That Doll - Final (1/2)

Can’t I erase you?

Why am I so stupid? I sit on the windowsill as I watch the rain pour heavily to Earth. The whole surrounding is very quiet, save for the sound of the water sent from heaven. This situation has become natural for me. After all, it’s been months since this apartment is full of the sounds of laughter. It’s been months since half of the things which were here is packed and disappear together with the owner of the things. It has also been months since I saw the face of him. And yet, I still able to perfectly pull an image of his face in my mind, no matter what I did, what I smell, what I see. He’s nowhere yet everywhere.Don’t call me,

You’ll put my hopes up

You’re not gonna come so just let me go

Don’t come to me like a habit

And play with me

You said it was all over so why…The sound of phone ringing breaks the quietness inside the apartment. Without taking my eyes away from the scenery outside, I already know who’s calling. He’s been calling and trying to talk to me ever since I stopped opening the door for him. I have no idea what he wants, but whatever it is I promised myself to stop looking up to him. I promised to cut every contact I used to have with him. After all, it was his idea to suddenly leave me alone one day and not return for days.Like usual, I let the ringing of the phone died down without moving a single limb. I stay seated on the windowsill in silence, waiting for the ringing to stop before it starts again yet with the same ringtone, marking who is calling. And I let all the rings after that to stop on their own.You’re so bad, I’m hurting again

You haven’t changed at all,

I haven’t changed either

I’m reacting to your fickle nature

Tell me, is this fun for you?I slowly wear a black sweater and skinny dark jeans. I took my wallet and car keys before I walk out of the apartment and lock the door. The supplies in the apartment are running low and I need to shop and restock the kitchen. Soon, I arrived in the supermarket and take the trolley, I start looking for things I need. As I walked down the aisle, I can’t help but remember him again. I still remember what he liked, which brand he favoured, and I can feel my tears about to fall. I take a deep breath to calm myself down and proceed to finish this as soon as possible.After I pay, I take the just-purchased things back to the backseat of my car and make sure every bag is settled before I get in to the driver’s seat. I silently drive back to the apartment, being the music from the radio is my only companion. When I finished parking my car, I immediately take the bags and bring it into the building. I enter the elevator and press my floor’s button. As I neared the apartment’s door, I see someone is standing in front of the door. Full of curiosity, I slowly neared the man. When the man looks towards me, it feels like time is frozen. My whole body is frozen as I once again see the chocolate eyes of him.Look at me, a sad doll

Tied under string

Look, I’m still

Being dragged around by you

These tough feelings are hard to cut off