Dancer 3 (1/1)

“blablabla” = talkingblablabla= thinkingblablabla= flashbackblablabla= imaginationblablabla=communicate by using hands or fingers. I don’t what the name of it in English. No, Taemin isn't bad guy.Please enjoy *Youngmin’s POV* I winked at him while ignoring tears that rolled down from my eyes that showed how hurt I was. In the end my beautiful moment was just dream that I loved the most but dream was dream. I couldn’t help but felt so fucking hurt and sick because of this.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------*Youngmin’s POV* Oh God, I feel so free!!I looked up at the dark night. I loved dark. I didn’t need light at all. I was the darkness. And it felt so fucking good. Darkness had no feeling but free. Everything looked like nothing. Everyone was just something. My life was nothing. There was nothing. I felt nothing but free. Free was so good. Who wouldn’tpeople like to be free? Maybe none. I put out the blade that I just bought. I licked my lips while staring at it. It’s so beautiful. How I missed that thing went into my white skin. I wanted to feel it again. I’ve be-“NO!!!!” My eyes became wide while throwing that THING away!! No!! Damn it!! My breath became heavier. My sweat started making my clothes wet. I looked around while hugging myself in this dark alley. I felt panic but I tried to think clearly. I ne-need help!!I phoned ‘someone’.#Hello. Wh-#“Hel-help me!! I can-can’t control it well again!!” My strength left me made me fell while shaking in fear. I’ve tried so hard! I couldn’t let my insanity to come back. ARGTH!! I felt so fucking dizzy.Oh God, what’s wrong with me now? *Jeongmin’s POV* #Hel-help me!! I can-can’t control it well again!!#Wh-WHAT??!! NO!!!“Youngmin?! What happened?” I started being panic, “Youngmin?!! Can you hear me?! OI!!” I bit my bottom lip, “Where’re you?!! Answer me!” I sat on my chair while looking down. I couldn’t believe it. He’s just fine! How something’s like this could happen again. I knew he weren’t my friend since I had none but I couldn’t let him to be like this. This was my duty anyway.Why does everything become worse when you think it’ll be better? *Kwangmin’s POV* “Stop crying for him. He left by his own feet.”I glared at him. How he could be this mean to me! I just found the one who loved me. He loved me not only because my body. I sobbed but started calming down little by little. Youngmin just left me a minute but I already missed him so much. I missed his warm voice and smile. I wanted to ha-have date with him. He’s nice not bad guy who every one talked about him. Yes, sometime he’s annoying but he just did it to tease me. He loved to play around. I lo- “Yah!! What are you doing!!” I tried to push him but he pinned me down so hard.“You let him touc-no! Fuck you! But why do you push me?!!” Taemin-hyung kissed my lips forcefully.“Ah~ Yo-you left me!!” I pushed him but no use. He threw the blanket away to expose my complete naked body. He kissed and shucked my neck while I tried to push him desperately. I started sobbing made him stopped to look at me. Taemin-hyung was used to be gentle boyfriend. I still couldn't believe he left me without word out of sudden. And now he came back and tri-tried t- “I’m sorry, Yeobo,” he looked so sad made me stopped pushing him, “I left you because I was ‘sick’ and I was dying too. I love you,” he smiled beautifully.“Ta-Taemin-hyung? What have ac-““Stt~ Let’s just sleep, ne? I know you’re tired,” he teased and winked at me made me blushed, “I’ll do ‘it’ to you next time, if you let me of course.” He lay next to me before wrapping his arm around my slender waist. He buried my head on his warm chest made me aware how I missed him. But I lo-love Youngmin and I felt bad about him. The-then what I actually felt for Taemin-hyung. He caressed my black hair softly made me came back to reality.“You need to sleep since tonight you’ll work again,” he kissed my forehead softly.I smiled, “I miss you.”He chuckled, “I know. I miss you too, Kwanggie.” *Taemin’s POV* I looked at his angelic sleeping face. He’s just like an angel. An angel who had to life like this. I started pissing off. I would make a lot money to make him free from his mot-no, she wasn’t his mother. She even said it to me but I didn’t have heart to tell my cute boyfriend about that cruel fact. I would protect him. I loved hi-Out of sudden I though of Minho. I shook my head.“I’ll protect you, Kwanggie. I love you,” I kissed his lovely shoulder. “ARGTH!!!!”“YAH!!!! KILLER!!!!” I fell the bloody knife in shock. I started shaking like hell. People looked like I was crazy. No! I did it to save my boyfriend!! That bastard tried to hurt even ra-rape my innocent Kwangmin!! I wouldn’t let him to do that again!! That bastard opened his eyes painfully made me more pissed off and tried to stab him again but guys held my hand before pushing me away. I was kind of happy that my boyfriend wasn't here so he didn't have to look at me become like this. Aish! This guys were annoying!! All of this because that bastard screamed too loud! Then some police come to take him away!  