Insecurities & Questions (1/1)
Some days had passed after the night Taekwoon and I shared our first kiss. I liked the feeling but still it felt weird, this was all new to me after all and yet I wasn’t sure about it all. Or was it just I didn’t wanted to accept the fact I am gay? I didn’t really knew the answer to that. It just seems like everything that happened only left me with questions. I wasn’t even sure if we were a thing right now. Okay we kissed, he confessed to me saying he’s in love with me and want me as his boyfriend and ask me to keep it a secret. It all was so confusing, Maybe I just needed to talk to him. To speak out all my thoughts and such. And so I did, that evening when we were working on our project. I decided to talk with him. “Hyung.” I said getting his attention “Can we talk?”“Is something wrong?” He asked, looking at me with concern“I… I just don’t know how I feel about this all… It’s weird and confusing… I don’t know what’s happening to me and why I’m like this.” I said softly It became quiet for a while, we were at my dorm, just the two of us since Sanghyuk was clubbing just like he did almost everyday. “That’s okay, just take your time. Don’t rush it. Just like how you keep in mind I want it to be a secret, I’ll keep in mind you need your time.” He spoke after a while breaking the silence“Thanks… maybe… maybe we could go on a few dates… I think that will make me less confused…” “If you think that’s best, then we will go on a few dates.” he said and flashed a small loving smile at me. I had pretty much question I wanted and needed to figure out, so all this confusion would be washed away and I knew Taekwoon would be able to help me. “Can I also ask you somethings?”
“You may ask me things but I might not answer everything.”“That’s okay.” I passed before asking my first question. “Maybe a weird question but are we a thing? it never really became clear for me if we are.”“I confessed to you and you told me our relationship would be our secret before kissing me on the lips, so you basicly accepted my my feelings and that does make you my boyfriend.”“How long do you know you are gay? or are you bisexiual?”“Three years I guess and as much as I know I’m just gay. Never really had interest in girls but you never know what will happen.”“how did you found out you liked guys instead of girls?”“I just happen to fall in love with my friend on my former school. It was weird at first but I accepted that fact pretty fast. Knowing you can’t help with who you fall in love with.”“So you had a boyfriend before?”“My friend turned out to be bisexual and we dated for a few years.”“May I ask why you broke up?”
it became quiet, why was I so stupid to ask him that? I’m so stupid… “Some people are just cruel, Wonsik.” he said, he looked hurt and sounded hurt as well. It was better if I didn't ask any further if he wanted to tell me he would when the time was there. I was just glad that he answered most of my questions with a proper answer. Now I knew what we are, that I wasn’t the only one feeling confused about my feelings I had and I was glad he was understanding about how I feel and told me not to rush things.Authors note: Another update~! I know it's kinda short so I hope you wouldn't mind it. At least it's better than nothing XD
I hope you just enjoy this chapter just as much as all the other chapters~ Also thank you guys a lot for all the coments (I keep saying this but it's just I'm so thank full that I keep saying it and still will say it. Soooo THANK YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH~~~!!!