Chapter 1 (1/1)

One more day without talking to him. I haven’t talked to that guy since he found out that I like him for real. We used to be very close, and our classmates kept telling us to date because we looked cute together. After that, our relationship became awkward and we barely talked to each other. One day, I told my friend that I actually liked him. And she told him about it and boom! We haven’t talked to each other at all since that day.The guy I’m talking about is Lee Sungyeol, my classmate when we were on the 10th grade. Now we’re on the 11th grade and we’re not in the same class. I don’t see him everyday, but everytime I do, I always get that feeling. A feeling that I can’t even describe. A sweet pain. “So you’re still waiting for the guy you haven’t talked to in a long time?” that’s what Minjung, my best friend says, “Move on, kid. You know he doesn’t love you.”I roll my eyes, “Well, I don’t know whether he loves me or not. But I love him if he hates me, I love him if he likes you.” “Come on. You’re too young to understand what love is. This isn’t love, you know? You’re just obsessed,” Minjung laughs a little and it makes me wanna argue with her. But I try not to, because I don’t want this to be a trouble.I don’t reply her since I know she’s gonna talk too much until my head explodes. I try to keep calm, not thinking about what Minjung said. I’m not obsessed to him. Even if it isn’t love, I’ve been liking him for almost 2 years even though I haven’t talked to him for more than one and a half year. “Why do you like him that much?” Minjung asks me.To be honest, I don’t even know why I like him that much. I gotta admit that he’s not that handsome since most of the boys in our school are more good-looking than Sungyeol. He isn’t that smart too. He isn’t athletic, and he’s not the type of boy that girls will go crazy for. What is it that I see in him which other people can’t see? “I… don’t know. Maybe because he’s nice?” I can’t explain it properly, “he isn’t really my type. He’s far from perfect.” “Ah I know. You don’t really love him. But you’re taunted with your friends’ words about dating him because you two look cute together, aren’t you?”Maybe? But no, I’m not. Actually, I’ve liked him since the very first day of high school. Then we became close until I forgot that I once liked him. Then he ‘left’ me and that feeling came back. I like him until now. “No…. Ugh, Minjung. You don’t understand. I don’t even understand. This is we-“I haven’t even completed my senteces when Minjung cuts it, “well, I don’t really think it’s weird. It’s normal to have that kind of feeling. I’m not telling you to stop loving him, I just want to help you to figure out what you really feel towards him. I don’t want you to misunderstand yourself and get hurt.”She says it calmly and she doesn’t sound angry at all. I’m sure she doesn’t want to argue with me, so I smile at her and give her a hug, “I know… I know. You just don’t want me to get hurt, do you? I’m gonna be okay. How is Sungyeol gonna hurt me if he doesn’t talk to me?”Actually, Minjung and Sungyeol are quite close because both of them are in the cabaret club. Fortunately, Minjung doesn’t tell Sungyeol how often I talk about him. If she tells Sungyeol about it, I’m gonna be dead. I don’t want Sungyeol to think I’m dramatic. “You know that Sungyeol and I are good friends. What if he tells me something that you don’t know? What if Sungyeol and I are secretly dating?” Minjung says and laughs loudly. She’s just joking, she’s not being serious about it because Minjung doesn’t have any interest in Sungyeol. “Really, Shin Minjung, I don’t envy anything else from you. But being able to talk to Sungyeol, I really want it,” I say, “I used to be his best friend and I know how nice he is.  He’s such a good friend.” “And until this second, he’s still like that. He’s still that nice and funny boy that you know,” Minjung says with a grin on her face, “he hasn’t changed a lot.”If he hasn’t changed a lot, does it mean he still thiks that I’m his best friend? Because he once told me that I was one of his best friends. “Don’t make me miss him more…”sorry sorry sorry sorry for the short chapter and make you guys wait for more than a month for the update. I hope this is worth the wait lol enjoy! don't forget to comment