No! I don’t KILL him yet!! He’s the true devil here!! He tried to rape my boyfriend! And he hurt him like million time!! “Argth!!” out of sudden my heart’s hurt so much till everything became dark in no time.---“NO!!! My son won’t do that!!!” I opened my eyes painfully because that. I could see how my parents tried to make me free and tried to make me looked innocent but no use. I cried. I cried a lot. I felt so guilty moreover when my mother hugged me while saying that they forgive me. They would make me free. “Ta-Taemin. Ju-just don’t forget to drink your drug. W-we still love you. And we don’t want your heart problem become worse because of this,” my mother kissed his forehead desperately.“I wi-will work hard to make you can get operation for your incomplete heart. They will close that hole of it!” my father smiled and then caressing my head, “We’ll make you free. And remember this. We still love you even they said you also have mental problem.” I smiled at him, “Thank, Appa,” I looked at my beautiful Umma,” Umma. And I’m sorry. Wh-where will they take me?”Appa pinched my cheek, “To place that has a lot of white thing. But we’ll visit you a lot.”I giggled before looking into his eyes, “Please don’t tell my boyfriend about this. Don’t tell my Kwangminchu.”They looked at me sadly but still nodded wordless. *Youngmin’s POV* “I love you, Umma. Do you love me, right?” I looked at the photo of my Umma while leaning on cold wall of this dark alley.Of course I love you, My son. Silly.I smiled, “Well I’m in love with someone. Wh-what do you think?” I didn’t know why but my chest felt so heavy. I meant, I was talking to my beloved Umma.Really?! Oh! I’m so happy. Who’s that lucky girl? I laughed a little, “Actually I love a guy. Bu-but he’s more beautiful than girl!” I started feeling worried, “D-do you hate me now, Umma?”Of course NOT! I can’t hate you, Youngmin. I’m just surprised. Tell me about him~I blushed, “Er—he’s so cute and innocent. He loves Pikachu! Can’t you believe it?!” I laughed, “He’s so childish, right? Bu-but he has boyfriend!!” I started having watery eyes while my heart’s hurt like hell. What?! Don’t worry, Youngmin-ah. I believe he actually loves you. *smiled* Calm down, Dear. You’re good per-“NO!!! I’m NOT,” I shook my head, “No one believes that!!” I started crying like kicked puppy, “No one lo-lovesme!!”What are you talking about? I lo-“No, Umma. Yo-you ha-hate me,” I smiled bitterly while my tear fall down freely, “You never want to see my face. You just hate and hate me,” I looked up at dark sky, “You never tell me the reason why. What have I done, Umma? Why do you hate me so much? Why does all Appa give is money? Why do you le-leave here?” I closed my eyes slowly, “Why does Kwangmin do this to me? He’s my first. I never do it with anyone but him. But h-ah-I don’t know what to say anymore,” I opened my eyes to see the photo. 7 years old me was running happily toward my Umma,  “UMMA!! Youngmin mis-““NO!!!” she stared shaking in fear made me worried.“DON’T COME NEAR HERE!!” my Appa suddenly grabbed my hand hard while dragging me away from that room. He glared at me made me so scared and confusing what wrong. He opened door of random room before pushing me inside. I fell hard and started crying. All I wanted was to see my Umma and Hyumin, my little brother who just came in this world. “How many do time I have to tell that you CAN’T be near with your Umma?!” he looked away, “To be honest I take you to this house secretly since I want you see your little brother,” he glared at me, “But see what you DO?! You make condition of my wife worse!”I cried harder, “I-I’m sorry, Appa,” I grabbed his feel desperately, “Do-don’t hate Young-Youngmin,” I sobbed, “Young-Youngmin’ll be good boy,” I looked at my Appa, “But why? Why does Umma become like that? She doesn’t ha-“ “She hates you. Now get off my feet,” he looked away with sad expression.I pulled my hands while my body stared shaking because of pain in my heart. My eyes became wide in disbelieve although I always though about that possibility but I couldn’t just believe it, “Wh-what? Bu-but Youngmin never hurts Umm-““You hurt her. You hurt her a lot. Every time she looks at you, all she feels is pain. You hurt her by coming in this world,” he closed the door in front of me. I cried harder if it’s even possible, “Ap-Appa is liar. Umma doesn’t hate me. Umma doesn’t hate me. Umma doesn’t hate me,” I hugged myself while feeling so numb,” Umma doesn’t hate me. Umma doesn’t hate me. Umma doesn’t hate me. Umma doesn’t hate me. Umma doesn’t hate me,” I smirked, “Of course she hates me. She never wants to see my face just like that man said,” I looked at the knife on the table, “She wants me to be dead,” I laughed before walking to that beautiful thing slowly. Cut. “Arght~ My head,” I rubbed my head slowly while trying to stand up. “I love you, Youngmin,” he said softly and lovely.