14th Midnight: How to say (1/1)

- You called me, master?- I'm not in the mood for your fucking jokes!- Slow down there, macho man! - she puts her hands up in defense - I just came from saving your Ghost Girl's butt.- What happened!? - my tone keeps going louder.- Nothing you have to know, It's solved... SO! - she hisses - Lower your voice.- You knew it, right? - I hiss.- Know... What?- That Hyun Ae has a time limit and that she's the owner of this! - I hold the book in front of her face.- Mwoh!? - she frowns - Hyun Ae wrote... this?- You didn't know either? - I soften the tone of my voice a bit.- I did know you didn't have all the time in the world but not that... she... - she blinks confused, sitting in the couch.- Are you telling me... there are things you don't know either? - my hands start to tremble.- H-Huh...- So... you mean... - I take a deep breath - There're things you can't tell me, things I can't tell Hyun Ae, things she has to keep from me... WHO THE HELL IS BEHIND THIS, HUH!? - I explode - Why we have to lie and hide! Why we have to struggle like this, huh? TELL ME! WAE!?- Junhyung... - Hyun Jin hyung places his hand over my chest, trying to calm me down.- How can I stay still when there's someone who is playing with us in such a dirty and unfair game, huh? - I spit - How can I leave that person fool around with her life? How...- It's not time to break down Yong Junhyung! - Hana blurts, getting up from the couch in a jump - You have to save her, no matter what. - How? - I mutter.- I do know that even If you find her body that doesn't mean she's safe, even If all her memories come back... But... - she cries. She's crying... - But! I'm sure she has something planned... That she won't do this to Hyun Ae, to me... To you...- Who is she, Hana-ssi? - Hyun Jin hyung asks for me. I'm too astonished to think straight.- After I found out I was part of a book, a book written in your world... - she sobs - I thought she was my creator but, after the recent events, It seems I was wrong. Hyun Ae created me.- How is that Hyun Ae-ssi created you? - hyung frowns.- She's a character of the book, remember? That princess... - I sigh - Do you remember your story?- Part of it, the same as Hyun Ae - she smiles softly - Now I get the bond between her and me.- There's something I have to reach too, right? - I state out of the blue - There's something I have to accomplish, as Hyun Ae has to.- I know the same things you do - she shakes her head - From now on... I'm lost like you.- This sucks - I rest my head between my hands - This is just too unfair.- Junhyung...I frezee right there, at that spot, feeling how Hyun Ae's voice echoes through my ears, going right to my brain, where I try to process it and react as calm as possible. I gather all my courage to get up and walk toward her, not showing the anguish inside me on my face, trying to look at ease but...She walks the few steps that separate us and hugs me so tight that I almost feel my heart on my throat as I swallow saliva to keep it inside my ribcage. But I don't care If I die right now of a heart attack or, rather of spitting my own heart out of my body. I just want to hug her with the same strenght or even tighter. I'm not sure who is trying to comfort who since her grip feels more strong than mine, as If she has more will inside her, more... strenght. More hope.- We reached a point in our weird relationship where your eyes can't lie to me; all grown up man, Junhyung-ssi - she smiles softly, cupping my face between her hands.- What is that suppose to mean? - I raise an eyebrow.- That I know you're not ok, I know there are things you worry about and you can't share with me. As I do - she mutters the last words - But as long as I have you by my side...- Why so cheesy suddenly? - I frown confused - You are not planning to leav-... ? - ... -e me.She didn't leave me end my phrase! She just crashed her lips on mine! So disrespectful... Naughty Hyun Ae~! Kekeke~- Come back! - she hits my forehead slightly - Come back from Dazeland, Babo Junhyung~!- People *cough* still *cough* here~! - Hyun Jin hyung sings.- Huh? - Hyun Ae blushes bright red - I didn't notice you both were here.- We acknowledge that - he chuckles. Hana turns around facing the door to the backyard, being sure Hyun Ae doesn't see her red eyes. But that won't erase the momory in my head of her crying for Hyun Ae, for herself and all this shit. I can assure that this will be one of the things I'll remind Hyun Ae the moment I can tell her everything with no fears that she might vanish with the wind.