Confrontation. (1/1)

Sehun’s P.O.VIt was late, very late and I had just given up the thought of actually sleeping something that night. I had been trying to ever since we came back, which seemed like years ago. The reason was because my mind, instead of relaxing, was attacking me with all kinds of thoughts. Good things, things I’d rather not remember, and memories that I don’t know to which label they belong. I stirred around and groaned frustrated. Thanks to this Luhan woke up. He moved closer to me and wrapped his arms around my waist. I mentally slapped myself for waking him up. The last I wanted was to worry him. He snuggled closer as he hugged my back.“Get some sleep, will you?” –He whispered, clearly being concerned because it was already past midnight and I hadn’t slept one bit. Luhan pressed his lips against the back of my neck which made me smile.“I can’t” –I whispered back. There was no real reason for us to talk so low, but somehow that made the conversation feel intimate.“Why?” –He asked. I turned around to face him and he stared back at me trough half-lidded eyes.“I..my stomach hurts a little” –I lied. It wasn’t a good idea. He knew when I lied to him so why bother trying? He didn’t move. His expression didn’t changed and he didn’t said anything either. Like he hadn’t heard me and was still waiting for an answer.“Why?” –He repeated.“I was thinking” –I sighed. He, realizing that I was saying the truth, buried his dace in my chest and mumbled something about me not knowing anything.“Can I ask you about what?”“About you, about me, about us. About how much I love you and how you make me feel like I have butterflies trapped in my stomach. About the kind of boyfriend I am and the kind of boyfriend I hope I was. How happy I am with you and…how much I don’t want this to end”“End?” –He asked reluctantly. “Why would we end it?”“Not us. It’s just that, what if things change? Right now, we want the same things and we’re more than happy because we’re together …but in the future that might change. I know this is a horrible thing to say but what if everything happened because we really weren’t meant to be together? Maybe I’ll end up hurting you because I’m selfish and I don’t care about anything but being with you.”“Well,” –He paused “Do you really believe that will happen?”“I don’t know. But I’m scared that maybe that’s the way it is, even if neither of us wants it to be.”“That might be true” –Luhan said quietly. I pursed my lips, nervous and began to nibble my lower lip. Yeah that’s what I was scared of.  “But we’re here right now. If we’re not supposed to be together then how come we are? You’re giving this whole situation a lot of thought or...could you be saying you want to break up?”“No, of course not” –I answered quickly.“I’m glad. I don’t want to either” –Luhan smiled “I’m not going to leave you, you know? That’s why there’s no need for you to be like this. So cheer up! And go back to sleep. There’s nothing to be worried about.”After that, the pressure I was feeling was gone. Luhan kept hugging me tightly, never letting go. My eyelids began to feel heavier by every passing minute. The last thing I remember was thinking how much I loved the way he was holding me. The next morning passed by rather quickly. Baekyeol couple was gone before breakfast. Kyungsoo woke up pretty late but I never saw Kai. Then Kris appeared. He wanted to go to the gym again because yesterday his team lost the basketball game. Everyone except Luhan, Suho and me accompanied him.Luhan and I were on the garden, sitting on the grass. He was talking about Kai and Kyungsoo but I wasn’t really listening to him because I was too busy with my own thoughts. Last night he helped me a lot. He gave me my confidence back but now I don’t know if I really want to hear of the past anymore. Maybe it was better off this way. Then again there are things I want to know. Mostly the kind of thing only Luhan would know. That’s why I brought him here, to talk about that. I just didn’t know how to ask him though.I peeked at him and saw him pouting with his arms crossed over his chest, looking at me as if he was angry but I know he was just pretending.“What?” –I asked, poking his sides to make him laugh. It worked for a couple of seconds but then he returned to his serious face.“You weren’t listening to me –He stated, not even smiling now.“Of course I was.” –I lied “You were talking about Kai and Kyung, right?”“Yeah and about that they’re getting married”“What?! They are?!” –I squealed. Luhan rolled his eyes because my reaction proved him that I really wasn’t listening him before.“Yup. They decided it yesterday. But honestly, I never thought Kai could be so…cheesy! To go as far as to get him a ring. He must really love him.”“Yeah, I bet he does.” –I smiled. It was good to see the others were happy as well. “Umm, Lulu? Can I ask you something?”“Sure but you already kinda did” –He joked. I patted my lap, signaling him to lay his head which he did immediately. I brushed the excess of hair off his forehead and stared a while at his eyes. “Go ahead.”“Could you…could you tell me something, anything about when we were going out before? I really want to know.”He didn’t answer. He kept quiet and bit his lower lip. I know it was still hard for him to talk about it but if we never did we’d never be able to move on. He gave my hand a single squeeze and nodded hesitantly.“What do you want to know?”