Love the Way You Lie (Kai (1/1)

Written by Former Admin AbbieBased off this song.It was perfect.The wind through your hair as you lay together in the park between the grass. The gentle laughter floating through the air. The words hanging on your skin; hanging on your lips.But nothing lasts.Everything good has to come to an end.The wind through your hair became the air rustling past you as he shoves you into the wall. The gentle laughter became harsh growls as he fights back anyone who accompanies you. The words hanging on your skin, on your lips, because rash insults, curses and whatever else your foul mouth can scream at him.You became broken, beaten, bruised.He became powerful, obsessive, different.He wasn’t Jongin anymore. He was Kai now.He lied, he drank, he abused; he did whatever his hands would let him. He let his anger take control, he broke all his promises.I promise I’ll never hurt you.I promise I’ll be more careful next time.I promise I’ll restrain myself.He became a broken record, never letting you leave, never letting you believe that he was lying. He had an iron grasp on you, tugging you back whenever you tried to escape.But in the end, you knew you weren’t going to leave.Because those broken promises were what kept you alive.It kept you crazy, it kept you busy, it kept you you.Your temper, you lashings, your screams, they all spanned from these lies he would feed you and you know what?You loved the way he lied.You loved how he would tempt you with words, tease you with promises he couldn’t keep; you loved watching him suffer, because you were suffering too.His words swung like bees, his touch burned like flames; he left scars behind him wherever he went.It was his trademark.Kai was here.This is mine.Do not touch.His transformation, it wasn’t the relationship you wanted. It wasn’t the boy you wanted.But as long as Jongin was there, whether he be himself or Kai, he was there, and that was what you wanted.You wanted the comfort of knowing that he was with you. The comfort of knowing he was always going to be there at night. The comfort of knowing that he was yours, no matter how unfaithful he may be when you turn your head.He loved you so much at first. He loved you so much it hurt to breathe; so much that he couldn’t function, he couldn’t do anything but smile.He would gush over you, treat you like a princess.But then it was almost as if a tornado met a volcano and his whole persona flipped upside down and around.His gushing became possessive showing off, running his hands down your curves to tease his friends into jealousy. His love became forceful; he pinned you down, fought with you so you couldn’t leave; scared you into submission.But you were stuck in this loop.This uncontrollable loop that neither of you could escape from.He’d do you wrong, he’d promise to do better, he’d beg you to stay, he’d apologise, look you in the eyes and say he’s sorry and then start all over again.He knows what’s he’s doing and that’s the worst part.He knows he’s breaking you apart, tearing you limb by limb, organ by organ until you’re fragile tiny pieces, too scared to leave but too scared to stay.He knows he’s ruining your life, your dignity, but he doesn’t care because you’re his now. You’re each other’s and that’s the vows you made.Every time you leave, he pulls you back. Every time you hit him, he hits you back. Every time you cry, he breaks his defences that little bit more.Until he finally snaps; breaks; tears.He knows what he’s doing to you and that’s the worst part.He knows it’s his fault. He knows he can’t live with the guilt.“A mass fire this afternoon in Seoul, South Korea kills one man, Kim Jongin. The event is being investigated, but the police assume suicide. More at ten o’clock.”