“I love you, Kwangmin,” I kissed his forehead gently. I smiled while looking at up the dark night, “I love you, Kwangmin. Please God, don’t let me become Y again. He’ll hurt him a lot.”I walked and walked to no where since I didn’t have any desire. I just walked and walked. Then I incidentally saw a bar. I smiled a little. Maybe I should make bar my house just like I made street became my house. I never wanted to go home since no one was there except maids and driver.I walked into that bar slowly while looking around. Aish! I started feeling diz- “HAHAHA! Let us FUCK you if you want your clothes back!!”“Stop acting like innocent! You’re striping dancer anyway!!” My eyes became wide. That is my angel!! He’s crying while trying to get his clothes and other back but that bastard and his friend became a jerk! I run toward them before punched that bastard’s face hard till he fell in pain. His friend looked shocked while I used that used that chance to kick his face made him fell and fainted. I walked toward the bastard who still held the clothes slowly. He froze made me took his blade from his hand before using it to slap his arm made him screamed in pain and made the clothes fell. Another guy kicked me from behind made me fell. They started kicking me but I used the blade to stab their feel made them fell in surprise. I was bleeding like shit but I laughed so hard. Aish! I didn’t care if I looked like psychopath right now. They punched me and punched them harder. They kicked me and kicked them harder. A guy stabbed my back made me smirked while they looked at me in horror. I stabbed that guy till he fainted. I rubbed my wound made my hand had blood on it. I smirked before licking it happily. I walked toward them again but they just ran as fast as possible made me tilted my head confused.What’s wrong with them? I looked at my angel who just finished putting his clothes and other on. I had to admit he has nice body but Kwangmin said he loved me so I couldn’t go around loving other people. Aish! What if he lay to me? I shook my head but--poke-poke- I looked at smiling angel in front of me.Thank you. He smiled beautifully.I nodded, “It’s nothing. Why are you here, Angel?”He tilted his head cutely. Angel? I pinched his soft cheeksmade him blushed, “Yes~ You’re my angel. How I miss my light,” I looked away. I mentally slapped myself since he always communicated with me by his fingers. So I looked at him again.Your light? He blinked and blinked with his big innocent eyes made me blushed.“Er—his name’s Kwangmin,” I smiled at him.He looked so shocked before blushing again made me confused. “What’s wrong?”He shook his head rapidly. Nothing.I smirked, “I’ll tell you another secret of me, Angel,” I leaned in to whisper, “I was patient of mental hospital,” he froze while I looked at his beautiful face again, “But I’m NOT!” I rolled my eyes,” And I hope I won’t as long as that Jeongmin won’t make me there again. It’s so boring there,” I winked at him, “Are you scared of me now?”-HUG- My eyes became wide in disbelieve when he hugged me. Warm. He’s so warm. He wanted to be my friend. I smiled. NO!! I had to act bad! I pushed him hard made him looked at me in shock. I laughed in the evil way made him looked so scared toward me.“Youngmin’s dea-NO!!” I pulled my blonde hair desperately, “Do-don’t come near me again, Angel,” I looked at him, “My in-insanity is trying to come back! I- Sometime I act the way I hate the most. I-I. No. SHIT!!” I ra--GRAB- My angel grabbed my hand softly. Don’t. Let me help you.He smiled beautifully made my heart beat faster and faster while pleasant feeling came into my stomach. This feeling was just like what I felt when I was near Kwang-No!! I couldn’t do it. I shook my head.“I can’t. To be honest I’m scared of I fall for you, Angel,” I looked down, “He said he loves me. Kwangmin loves me. Although he already has boyfriend, I need to make everything becomes clear. Moreover part of my heart believes him,” I smiled at him. He smiled and patted my shoulder. I’m proud of you. You’ll be good boyfri-I grabbed his fingers gently made him confused, “No. Good or Nice don’t suit with me. Bad and evil suit with me,” I caressed his soft black hair, “Thank you, Angel. Speaking with you make me feel better but please be careful toward me.”--- I smiled while going into the gate of my new school. I couldn’t wait to tease Kwa-“Hi~” My eyes became wide. Fuck! I froze while looking at Jeongmin-hyung who walked toward me. Actually he’s nice. I mis-No! I had to destroy him slowly and painfully since he could be in my way. I didn’t want to go into that fucking mental hospital again! I started laughing like psychopath made some students scared the hell out of me than they were already. I just couldn’t help it. I put my new blade from my bag fast before pointing it at that annoying doctor. Yes, he’s my personal doctor.He stopped to show his smirk, “Well well well. Look. Our Y come back, ne?”