He did not call Her Name (1/1)

'F(x) Victoria,  BOA eunim, and SNSD's Yoona'...She turned off the radio, not bother to listen to the dj's comment. She did not understand why she was hurt when he didn't call her name as one of his closest (girl) friends.She knew she should not be surprise. She will never be able to compete with those unnies. She was not expressive, nor lively, or pretty like them. She did not know how; being in the training since she was 13.She had tried to make herself visible to him. She was in cloud nine when he finally mentioned her name in his thanks note. Though she only get a boring 'meek' compare to 'cute' or even a 'still weird'.Yet after so many duets, they were still arkward to each other. She could not say 'hello' without getting red and he was never standing near or talking to her during public events. So what she could do was only to surpress her sadness and tried not to show her envies to her Yonna-unnie or Qian-unnie.But there are things that she was even puzzled more. Like why he called her Seohyunnie now. Or why he sent endless texts of 'hello', 'are you healthy' or 'can you eat well' almost everyday since their Tokyo Dome performance. He even entwined their fingers on the second day of the show while what they had agreed to do was touching each other hands. Yes, there were hopes. Flying as high as they could. In her heart. Especially because she caught him smiling softly everytime his eyes met hers. But her brain, her always rationale one, kept remind her to hold that hopes well on the ground, guarding her heart from a possible fall.She brushed her eyes, wiped the tears that she did not realise was there. Luckily her unnies were downstairs to enjoy after show parties. Lucky for her that everyone is used with h