[M] Too Much Has Been Said (1/1)

Luhan moans as he felt Sehun come inside him.He could tell Sehun is angry by the way Sehun had pushed him to the wall, kissed him hungrily and left painful bite marks around his neck and chest. Despite Luhan’s initial remark that he was tired from club practice, his pleas entered deaf ears as Sehun took him tight, thrusting into him until his eyes could no longer see straight. Warm come trickled down his thigh and he could have sworn blood came along with it.“What’s wrong with you today? You could have impaled me, asshole.” Luhan asks after Sehun slumped to the bed beside him.“Nothing” Sehun replies, his eyes grim.“So that’s our new greeting then? By killing me with your co-““I saw you” Sehun says in a raised voice cutting short Luhan’s angry retort.“Saw what?” Luhan bewilderingly asks as he faces Sehun, shocked by the latter’s sudden outburst. Luhan sees Sehun’s eye for the first time during that day along with the sadness within it. He feels his anger dissipate.“I saw you with the Kris guy…. Today… by the locker rooms”Luhan could see Sehun’s struggle to complete his sentences but Luhan could understand what he is trying to say.“Oh, is that why you were angry? I thought it’s because I ruined you r favorite shirt when I laundered it last night”Luhan sees the younger’s eye grow darker as his pupils dilate.“That’s it? You’re not even going to… at least try to make up some sort of excuse?”“Excuse for what? I thought we have agreed on this open relationship before all of this started. Because for as long I could remember, we were never exclusive”“After all this time, Luhan? We’ve been living together for almost a year and you still expect me to believe this not exclusive bullshit?” Sehun’s voice is angry but Luhan could hear the inaudible pleading for Luhan to take back what he said.“I think you got it all wrong, Sehun. We are not living together. I just needed a roommate to share the rent. And sex is just sex. There’s really nothing to it.”Luhan feels his heart tug a bit at when the words he just said escaped his mouth and Luhan knows he would come to regret saying it someday but he keeps his face straight.Sehun simply stares at him and silence ensues. After a few minutes, Sehun turns away and says, “Well…thank you for clearing things out,” his voice venomous.Luhan feels the guilt but he couldn’t help replying to the retreating Sehun.“If it’s any consolation, Kris was not the only one”It was only after he heard Sehun’s pained reply that he realizes that he had made things worse. Luhan was really never a smooth talker.  “How generous of you to spare me those moments we’ve shared. Those moments I thought that you lov-…. Am I that pitiful to you, Luhan? Am I not enough?”A long awkward pause ensues as Luhan contemplates hard whether to answer Sehun’s question.“No. I’m sorry”“I see.”Sehun walks away, takes his cap from the bedside table without looking back at Luhan. His voice cracks as he said he is going to go out with friends and for Luhan to not wait up for his return.  Luhan could only stare at the door after Sehun left. He wants to cry.He wants to cry not purely because he hurt Sehun.He wants to cry because what he said to Sehun was partly true.Sehun made him happy for the past year. Sehun was his comfort and solace and everything Luhan wanted in a lover. But as much as he wants to please Sehun and return that happiness that Sehun gave him by keeping to himself the words he had said earlier, he could not lie to Sehun.As much as it also pains him to see Sehun miserable, he could not lie to himself.Sehun is not enough.  A/NPicture not mine. Reviews/Comments are very much appreciated. :Dv