Thinking Of You (1/1)

Mia’s POVThe past weekend went to quickly for my taste and Baro had to leave to go back to Korea. “When I come back you better be discharged from this hospital,” he says giving me one last hug before he leaves the room.“We’ll see about that,” I say sighing. “It doesn’t seem like I’ll ever be able to get out of here.”“Correction,” Dad says barging in.“What are you doing?” I ask glaring at him.“I just got confirmation from the doctor that you’re allowed to leave, isn’t that great?”“That really is great,” Baro says giving a smile. “Then next weekend when all of us come, we can visit you in your home rather than this hospital room.”“Of course,” Dad says giving him a smile. I guess Dad has taken a liking to Baro because he’s always here with me, but he still doesn’t like Gongchan, or maybe he’s lightened up to him a little bit. I really don’t know.“Well, I have to get going before I miss my flight. I’ll see you next weekend,” Baro says giving a smile and a wave before he disappears.“When am I able to get released?” I ask Dad.“In two days time you’ll be able to feel the comfort of your own bed back home. Once you go home, you’re allowed to do light activity and you are allowed to go outside, but you can’t overexert yourself.”“I got it,” I say smiling. I’m finally going to be able to leave this place. “What about school, though?”“Ultimately, I think you’re going to have to stay back a year, unless you want to go to school in the summer and attempt to make it up. I don’t know if you’ll be able to,” Dad sighs.“I’ll be content with waiting a year,” I tell him. “I think it would be too much to jump right in.”“Yeah,” he says agreeing with me.“Um, Dad,” I say before he can walk out of the room.“Yeah?” he asks turning to look at me.“What do you think of me going back to Korea to finish my studies after the year passes? I’ll spend the year here with you until I can go back there. Do you think I’d be able to?”“Possibly…I’m not sure, Mia,” Dad says before he leaves.At least that’s a better answer than nothing. Who knows, maybe he’ll finally let me back, but if I go back, then that means that I’ll probably see Gongchan again. can I handle that? Well, if Baro says that we’re destined to be together, then I guess we’re bound to see each other again sometime. I can’t just spend my whole life avoiding him.Right before my eyes, two days quickly passes and it’s time for me to get out of the hospital. “Do you have everything?” Dad asks.“I think so,” I say taking another look around the room. “Wait.” I go over to the table and grab the ring that Gongchan got me, slipping it into my pocket. “Now I think I have everything.”“What about me?” a familiar voice asks entering the room.“Unni?” I ask turning and seeing her standing at the door of the hospital room. “Why are you here?”“Because I wanted to make sure that you were comfortable here and going home since Dad has to get back to meetings.”“Oh,” I say nodding at her answer. “It’s good to see you again. I’ve missed you.”“I’ve missed you, too,” she says hugging me. “Let’s get your luggage into the car quickly so you can finally get out of this place.”“You know, I never thought that I would say this, but I think I’m going to miss this hospital room,” I say as I laugh and look around. “I’ve spent so long in here.”“Well, you’re finally leaving,” she says with a bright smile.“How long are you going to stay here?” I ask. “Unless you have to go right back today.”“No, silly,” she says gently hitting my head. “I’ve taken a whole week off that we can spend together before I have to go back.”“A week? Are you sure that you can do that long?” I worriedly ask.“No problem,” she says wrapping her arm around my shoulder. “You’re my sister, why couldn’t I be able to?” I shrug my shoulders at her question, which causes her to laugh. Gongchan’s POV“Noona went to visit Mia for a week? Why didn’t she go when I was there,” Baro complains.“We are going there, we’re leaving a day early so we can get there and make the fullest out of our time with Mia,” Jinyoung says as he looks over a book that has things to do when in America.“Can’t I just stay home?” I ask as I grab the green dinosaur that Mia gave me. Unknowingly, it became one of my favorite toys.“No, you’re going,” Sandeul says as he comes over and sits on me since I’m lying on the floor on my stomach. “You have to go, we’re not letting you stay home by yourself and we’ve already asked Manager-hyung and he approved.”“Why don’t we just go now then,” I grumble.“We have some more schedules to do, that’s why,” Shinwoo says. “We can’t just leave.”“Noona did,” Baro mumbles. He’s mad just because she went after he already left. “Oh, I think I know why noona decided to go today.”