“Heh?” I rolled my eyes in annoyed, “Stop acting like sane person, will you? You’re crazy too,” I smirked. He laughed, “You’re crazier than me!” his eyes became wide since he’s just aware of something, “Aish! We just ruin my good image. Fortunately I already do ‘something’ to make us can’t be suspended no matter what.”I put my beautiful blade on my bag, “Like I care.” I walked pass him. He looked down, “Youngm-““NO!! I hate that name! Stop calling me by that fucking name! That name means nothing but PAIN! I hate it! I hate it! I HATE IT! Call me by that FUCKING name and you’ll be dead in no time! I’m Y!! JO YOUNGMIN IS DEAD!!” I shouted on top of my lung while glaring at him. I didn’t care about my fucking image since it’s never that good anyway! Students started whispering how crazy I was. I was crazy, so what?!!“Just calm down, will you?” he said flatly while looking me into my eyes, “You will make me do something stupid if you keep being like this. I don’t want both of us become patients of mental hospital,” he walked away.“FUCK IT! Don’t come near me!! I’M SA-sane,” I started shaking, “Youngmin’s good boy. Youngmin’s sane. He jus-But I’m not him. He’s de-“ “Young-Youngmin?”I turned around fast, “STOP CALLING ME BY—er--,” I felt uncomfortable, “I’ll go now, Kwang-“ “YOU!! YOU!!!”Out of sudden Jeongmin-hyung shouted and pointed his finger at my-er—my? I meant at Kwangmin.“Ne?” Kwangmin tilted his head cutely.He grabbed shoulders of Kwangmin made me annoyed, “Be his personal nurse! He needs someone who can make him calm down! You make him clam down in no time! You’re better than drug! Maybe that is because he likes you a LOT! He needs you more than me as his do-do-er—yeah! He just needs you.”-PUNCH- “Yah!!” Kwangmin held hand of that stupid mental doctor before he fell.“Please fuck off,” I looked at Kwangmin, “I don’t need you,” I looked at angry Jeongmin-hyung, “All need from him is his body. Let me fuck him then I’ll leave him in no ti-“-SLAP- “How can yo-you,” that cutie started having watery eyes.“I can,” I said flatly, “I’m not your Young-““I thought you loved me!!” he still looked beautiful even he’s crying and I couldn’t see his face because his bang, his glasses and his hat, “I was about to tell you the truth. But now I don’t want to.  I never know you’re this weak,” he left us. He left me to feel nothing but numb. Hurt. My heart’s hurt like hell!“You love him, right?” asked Jeongmin-hyung, “That is why you push him away.”“Shut up. I have to go to my class. Bye,” I walked away.“Mood swing, ne? Just don’t be worse!!” he shouted. My light hated me now. Bu-but my angel still liked me, right? N-no! He’s Youngmin’s angel. Bu-but Youngmin’s m-Aish! No, I was Y. Oh God, what’s wrong with me? I took the Umma photo out.Aish! What have you done, my son?! You hurt Kwangmin! You hurt the light. You hurt the one you loved.“No-“Don’t deny it. You love him. Go and say that you’re sorry. *Taemin’s POV* My Kwanggie went into class with sad face. Aish! I didn’t like it. I ran toward him before hugging him made him shocked and blushed cutely.“Taemin-hyung~ Stop it~,” he pouted beautifully.“No~” I kissed his lips made him blushed. “Aish!! Our classmates and other students are staring!!” he buried his face on my neck because he’s too shy. Cute~“Don’t worry~, Kwanggie! I’m here now. If they become so stupid and fucking annoying, I will~,” he looked at me with his innocent big eyes, “I’ll kill them,” I said coldly made my boyfriend looked at me in disbelieve.He tried to sa- “YAH!!! Stop hugging MY SLAVE!!!” out of no where blonde boy who just came in this class shouted like crazy.I glared at him while hugging MY Kwangmin tighter, “NO!!!! Kwangmin is MY PIKACHU!!”He pouted, “NO!!! He’s MY LIGHT!!” “NO!!! HE’S ALL MINES!!”“MINE!!!”Kwangmin blushed before pushing me made we stopped hugging, “Aish! I-“ -BRAK- Someone opened the door while pushing that blonde boy till he fell.“It looks like crazy people love you, Cute boy. Can I fall for you too?” Jeongmin-hyung winked at my Kwangminchu. FUCK!! What is that crazy but genius doctor doing here?!!!“He.is.already.MINE!!!!” that blonde boy and I shouted at him in the same time. He poked his tongue at ME!!DAMN! He remembered me!! Aish! I thought I acted like normal people perfectly.“I never know being crazy this FUN!” he laughed while people included the blonde boy and me stared at him.He’s REALLY crazy!!To be continue.-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------natesea: Thank for reading, giving comment and subscribing ^^ Please let me know what you think, Reader? As long as you don’t think I’m crazy -.- (since I already know it LOL)