Tears and Laughter (1/1)

Risa's pov: I rested my head on Jinki's chest, hearing his heart beat against my ear, somehow calming me down. He had his arms wrapped around me and held me close to him. We must have thought the same.We didn't want to be apart from each other, definitely not now.My eyes were still teary and I didn't need to look to know that Jinki was silently crying as well.Biting my bottom lip, I lifted my head, trying to get his attention. He looked down and gave me a soft smile, planting a gentle kiss on my forehead."What is it?" he asked, his voice a bit hoarse."Aren't you angry at me?" I asked hesitant.Jinki looked at me with big eyes before smiling again, his head shaking left and right."Of course not.""Why?" I asked.I didn't understand it, I didn't understand him.Why could he be like this? If I actually force dhim to alk, forced him to look into my eyes insead of avoiding me, then maybe...just maybe we wouldn't have broken up at all.My heart was like being stabbed over and over every moment I thought about it.Jinki.... He had such a hard time back then yet why didn't he evr tell me? Why didn't I ever ask him about it...? Now that I think of it, was us breaking up that easy?My heart tightened painfully, making me feel horrible."Stop blaming yourself in your head. Don't think I don't know what you're thinking." Jinki scolded me, cupping my face, our eyes meeting and making contact. "We were both stupid so it's not only your fault, okay?" he asked, his eyes glimmering with sadness.I bit the insides of mt cheeks, still feeling awful.What kind of girlfriebnd was I?!"The important thing is that we're together now." he tried to smile, caressing my face ebfore tugging my messy hair behind my ears. "I'm just really happy we're together now."I smiled and nodded, trying to push the guilt aside.He's right.Everything happend because it happend and the most important thing is that we're together now and that this topic came to light.