- I have to leave - Hana states.- Wait! - Hyun Ae runs toward her full speed and holds her hand from behind - Thanks.- You're welcome - she squeezes Hyun Ae's hand and then, once again, disappears.- Well... I... - hyung clears his throat - I'll be leaving too.- Hyung! - I grab his arm before he can go any further toward the door - Be careful on your way back.- You don't have to thank me - he grins from ear to ear - You'll do the same, right? - he raises an eyebrow.- Sure~! - I chuckles and give him a bro hug.- Go safely, Doctor Ahjussi.Hyun Ae dedicates him one of these warm and soft smiles she has when she's grateful or just too happy about something. One she doesn'tshow so often and one of these I just want to myself.- You... - I throw a cushion at her - Stop grinning like that, It's scary.- I'll get going~! Enjoy your lovers quarrel! - hyung sings before exiting from the front door.- You looked like a clown - I frown with puckered lips.- And you look like a jealous Junhyung - she states nonchalant.- Look at her~! Look at her!~! - I tsk.- Junhyung...- Wae? Mowh!? - I sigh - You are scary when you call me like that...- There's someone that wants to meet me...- Who?- Someone that might know about me... my past... who I was...- You telling me this means...- It means I can tell you someone wants to meet me. I don't know anything about that person or about what that person might know. All I know is that that perosn came to find me today but It was not the right time to do so. And...- And... ? - I hold my breath, waiting for her to talk.- I can't tell that person that I'm Hyun Ae.- H-Huh... It's just that... - I leave out a sigh of relief.- Just that? - she frowns - That person might know who I am and I might retrieve all my memories!- Ani, that won't happen... I'm sure.If what Hana said It's true, that we follow the plot that someone wrote for us as fate, that things has to come slowly, falling for their own weight... That person might be the same. Another character in this stupid game of who knows who. Even Hana doesn't know about her plans. Who is her anyway? Fuck her existence!oOoSince that day, Hyun Ae and me exchange stares which say all the things we can't say through words. That's the way we have to say each other the things we know. Even If I'm not sure of which memories came back or her isn't sure of what I'm aware of her situation, we know.We don't really need to know it all. Of course I'd like to be aware of every little thing that goes through her head, all her memories and acknowledge her full self. But If this is the only way to keep her by my side longer and save her... I don't mind, I need nothing else.- Junhyung~!- Huh!- We have to go! You're going to be late for your schedule again!- Arasso, LETHyo eomma!- Stop that~! - she whines.- Wae~? - I chuckle - It's cute.- Babo Junhyung... - she looks at me sideway with her puckered lips.Today I have to leave her at work earlier since my schedules, with Yoseob's new solo album coming next week, are totally packed. I don't even get time to pick up Hyun Ae from work. We all are too busy to hang out together so our girlfriends, boyfriend, wife-to-be and wife are a bit neglected.Even Kikwang and Yoseob don't get so much time to spend together even when they live under the same roof. Both of them come back home late after going through all the schedules of the day and all they want to do is have a little chat and go to sleep.I even had to leave Hyun Ae stay at home alone from time to time or take her to Kyung Mi's house when there's no chance for me to go and stay at home with her at night.I know I'll regret it later but there's no way I can avoid it. This is my work and trying to find her body has me busy too. Hyun Jin hyung has been looking for any clues at some colleges, trying to find who was Hyun Ae. But It's a big fail since there are hundred and hundred of Park Hyun Ae's just in Seoul. He even tried checking the yearbooks but that is going to take us a while.At least, I don't feel like I have to hide things from her since she does the same and we both know It's for our sake. As long as she knows I worry about her and I will do nothing to hurt her, that's enough for me.- Hello? Someone there? - Hyun Ae waves her hand before my eyes.- Don't do that - I smirk and grab her wrist to pull her closer inside the car.- Wae? Are you going to pounce on me again? - she tilts her head to the side with a grin.- Mowh!? - I chuckle - When did I?