Never ever I am going to (1/1)

Updating!! ^^Hope you enjoy this chappie ^^Comments and subscriptions are loved ^^@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@Jonghyun's POV"Jinki-ah, wait for me...Please wait for me.." I put his diary at the passenger's seat and drove off from his house.Why? Why did he never tell me about his feelings? Why did he keep making me offend him? Why didn't he make me believe that he didn't do anything to Sulli? Why????"You fool, Jinki. Why didn't you tell me that you love me whether than keeping the girls away from me? Was you afraid that I will reject you?" I mumbled to myself. If I got to know about this a little bit later, I am going to regret, Jinki ah.........If I only know you were the annonymous that I was admiring.......Just wait for me Jinki, PLease..---------------------------------------------------------------+ Arriving to hospital +I ran towards Sulli's room, hoping that I could find Jinki or some nurses inside.I kicked opened the door and there was that weird doctor from yesterday."Oh, you came?" He asked in surprise."Where's the person who is donating the kidney, Doc?" I asked in hurried."Jinki??? Why do you want to meet him?" The doctor raised his eyebrows."I need to meet him, Doc. Please tell me where is he." My voice was shaking, Begging the doctor to let me see Jinki, even if I have to kneel in front of him, I am ready to do so...."He's just in the room next to his. Remember not to make noises." He smiled at me and I bowed at him before leaving the room.I slowly slided the door, revealing Jinki who was lying on the bed with his eyes closed, having his infusion. (A/N : lulu unnie, is this right??? :P )"Jinki-ah...." I called him, not really sure whether he will hear or not.Jinki's eyes slowly opened, he seemed surprise to see me."J-jonghyun? What are you doing here?" He sounded so weak, really weak, He wasn't the Jinki that I used to know. He was someone else...."Why did you never tell me, Jinki?" I held his hands in mind, looking straight into his eyes.He looked at me with the look of what-are-you-talking-about."This..." I held up the book that I read in his room."H-How did you get it??" His eyes widened in shock."If your brother didn't invite me in, I would never know about your feelings, Stupid Jinki!" I hissed at him.Then he turned his head to the sight. "Now you hate me right? Isn't it disgusting to know that I am a gay?" His voice was shivering in fear should I say?"Then you must be disgusted that I am a gay too, Jinki..." I said and he turned his body to face me suddenly."What did you say??" "I said I am a gay." I repeated, is that what he thought? That I will feel disgusted to know that he likes me?"Jonghyun, you-" He left it unfinished."I always have been admiring a person who had been sending my favourite flowers and my favourite chocolate whenever I got dumped my a girl. The postcard in it made me smile all the time. And that way, I was able to overcome my heartbreaking feelings." I said, holding his hands tighter."I broke your heart, Jonghyun. Don't you hate me for that?" He asked me, well, why not?"Of course I hated you, but aren't you the one make me happy after all these sad events? No matter how sad I am, you always cure me in oneshot, isn't it amazing too?" I smiled, It's obvious that he always had been negative about his actions, he think I'll hate him for that."But didn't you say you really love Sulli and you'll only love her?" He questioned me, "I was very angry when I heard it. And the person involve in it was you, I was angry, but I realised that it wasn't only anger but there was an unknown jealousy behind it. You know, Jinki, this wasn't the first time you did it to me, but I never hate you to the core, I still wanna see you and talk to you, I never realise it before, until I got to know your feelings, I am sorry for being too harsh to you..I should have believed that you didn't do anything to her, and it was because of me, you dated her....." I bit my lips as I told him what is inside my mind."I am sorry, Jong, I always make you sad and hurt." Jinki brought his other hand to hold my hands, tears in his eyes. "Jinki, will it be too late if I say I love you?" I am scared, I am scared that he won't let me be with him anymore. This is the first time that I felt too afraid to lose someone, not even when Sulli dumped me."I don't deserve you, Jong. I know, I am aware of how much I made you sad.. and I-" I won't let him finish this nonsense, I pressed my lips on his, preventing any words to escape from his lips."Babo, I've read the whole diary of yours, I know what exactly you did. I don't care, Jinki. You know what? I was extremely sad that Sulli dumped me at that day until I received your gifts. When I got the fragrance of the orchids that you gave and the taste of my favourite Milk chocolate that you gave, that sadness disappeared. My mind was refreshed. Do you understand how important you are to me now?" I whispered, our lips were only a few centimeters apart."Am I dreaming here?" He blurted out, receiving a chuckle from me."Nope you are not, my dubu." I leaned in a bit to give him another kiss, but a bit deeper and longer than the previous one."Jinki, why are you crying?" I stopped the kiss and wiped the tears at the corner of his eyes."I regret, Jong. If I wasn't so stupid and get those girls, I would be able to give you my first kiss..." he mumbled out. Really, really, Jinki that was under me right now isn't the Casanova Jinki that I know but a pure, innocent and cute Jinki."Yah! If you didn't then I might get married with Yoona Noona or Sekyung??? Is that what you want???" I threatened him a bit and he wrapped his hands tightly around my waist, and well, I am completely on the bed, beside Jinki right now."Yah!!! Of course I didn't mean it! You know I don't wanna hear people call me casanova!! *Pout* Just because of you, I have to act so cool at school! Can't even do what I want." God damn, he was so cute!!"Mianhae, Jinki-ah, You don't have to be a Cold blooded Casanova anymore. Just be my cute Jinki, will you?" I asked as I caress his cheeks.Then he showed me a "Ok" sign with his hands and mouthing "Ok" to me. I never knew his smile can be so angelic........."You're not donating kidney, Jinki. I can't risk you," I quickly got off the bed and lift him up in the bridal style."Yah, put me down!! What are you doing???" Jinki hit my arms and my back but well, so gently."I won't! I am taking you away from this hospital!" I moved the door to the side with my legs and ran down the ward, holding Jinki in my hand."Yah!! Then how about Sulli???" Jinki  asked."I'll settle that later, Baby." I smirked as we got into the elevator and ran towards the car park.--------------------------------------------------------------------"Jong...""Hmmm???" "You really don't hate me??""WhY should I, baby?"I broke your heart so many times...""But you always mend it all the time....."" *Pout* You really love me??""With all of my heart, Lee Jinki...."@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@Yay! a chapter done!!!Hope you all like this ^^Comment Please  :P