Chapter 12 - I cant stop (1/1)

"Good morning! Hope you had a nice sleep. See you later." he texted me.We've been contacting each other since his first call. It feels kinda weird. It's not that I don't like it but it just don't feel right. His been so vocal with his feelings while I'm still  uncertain. Do I still love him? Can I really forgive and trust him? I'm really scared. What if he will leave me again. I really don't know."Taeng you're idling. Let me see that." Fany snatched my phone"You guys still texting each other?""I'm starting to avoid him Fany. I'm not even replying to his messages.""Im not asking you to avoid him. There is nothing wrong with this.""Yes there is. He's giving me false hope.""How sure are you? What if his feelings are real. You know Taeng, I think you're the one who have a problem. Why can't you just be true to yourself. Atleast I can feel that Baek is being real. I can feel that it's genuine. But it's up to you to decide. Let's go already."We are currently practicing for SMTOWN and with other groups because of some collaboration. It's rare for all SM artist to be together. Everyone here is really excited. EXO is also here. He's also here. "Taeyeon let's practice for the opening." BoA unnie told me. I'm going in the place where they're practicing and I saw him. So his already here. I just avoided him. I think it's the right thing to do. I don't want others to think that there is really something going on between us. There is already rumor going around the company. After the practice"Taeng" he offered me water. I look at my surroundings no one is looking at us.

I avoided him again."Taeng? What's wrong? You've been avoiding me. You're not even answering my texts." He said "Stop making a scene Baekhyun and stop calling me casually. We're not that close." I was going to leave when he grabbed at dragged me to the rooftop. "What's wrong with you!?" I screamed at him. "What's wrong with YOU?! I thought we're okay. We've been texting and I thought that we're fine already. Why are you doing these? Stop avoiding me!""Because its wrong. Everything is wrong Baek.""Do you think this is easy for me Taeng? Is loving you wrong?""Why are you acting like you never left me behind. Like you never break up with me. Do you think it's easy for me to just forgive you? After what you did? By just saying I Love You did you think that everything will be the same?""I didn't break up with you because I don't love you. There is a reason Taeng."I just turn my back on him. I don't want him to see me crying. What is that reason that he chose to break my heart. "Listen okay? When you were scouted your father talked to me. He told me that he is so happy that you can do what you love. But as he was saying he suddenly ask me to break with you."I was shocked. Dad? Dad would never do that. He know that I love Baekhyun. "Because my dad ask you to leave me you're just going to do it?" I asked angrily"No. That's what I told him. No I will not break up with you. But he told me that your contract stated that you should not have any boyfriend. I was shocked but I still said no. I'm willing to fight for you Taeng."I'm just looking in his eyes. I can see that he's already tearing up. I never imagined that this was happening back then.He continued "One day you come to me and told me how happy you are that your going to be a trainee. That you are really excited. That you are really happy. How could I take away your happiness Taeng?" He's starting to cry. I cant bear to see him like this. "But why you never told me? You should have told me. We would have found a solution together. Why do you need to suffer it alone?" I hugged him. I was so selfish. I should have let him explain it way before. If I was in that position I really don't know what to do."I know that I've hurt you. That's why I auditioned in SM. So I can see you. I told myself that I would just love you from afar but I can't Taeng. It's so hard to keep this feelings." He auditioned for me? Just to be with me? How could I doubt his feelings."You know I love you right. I never stop loving you Taeng. Do you still love me?" He asked while looking at me in my eyes. "I tried to stop. I really did but I can't stop loving you too Baek." I told him and kissed him. I won't lie to myself anymore. He sacrificed a lot for me. When our lips parted we just smiled at each other. I really missed him."You guys should not do that here. The others might see" someone told us--------Sorry for the late update. I'm really busy right now. Sorry for the errors. Thanks for reading. Love you!