“Why?” Jinyoung asks taking his head out of the book for one moment.“Today is the day that Mia’s being released from the hospital,” he announces.“Really?” we all ask surprised.“That’s great,” Sandeul says with a wide smile as he gets off of me.“She’s probably helping Mia move back into their house in America,” Baro says thinking about it.“How long is she going to stay there?” Shinwoo asks.“I’m not sure,” Baro says sighing. “She might stay there forever and never come back here. It all depends on what her father lets her do. It’s up to him.”Silence falls between all of us until Jinyoung breaks it up. “Guys, we have to get ready to go to the salon for our appointment before our music video shoot today.”“Yeah,” we all say getting up off of the floor and going to get ready.It takes about a half an hour, but we’re finally all done and in the car driving to the salon. “What are we doing with our hairs today?” Baro asks as we’re taking off.“You’ll see, I’m not entirely sure myself,” Manager-hyung admits.“Am I going to become blonde?” Sandeul asks.“Not blonde, pink,” Baro says touching his hair.“Can I become green then?” Shinwoo asks.“We can be the rainbow,” I chime in as we all laugh.“I’m sure you guys aren’t going that far,” Manager-hyung says sighing at our ridiculousness.“It would be cool if we did,” Sandeul says thinking about it. “Then maybe we could wear the same color as our hair, then we would really match.”I look at Manager-hyung while Sandeul is saying these things and he just shakes his head. He has to be used to these antics by now. Slowly, he pulls into a parking space and we all hop out and go into the salon.Jinyoung and I get escorted to a separate place while the other three go somewhere else. “What are we doing today?” Jinyoung asks as he sits in a chair. I sit down next to him.“As far as we know, Jinyoung, you’ll be red,” the stylist said, “like a deep red and Gongchan, you’re going blonde, like whitish blonde.”“Really?” I ask looking at Jinyoung.“So that means we are going to be the rainbow,” Jinyoung says laughing.Quickly, Jinyoung and I are escorted back as they begin doing the process for dying our entire heads. “If we get our hairs dyed, then would Mia be able to recognize us?”“Are you worrying about how Mia will see you now?” Jinyoung asks giving a suggestive look.“No,” I say furiously shaking my head.“Of course you aren’t,” Jinyoung says sighing and looking away. “But Mia probably wouldn’t be able to recognize us at first glance. It’s our hair that’s getting changed, Channie, not our faces.”“Right,” I awkwardly say before I turn to watch the stylist put the dye into my hair. Mia’s POV“What’s this?” unni asks picking up the ring that I set on my side table. “I don’t remember you having that before. Did you just place it there?”“I got it as a gift,” I say paying no attention to it as I make sure everything is organized in my room.“Was it a Christmas gift from Gongchan?” she asks.“No,” I say slightly freezing, but resume what I’m doing.“Why do I think you’re lying?” she asks.“I’m not,” I say shaking my head.“Then why does it have Gongchan’s name etched onto the inside,” she asks holding it up while I turn around. “This was his Christmas gift to you wasn’t it.”“I wasn’t there for Christmas,” I say shaking my head. “How could I have gotten it? I was sitting in a hospital.”“Baro could’ve delivered it to you,” she says. “Actually, speaking of this ring. I’m pretty sure that Gongchan gave it to you.”“You’ve already said that,” I say as I go back to organizing my things.“Well, I mean it. I think I’ve seen Gongchan wearing something like this.” My ears perk up at that statement. “Wait a minute; I think I have a picture of it.”“Why would you be randomly carrying around a picture of them?” I ask turning around to face her.“They wanted me to give it to you. They left messages on it,” she says handing me the picture. “I’m going to go see if there’s any more stuff that needs to be taken in. Alright?”As soon as she leaves, I look at the picture. Immediately, I look at Gongchan’s hands which are both visible. I don’t even know when this picture was taken, but my guess is saying that it was after I left. Looking at Gongchan’s hands, however, I see that he has the ring on and upon closer inspection, it looks exactly like mine. Well, no duh since he’s the one that bought them, but that means that he’s wearing his.For some reason, I find myself sitting in front of my computer and watching an interview of B1A4 that happened a week or so ago.“So Gongchan, you have yourself a girlfriend?” the interviewer asks.“Ah, well, she got transferred to a hospital in America,” Gongchan announces.“I’m so sorry, did something happen to her?” the interviewer worriedly asks.“As from what I’ve heard, she is doing fine right now. Thanks.”