Falling in love (1/1)

Risa's pov: My heart was beating fast as I laid in my bed, unable to sleep because of everything that had happend earlier today.My fingers went to my lips, touching them slightly, my heart starting to beat faster as I thoguht about Jinki's lips touching mine.I felt myself blush and I had to bang my head against my pillow, trying to get me out of these thoughts that kept hunting me, making me feel all weird again, like I fell in love again.Fall in love...again...Shaking my head furiously and making some strangles screames against the pillow, I huffed and sat up straight on my bed, frowning deeply.Jinki...He said he wants us to be together again...My heart skipped a beat again and I bit my bottom lip, finding myself getting warmer and warmer.No...! No, Jung Risa!The reason you broke up with him was because there was no meaning anymore if we barely saw each other...waiting for each other... Lee Jinki is just a friend now... don't overthink it anymore..Jung Risa... you can't!I shook my head furiously, my hair getting all messy as Jinki kept coming inside my head.Of course it wasn't a lie to say that I still felt something for him, but I shouldn't.I don't want to have those days anymore, where I had to wait months for something about him and in the end having him show nothing to me.Of course he was tired, this was understandable, but no...I don't want to go through those painful lonely days anymore...If it was going to be like that, then why be in a relationship?It's better to be single then, having nothing to think off, free to do whatever you wanted.Whatever you want to do...A deep sigh left my lips as I stepped out of my bed, walking to the living room, to my open kitch