“Anything, really”“Okay” –He stayed quiet again, thinking of what to say. “There was this time… you were walking me home after school. Everything seemed so dark, like it was nighttime but it was just rain clouds. Your house is pretty far from mine and I didn’t want you to catch a cold in case it would start raining before you reached your house. So you ended up staying with me. My house was empty most of the time. I guess the fact of being completely alone hit us because that was the first time I thought of um…doing more than a couple of innocent kisses. You take my hand in yours and guided me upstairs. I was surprised you remembered which one was my room; you had only been there once before. When we were there you kissed me. It was different from what I was used to. It was so strong, so passionate. One thing lead to another and before I knew it, we were on my bed…jerking each other off” –Luhan blushed bright red and I couldn’t help but laugh at how embarrassed he looked from just thinking about it.“I said you could tell me anything and you decide to tell me about our first sexual experience? You’re such a perv, Luhan” –This earned me a hit on the shoulder but I didn’t mind and kept teasing him for a while. “Keep going, what happened after that?”He looked up, like the answer was written in his forehead and he was trying to read it. His eyes widened suddenly and he shook his head abruptly.“I don’t know!” –He lied.“Liar. Just tell me.”“It’s stupid. It’s not important at all”“I don’t care. I want to know!” –I pinched his cheeks. Luhan whined and agreed to tell me but only if I didn’t laughed.“…we didn’t notice when my parents came back. It’s not like it mattered anyway but then I..I-I came and…I was too loud so umm…My mom kind of entered the room then” –He muttered the last part so I barely cached it and I had to bit my tongue so I wouldn’t laugh. Still, the face I was making said it all. He frowned slightly and punched me again.“Idiot” –He said before joining me and laughing at the story too. The story had absolutely nothing funny. In fact it made me a little sad because I wished I could remember it. But watching him as he talked, the gestures he made, how he motioned his hands so I could understand better and the fact that he recalled even the smallest and silliest details made me feel like I’m really the happiest person on earth.I heard footsteps, followed by my sister clearing her throat.“What?” –I asked annoyed.“Just wanted to thank Luhan” –She answered. I was surprised by how sweet she sounded. She turned around and began to walk away giving little skips but I stopped her.“Hey” –I said. “Did something good happen?”“Maybe” –She chuckled “Oh by the way, Father’s here”Then she left. For a while we stayed like that. Neither of us talked. I guess no matter what we said, we still felt a little nervous. Everything I had planned on saying was gone. I couldn’t remember a word. I locked eyes with Luhan once more before we walked inside. Chanyeol’s P.O.VBaekhyun and I wanted to spend the whole day together without interruptions. We even woke up earlier than anyone else just to have breakfast alone. After walking around and getting lost a couple of times we decided to just stay in one place for a short break.“I am so tired! I swear, I’m never going to walk ever again. I’ll just sit here and never get up again” –Baekhyun whined as he sat down on a bench. I followed him taking a seat next to him. “How can you still keep going?!”“I like walking” –I smiled brightly. “Especially when it’s with you”“I don’t care how many sweet things you say, I am not moving from this bench.”“But Baekkie, It’s only a little past noon! We still have a whole day ahead!”“No. What you have is a tired boyfriend. This is like the third time we got lost. I want to go back!”“Fine, then what about buying some food on our way back? Will that make you smile?”“You had me at food” –He stood up as fast as he could and started walking with all his might. I pouted. He was just pretending to be tired! “Channie, aren’t you coming with me?”“Yes, Yes, I’m going” –I rolled my eyes and chased after him.Baekhyun stopped walking, his eyes were fixed on a certain spot. He stood there, staring at something as his jaw dropped.“Hey, Baek? Whatcha looking at?” –I asked. When I came up next to him and looked where he was looking, I shouted. “No way!”Baekhyun’s frozen state was gone and he quickly covered my mouth his hand and guided me somewhere far from there.“Was that…Kai?” –I panted, still in shock. Baekhyun only nodded and looked at me in concern. “This is so fucked up” Sehun’s P.O.VI enlaced hands with Luhan before entering the living room. That’s when I saw him. Sitting on the couch with my mother and talking about the past hell-like week he had. They instantly looked up and only my mom seemed to notice our intertwined fingers. My father stood up and without thinking it twice he hugged me. He looked so different from what I remember. Since I barely saw him a couple of times a year, I still wasn’t used to how wrinkly his skin looked. Or the fact that he had begun to wear glasses. I awkwardly hugged him back.“Look at you…You look so grown up. Well, I guess that’s obvious.” –He laughed. “I’ve missed all of you so much.”“Us too, dad” –That was all I could say at the moment.“And who is this young man? Are you Sehun’s friend?”“Not exactly” –He answered, smiling.“He’s Kai’s cousin, dear” –My mother finally spoke. She was still looking at us confused.“Who was Kai again?” –He asked, taking his seat next to her.