“So then have you guys broken up?”“For the time being,” he responds. “While she’s in America, I hope for her to concentrate on getting well. We have our little bond together, anyway,” he says with a smile.With that, the questions about me are over in the interview, but I noticed his hands the whole time, he was wearing the ring then, which means that he’s probably wearing the ring now.I stare at the ring that unni put back onto my table. Gongchan is wearing the ring so easily, but I can’t. maybe it’s because I can’t forgive him for sending me back to America without a second thought or maybe it’s something else. Maybe it’s because I just can’t forgive him right now and because we haven’t talked in so long. Yeah, that’s it.I turn my attention back to the picture and read all of the messages that they sent me. Hey! Mia! We’ll be seeing you soon, don’t fret about missing us too much! You haven’t forgotten your Sandeullie, have you? You better remember about me fast before I come to America and you should take me to places with good food! I laugh at Sandeul’s message, it sounds exactly like him. Next is Shinwoo’s. Mia-ah, we’ll be coming to America soon. Hopefully you still remember us. It feels like forever since we last saw you, but we’ll see you soon, alright? Shinwoo Same Shinwoo, short and sweet message. Jinyoung is after that. Mia! Everyone here really misses you and I can’t wait to see you again. I know Suzy would like to see you, too. How are you holding up? Baro gives us weekly updates about you so we always know about your condition and aren’t missing you too much. See you soon! Charismatic leader, Jinyoung. So Jinyoung to take the formal message. Baro’s is next. I just saw you. There’s not really much for me to say except that I can’t wait to see you again. Your favorite person, Baro. I laugh at Baro’s message, so typical of him, too. Just short and sweet since we always see each other. The last person’s message is Gongchan. Gongchan’s POV“Guys, what happened to your hair?” Sandeul asks coming in and seeing them style it.“Um…they dyed it?” I ask looking at him. “No pink for you?”“Nope,” he says shaking his head with a little pout on his face. “It’s just dyed a little lighter.”“Seems like it’s barely at all,” Jinyoung comments causing the both of us to laugh.After a while, we head over to the music video filming where we film all of the dance sequences first before the individual parts. Once that’s done, I’m up first for acting with the girl.“Just act as though you’re boyfriend and girlfriend, simple,” the director tells me.“Yeah,” I say as I take my place. As they start playing the song, the only person that comes through my mind is Mia. Throughout all of my action, the person I’m thinking the girl as is Mia. It doesn’t take long to finish my shoot because of that.“You did great,” the director says coming over and praising me. “I would’ve believed that she really is your girlfriend. She’s not, right?” he jokes.“No,” I say shaking my head. “Today is the first time I’m meeting her.”“Well, you’re very good,” he says praising. “Let’s do it again but from a different angle this time. If you do the same acting like before, with the same emotions, then we’ll be done.”“Okay,” I say as I go back to my place. Once again, though acting again, I think of Mia. My mind has been going to her a lot lately, ever since the guys said that we’re going to go visit her next week. It’s like my thoughts are completely filled with her. This feels like the time that we just met and I have a crush on her. I guess feelings never fade.“What are you already doing back, Channie?” Baro asks as I sit at a table.“I’m already done,” I say.“Really? That was fast,” Sandeul comments as he eats some more snacks. “How did you get done so quickly?”“Did you imagine that the girl was Mia?” Baro asks.“That is true,” Sandeul says agreeing with him before I’m even able to get a word in.The rest of the time, since I’m already done, I just lounge around and don’t really do anything. Everyone is already doing their single shoots. I sit by Manager-hyung really. “Why did you approve this trip to America?” I ask him.“You don’t want to go?” he asks slightly surprised.“I’m not so sure anymore,” I say sighing.“I thought you would want to see Mia. All the guys always complain how much they miss her and how Baro is the only one that gets to visit her. You don’t want to? You missed her like crazy when she left.”“Yeah, but,” I begin.“No buts,” he firmly says. “You’re the one that sent her away. Is that why you don’t want to see her anymore?”“I don’t know if she’ll like me anymore,” I say sighing.“Just trust yourself,” he says patting me on the back.“I trusted that Mia and I were okay in our relationship and look at what happened to her,” I scoff.