- This past week, since we met Hana at home. You've been acting like a needy kid.- A needy kid doesn't do the things I do to you - I whisper in her ear.- Yong Junhyung... - she shivers when I bite her earlobe - I still have to go to work.- I know... - But I keep drawing soft kisses over her jawline.- J-Jun... H-Hyung...- Ah! Arasso! - I grunt - Leave! Be free my fawn~!- Fawn? - she frowns before bursting into laugh - I should run away of the hunter's jaws.- Now that you can because... - I grab her chin and kiss her nose - Later... - I kiss the corner of her lips - Once I come back home... - I stare right at her eyes - You'll be mine again.- Ooook - she laughs awkwardly - Now you're really scary. Being all cheesy a second and horny the next one.- It's not horny baby, It's the Ghost Girl addiction - I grin against her lips, about to kiss her.- You got enough for today~! - she gives me a quick, a really quick and annoying, peck and gets off the car in a blink.- Yah! Park Hyun Ae! - I shout her name through the open window - Come here and give me the real thing!- The hunter would have to wait for his fawn until night~! Merong~! - she waves her hand to me as she walks in.- Bad girl... - I mutter, already thinking in my revenge.When I'm about to turn on the engine, I get a text from Hyun annoying Jin hyung asking me to come over to his house and pick up the boxes with some of the yearbooks. And, since I'm already there, to bring him some of the choco cake Hyun Ae promised him.- You brought it? - he asks before even I can step a foot in his house.- I was planning to come over here anyway so... - I do a long pause to tease him.- So... Yah! You did or didn't take it with you brat?- Here you go - I hand him the plate with a smirk - You're going to get really fat If you keep eating like that and doing nothing.- Look at the one who eats her food every single day and doesn't do any sport or exercise - he tsks.- Whatever - I shake my head - Where are the boxes?- There! - he talks with his mouth full of chocolate.- Just these three? - I point at the big boxes.- Only? You want more? - he chuckles - I have ten more like these in my guest room you brat!- I can't keep that much at the studio and at home...- I know, since I know you take these, I'll take care of the others or you can come back for more after you check on them.- I'm sure you'll end sooner than me - I sigh - Why is this one outside?- You don't recognize it? - he takes a big slice in his mouth - That's your last year of high school's yearbook.- Why do you have it? - I frown as I play with it in my hands.- I asked you for it last year to take Teacher Hong's pic.- So creepy... - I sigh.- Aren't you late already? - he says nonchalant, chewing on his cake, being all happy.- Shit! - I hiss - Help me with the boxes you babo-ah!- That's the way to talk to your hyung!?- If you're going to scold me at least swallow your food... Eug~! I can see it all.- So fussy... - he mutters, cleaning his face.After he helps to put all the boxes on the the back seats, hyung leads to keep with the body quest since he has night shift today and he uses all his free time to help me out. I owe him a big one this time.- Mianhamnida~! - I bow slightly as soon as I get into the studio.- Kenchana, I just got here too - Yoseob smiles brightly - I was memorizing the lyrics.- You like them? - I smile.- Like? You're a genius~! - he pouts - I can't wait to see the concept of the MV too.- Then... - I pat his shoulder - Let's work!oOoWe have been stuck in the studio all day, we even had lunch here. But now, It's time for a long break and have dinner. Yoseob throat's condition might be not good as he says but all the things we recorded today came out pretty decent.- Junhyung-ah! - Yoseob appears in front of me suddenly, startling me.- Wae? Mwoh!?- We are going out to have dinner, aren't you coming?- You go ahead and bring me some. I still want to check on some things.- Arasso - he pouts - But don't overwork youself, huh?- Arasso~! - I ruffle his hair - Go.This is the only way I can take a peek at the yearbooks while they're no around at least for one or two hours so, I have to take this chance.But, after a while, curiosity calls for me as my yearbook is still in my bag. That's why, I take it out and try to find Teacher Hong's pic. I look for the pics of my class and there she is, Teacher Hong.