“The one our little Sori has a crush on”“Oh, I see! They don’t look alike at all. But our own kids don’t resemble each other ei-““I have to talk to you” –I cut him off. He raised an eyebrow. I guess I just caught him off guard. One would normally wait for him to relax after working non-stop for a week. “Both of you”Luhan and I sat down, facing them. They nodded slowly and signaled me to go on ahead and start speaking.“I guess there’s no easy way to say this so I’m just going to say it at once. Please listen carefully and please be understanding because I seriously need you to be 100% focused on what I’m about to say.”“Son, you’re starting to scare me” –He joked.“Maybe you should be scared. After all, we are too.” –I took a couple of seconds to take a deep breath and continued. “We’ve been lying to each other for a long time and I've decided, I don't want to do it anymore. It’s not the best way to put it but that’s how I feel it is. Actually, Mom, this guy isn’t Kai’s cousin and his name is not ‘Sunhyun’ either but you do know him. He’s Luhan and…and he’s my boyfriend.”A quick glance at them was enough to see all the emotions that were building up inside of them. You could find confusion, anger and thousands of other complex things in their eyes.“Does this means you’re gay?!” –My father shouted. It was the most inappropriate moment to laugh but I did anyways because after what I just said, was that really the best question he could come up with? He shoot me a hard glare and saw his hands turning into fists, trying his best to control himself. I knew what he was capable of, sort of, so I shut up and answered his question for our sake.“No, it’s not like that. I don’t go around checking out boys…or girls, for that matter. I don’t even know if that makes sense.”“You have to be fucking kidding me! I was eager to see you when your mother told me you’ve come to visit and when I come back THIS is what I find? A fag instead of the son I was proud of?!”“I know you’re angry but you shouldn’t be focusing on that. That’s the last thing you should be worried about right now.” –When my father listened to this, he shut up immediately. Only then was when we heard my mother’s quiet sobs. She didn’t move an inch nor did she try to cover her face. She was letting the tears fall down. I felt awful. She looked so broken.“We don’t know what you’re talking about but we don’t care. Get out of my house. You are not our son anymore, you understand? You are not welcomed here anymore. Get the fuck out!” –He yelled again. I couldn’t keep calm this time and even when Luhan told me he didn’t want me to raise my voice, I couldn’t help it.“You don’t know what I’m talking about?! Don’t give me that crap. I’ve had enough of this. You know exactly what I mean. I know and I want you to tell me what the hell happened to me.!” –I suddenly felt so angry, so pissed off. I turned to my mother and also yelled at her. “And why aren’t you saying anything?!”“D-don’t yell, please” –I barely heard Luhan’s shaky voice. He hated this situation more than any of us. “Can’t we just talk?”“Shut up! You think I’ll listen to whatever you say?! You’re the reason why my son is rotten. Everyone was right about you...We should’ve listened to them when they told is you were trouble. But no, we wanted to be good parents. We thought it was going to turn out good in some way. I don’t want you near my family. You better leave Sehun alone because if you don’t, I swear I’m going to kill you!” –He was walking towards Luhan while holding his fist up. Luhan closed his eyes, waiting for the hit he was sure was going to get but I would never let anyone touch him. I stopped him right before he could hit him.“Don’t fucking touch him!”“Stop it!” –Her voice came. It was the first time I heard her like this. To me she had always been the calm mother who never screamed at us, who never lost it.  “I thought we were doing what was best for you but I guess I was wrong. I knew our decision would have consequences but I never thought it could come to this”None of us talked. Not even my father, who obviously was up for more screaming. Everything was happening so quickly. I sat down beside Luhan. I peeked over at him and saw how beaten-down and tired he looked. They were disgusted by us but that didn’t stopped me from pulling him closer to me and hugging him on an intend to calm him down. He gently pushed me away after some time.I heard more sobbing and I knew my mom was going to break soon. She was like Luhan in that way. Hated fights, confrontations and when people shouted to the top of their lungs. So I knew that our insults were breaking that shell and it began to crack up.“Don’t you think it’s time to talk about it?” –I asked her. She didn’t look at me. She sat there, completely unable to understand what I was asking her.Unexpectedly, she nodded but didn’t say a word. She asked dad to sit by herside and not to yell anymore. With her shaky and broken voice she began to talk. It’d be nice if I could’ve had figured out that look on her face. But even today, I don’t have a clue of what was going through her mind.-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Hello!  First of all, I want to apologize for the awfully late update guys. Second, I also want to apologize if the chapter is no good but keep in mind that…I love writing fluff and cute happy moments so it’s really hard for me to write drama/angst etc.I’m not even lying when I say I wrote 7 versions of this chapter.Guess there’s nothing more to say aside from: I love you and thank you for your endless support! Confrontation