[M] Second Bed (1/1)

warning: as it can be predicted from the chapter title (lollll), this chap is going to be a rated one. although I do not write any smut things, but I have used dialogue, imagery, and words that consist of mature content. so, please bear with it... but I am sure this one is romantic... since when I wrote this one... I did really have so much feels --I did go to pee once, even loll, kidding xD. kk. so, yeah... yeah...  Choi Seyoung“I love you…,”Lu Han had been repeating the words that I had lost in counting. I stood freezing and didn’t know what to do. As he kept me tighter in his embrace, I closed my eyes, and squeezing his hand. With my light touch, Lu Han loosened his hold on my waist. Taking that movement as a chance to free myself, I turned my body, so that I could distance myself from him. He looked at me, taken a back, as I walked backward. “Seyoung…,” he whispered, his doe eyes flickered on me.“Stay there…,” I gestured him to not move as I kept walking backward. My aim was the front door. He looked at me with eyes furrowed as my back hit the door, and my fingers roamed on the door knob. I clicked it opened, as I inhospitably slid through the door, and found myself standing breathless on the empty corridor. I leaned my back on the door after closing it. The back of my head landed on the door as well. I was breathing fast as my heart thumping so hard.“I love you…,”As I closed my eyes, his words kept coming into my hearing. He said those damn words. He said that. Why…? Why me? Why he must love me? Why? It was the dream that I had years ago, being someone that was loved by him, by Lu Han, of EXO. But, when it came true, I didn’t feel right, either. He loved me. Seyoung, he loves you… do you love him?“Do I like him?” I muttered, more to myself.I do. But…, I am afraid.I was so freaking afraid –frightened. He slept with me once, didn’t mean I loved him. Yeah, I liked him. I liked doing it with him. Better than anyone else, I wanted Lu Han more. Well, should I try to challenge my feeling? I should try to heal myself… I could use him…Trying to calm down my heartbeat, I turned my body to face the closed door. I opened it at once where I could see Lu Han sitting on the couch with head hung low. I entered the room and closed the door behind me. I guessed I walked so quietly that even Lu Han didn’t even bother to look up at me. He didn’t hear me here. My heart thumped so fast as I got closer toward the couch where Lu Han sat motionless soullessly. From the side of the couch, I made a quick move so that I had already sat beside him, and my hands had already lingered on his body, crossed over his abdomen and back as I kissed the tip of his shoulder. He gazed my hands before turned his head to face me. I took a glance at him from his slightly shuddered shoulder. His eyes looked so confuse, as his hand started to caress my hand on his front.“Ehm…,” I hummed, in his shoulder, seemed like delivering shiver to him. “Are you sincere?” I asked. He locked his eyes on mine before nodding. “Why are you so sure?” I questioned as I felt he moved closer toward me so that my head nuzzled on the crook of his neck.“I am just…,” he whispered, “… sure.” He said gaining laughter from me. “Why?” he asked.“You are funny…,” I answered, “just because you slept with me, so that you loved me?” I giggled.“I have loved you before that…,” He cut. What? I looked at him, distancing myself from him, but he pulled me closer so that I was back on my original position. “Why…? Are you surprise?” I nodded in his neck. He smelled so nice, despite of just waking up. Was Lu Han always this perfect? Was he the perfection itself? Why someone as prefect as him even bothered to love me?“The reason you love me… I don’t know what that is…,” I mumbled, “I don’t know either the reason why I am sitting here now, with the urge to kiss you… to hug you…,” I continued, “I like you, Lu Han…,” I muttered, eyeing him, whose eyes never once left mine. “I like you, but ‘love’… I haven’t gotten there yet.”He pushed me away, as his eyes dug mine. “We can learn together.” He said after a short silence. “I can wait until you get there, Seyoung…,” He added before cupping my cheeks, “For me, to be able holding you this close, without having a fight with you, is enough.” He smiled –the best smile I had ever seen the whole my life– before c