugged me. The reassuring hug that swept my nervousness away all of a sudden.“But Sehun I-” I started to talk again but he cut me off.“No buts! Don’t be too nervous, you can do this! You will do this.” He said emphasizing the ‘will’ in the sentence. And all I did was nod. Before I knew it TVXQ was done and we are next.“Okay guys! You’re next go find your partners! Chop chop!” The staff hastily said.We did as what was told and soon we were towards the stage.My hands were shaking. My knees were shaking. Every joint inside my body was shaking. Until someone held my hand. I turned to look at who it was and it was Jongin.“We will do this! Alright?” He reassured and of course all I can do was nod.The music started and We started dancing to it. And soon it was finished, just like that it was done. I sighed.“It was the best experience ever in my life so far!!” I squealed out of joy then reflexively jumped and hugged Jongin. I seriously enjoyed everything!“I know. It was perfect.” He said.  Kai’s POV“It was the best experience ever in my life so far!!” She exclaimed and then she hugged me.“I know. It was perfect.” I said as I hugged back.I don’t understand why she makes me feel this way. She makes me feel, I don’t know, safe.  Your POVSo there’s an after party and we don’t have a choice but to come. I entered and the first thing I saw was the buffet table on both my left and right side.Tables were set up and all the SM artists were talking to each other. I turned my head to look at my surroundings and to observe what was happening. Until someone caught my eye.I saw Sehun talking to Krystal and they look like they were having fun. They were laughing and things. I won’t deny that I feel jealous. But what can I do. I’m just his friend. His best friend. Sometime I wonder what if things suddenly change. What if he finds another best friend, that best friend who’ll understand him more than I do, that best friend who can take care of him more than I can. That best friend who’ll make him happy anytime of the day. And then he’ll forget about me. He’ll forget about everything we’ve shared. I wonder what will happen to me when that happens. I decided to just walk around and entertain myself. I found a balcony. There I can inhale fresh air.I sat on a bench and simply breathed.But, really, What if he finds a better person worth trusting? Will he forget?Thinking about this now made me cry. I can’t believe I’m actually crying right now.“I knew I’d find you here.” He said softly. It’s Sehun. I know it’s him. I ran to him and clashed my figure against his. I hugged him and cried.“Why are you crying? Hmm?” He asked worriedly as he hugged back.I shook my head and hugged him tighter. “Nothing.” My voice croaked.We stayed like that for how many minutes then he broke the hug.“What is it?” He asked as he wiped my tears with his thumb.“I just thought about many things.” I sobbed out.“Things like what?” He led me to the bench and we sat down.“Things like… like what if you find a replacement for me. What if you find a better person? What will happen to me?” I tried to hold back my tears but failed after the last sentence.“Why are you thinking about this?” Sehun asked, amused.“I don’t know.” I shrugged.“Come on! I know you have a reason behind it.”“It’s just..”“Just what?”“Just that..”“What?”“I saw you with Krystal earlier an-”“And you were jealous?”“No I was not!”“You were!“I was not!”“You were, don’t deny it!”“Fine! I was kind of jealous.” I emphasized ‘kind of’ along the way.“No one can replace you ______.” Sehun assured me. “Understand?” I nodded as a response.It was silent after that. It was not awkward though. It was just pure comfortable silence.“Sehun.” I broke the silence.“Hmm?” He responded.“Please tell me if you found someone better one day.” I stated.“That day won’t happen.” Then he looked at me and smiled.I hugged him and cried once again. If only I can tell you how I feel. I wish I could. When I do and you don’t feel the same, I hope everything stays as it is. As what it is right now. I love you, you don’t cause I’m your best friend. And I guess… that’s we ever can be?                       ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------OLAAAAAA! I HAVE UPDATED!!!!!! kekekekekeke!!So how do you like it? It's a sad update for me actually since I'm also sad! keekeke!I'm so sorry If i haven't updated I was really so busy about school!!AnyyyyyyyyyyyyyI can't reply to you guys personally right now but to sjistheloveofmylife, LeaderMaknae, Sedslikekpop, seal580, and lululemon_lover24- Thank you sooooooooooo much for appreciating my fic!!! I love you guys soooooooooooo much!!!