- Babo hyung - I chuckle - She isn't that pretty.I'm about to close it and put it back inside my bag when I notice there is a blue envelope between the last page and the cover. I open it and there's a typewritten letter inside..."Annyeong~! It's me, the Ducky girl who made you broke your arm. I write this to you since I can't gather the courage to talk with you after you got mad at me and that unnie misunderstood it. I'm sorry about that too.I'm leaving, I'm going far away from here so, from now on, you don't have to worry If I'll butt into your things again. You're safe! ^^.This is weird, I'm good at writing an essay but I can't write you a simple letter of apologise. I'm so stupid...The only way I could find to communicte with you is this...♪ Something always takes me back to you.It never takes too long.No matter what I say or doI'll still feel you here until the moment I'm gone. You hold me without touch.You keep me without chains.I never wanted anything so muchthan to drown in your love and not feel your rain. Set me free, let me be.I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.Here I'm and I stand so tall,just the way I'm supposed to be.But you are on to me and all over me. You loved me cause I'm fragile.When I thought that I was strong.But you touch me for a little while,and all my fragile strenght is gone. Set me free, let me be.I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.Here I am and I stand so tall,just the way I'm supposed to be.But you are on to me and all over me. I live here on my kneesas I try to make you seethat you're everything I thinkI need here on the ground.But you're neither friend nor foethough I can't seem to let you goThe only thing I still know is thatYou're keeping me down. ♫ What do you think? I don't have good skills at writing lyrics but I put all my feelings on it. I hope they reached you and you felt it, even when It has no melody or anything...I hope that your dreams become true and I can't wait to see you on TV or buy your albums. Be sure I'll be one of your fans, kekeke~Junhyung... Stay healthy and don't get into trouble. I know you are capable and good person and there are a lot of things you can do.I'll wait until fate makes us meet in the future again and laugh about this, neh? Take care, Junhyung.Ducky. "- I didn't even get to know her name... - I sigh.oOo ~) Hyun Ae's POV (~Here we are again, another week where I don't know what is going to happen to me. I don't what I'm but I do know there's something wrong going on. I can't ask Junhyung, as he can't tell me others things.But that isn't something new. I knew it since the beginning., since I opened my eyes and the first thing I see and remember was Junhyung's face.I'm so scared. Scared of what might happen once I remember everything and he finds out that he knows me, that I'm that Ducky girl. I don't know If I can stay with him any longer once I retrieve all my past.That's why, I don't want him to remember me. I don't need him to remember me as I didn't need to remember him even when It was such a relieve and that memory keeps me warm even when Junyung isn't close.What hurts me the most It's the fact that he thinks I didn't remember it yet... How to say I did? How can I explain it to him when something inside me tells me I can't? I'm so confused...- Hyun Ae~! - Mi Ri calls me name, bringing me back from my daze.- Wae?- There's a guy I need you to attend. He's the manager of an idol group and came to pick up some sponsorship clothes. He'll be here soon but I have to leave and Kyung Mi locked herself again inside the studio with In The Cloud playing over a over again - she sighs - You know what that means, right?- She got inspiration for a new design - I chukle - Arasso, there's no problem.- Then, I'll get going - she sends me a warm smile - Be right back, dear.I take a seat on Mi Ri's desk since most of the time I'm at the storage, arrenging the clothes and doing the clasification and the description of the inventory or take care to order all the material needed.- Welcome - I bow slightly as I hear the bell on the door - How can I help you?- I came to pick some sponsorship clothes for-...He gets stuck there, staring at me. He didn't see me as soon as he came in because he was busy with his phone but, now, he stares at me with his eyes about to pop out.- Costumer... ?- I-I... came the other day but... you were already... closed - he stutters.- You don't feel well, sir?- Hyun Ae...I feel my world spinning around, about to sink in a dark ocean of fear and confusion. This guy... He... I didn't imagined it. I heard it. He knows me, he knows me... He knows Park Hyun Ae. This person who I don't know, this person I think I don't know. He......He just called my name...