“Gongchan, if you don’t try things, then you’re never going to know how they work out,” he says as he gets up from his seat.“Where are you going?” I ask looking at him as he walks away.“I’m going to leave you alone for right now. It seems as you could use some thinking time by yourself. If you ever change your mind about the trip, tell me and I’ll schedule for you to have some activities alone while the others are away.”“You know that I can’t go out by myself,” I tell him.“Then how about you tag along?” he suggests as he walks away.I sit there thinking about what he said. Even if I hate myself for those things happening to Mia, I can’t dwell in the past. Nothing good comes out of dwelling in the past. I guess if I do want something to happen, I have to try and new things. I mean, I’m even wearing the ring that I got her. That has to show that I still like her, right?I sigh as I stare at the ring. It would be nice to go to America once and see it there and see where Mia used to live before she came to Korea. I guess I’ll go on the trip. Mia’s POV“Well, the first day home, don’t you feel happy?” unni asks as she eats some more pizza.“I guess,” I say flipping through the channels on the television.“You know, the boys are coming this weekend, right?” she asks.“Baro already told me and they told me over the phone,” I say remembering the phone call.“Just letting you know,” she says with a smile. Silence befalls us once again before she speaks. “You still like Gongchan, don’t you?”“I don’t know,” I quietly respond as I stop on a channel.“I’m sure you do,” she says with a smile. “And I can tell that he still likes you.”“Then why did he give Dad permission to take me back here?” I ask. “Why did he just abandon me?”“He wanted to protect you,” she tells me. “He thought that the only way to protect you was by not being by your side anymore, was by moving you to a different country where no one would hurt you. It’s his form of protecting you.”“Great protecting he’s done,” I mutter. “He was dead serious about keeping you safe. If you just saw his face,” she says as she keeps explaining. “He called me and he called Dad to ask if Dad could get an earlier flight so you could be out of there as soon as possible.”“That’s great?” I ask as I get up to get a drink, but she follows me into the kitchen and keeps talking.“Look, if you saw how hurt his face was throughout the whole time he was telling us to take you to America, you would understand. You would see that he was doing it out of love. Because he loves you he was letting you go so you could be safe and not die. What type of guilt would he live with knowing that you died because of him? Mia, please just try to understand his actions, okay?”“Can I though?” I ask placing my cup down on the counter. “Can I understand it? When I woke up, the first thing I looked for was him, but then I found out that I’m sitting in a hospital in America and everything I loved was left behind in Korea. I find out that the one that I loved, my boyfriend is the one that sent me here. Then I get the ring and I get a letter saying that we’ll keep in touch, everything’s alright, but we’ve never kept in touch.”“He probably didn’t know when you were awake,” unni whispers.“Whatever the case may be, I spent weeks in the hospital just wondering what went wrong. I wondered what happened to Gongchan and me that it had to end up like this. I wondered day and night and I never came up with an answer, never,” I tell her.“Well maybe it can be your answer now,” she sits down at the counter. “I’ve told you his perspective now, maybe you can think about it some more before their arrival, alright?”“Fine,” I sigh. “I’m going up to my room.”Up in my room I sit with the ring and his letter sitting on my desk. I stare at them both and think about what my sister just told me. I begin thinking about Gongchan’s experience with having to let me go. It probably was just as hard on him as it was on me when I woke up, except he was the one that had to make the decision. Gongchan,You’re going to come soon to visit. I don’t know what I should fell. Am I happy? Am I sad? Am I just neutral? You left me utterly confused with no one to lean on, except you felt the same feeling before I did. Maybe I am looking forward to your arrival a little. Confused about her feelings,Mia----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------What did Gongchan's message to Mia say? What will Gongchan and Mia say when they see each other again? Will they both come in acceptance to their still lingering feelings? Here is Chapter 24. Hope you enjoyed :DI think there might be 2 more chapters left. The next one and then I think there'll be an epilogue of some sort. The end is so near.