Everything good and bad (1/1)

,,Miss Heo? Are you okay?'' my ''personal assistant'' asked me. ,,Yes,'' I said and sighed. ,,It's time to go on stage now. See, Woohyun is already waiting for you.'' she said and led me to Woohyun. Today it's the day Woohyun makes his solo debut, apart from other members. And I'm featuring in his debut song ,,Is it love?''. I am actually still trainee at Woollim Entertainment and I'm supposed to make my debut soon as a member of girl group. This is my chance to shine and get people intrested I thought as took my microphone. And Inkigayo is pretty popular so if I happen to make any mistakes then people will remember it forever. ,,Hyejin?'' Woohyun asked. ,,Yes, oppa?'' I've been calling him oppa ever since we started preparing this song. ,,Everything is fine?'' he asked like over-protective older brother. ,,I'm just little bit scared,'' I admitted because I knew he knows me well enough already to know if I'm lying. ,,Why?'' Woohyun raised his eyebrow:,,We rehearsed everything million times, you're perfect,'' ,,What if something goes wrong?'' our names were called out and they told we're gonna be next. ,,Nothing goes wrong. You know why? Because I chose you. I'm relying on you. Sunggyu is relying on you. Infinite is relying on you. H-YOU is relying on you. And you're their leader which means you have big influence on them. Repeat yourself these words and you'll be fine,'' he said and hugged me. ,,Thank you, oppa.''I told him. Just after that it was our turn to go on stage. The song was ballad so there weren't much moving there but at least it moved the fans. I saw some of them having tears in their eyes. Woohyun did good job when he wrote it. 2 hours later I got back to my dorm where girls were already waiting for me. Other Infinite members had the day off and we decided to go there. Ofcourse Woohyun is there by now already. I told the girls I'm gonna change my clothes and remove the thick make-up and we're ready to go. At least they called to boys this time and asked if we can go.It's been 3 weeks since I saw the other members of group and I'm been dying to see them since Sunggyu is my best friend ever since kindergarden. And I'm getting well along with other members too ever since I started preparing the song with Woohyun 4 months ago. ,,Unnie?'' Dahae, the maknae of H-YOU, called me. ,,Yes?'' I asked as I put on the clothes I chose. Even if we're all friends, I still have to look good. I mean, it would be okay if I go there with only my tracksuit but I don't want HIM to see me this way. I want him to think that I'm worth something. I'm worth him. I want him to see me as woman, not just as a labelmate. ,,Are you coming?'' oh yeah, she couldn't also wait to see Sungjong, her crush. ,,Yees, wait a little. Why such a hurry?'' I joked. ,,Stop joking and let's go,'' she said and dragged me out from my room. ,,Alright, I have to get my keys.'' yes, since I am the only one with driver licence I have to drive us everywhere. As soon as we arrived in front of the Infinite dorm, girls were already out of the car and happy to meet the boys. They even told me to do quickly, but I was the one who had to bring the cake. Because girls thought we can get up faster with elevator, we went on it. They pushed me out of it as soon as we got on the right floor and told me to ring the bell million times before we reached to right door. When I finally rang the bells, girls tried to become calm not to seem like crazy fangirs at boys eyes. As soon as Sunggyu opened the door I hugged him tightly. ,,OPPA!'' I laughed and squeezed him. ,,Hyunnie, you can let go of me now,'' he pretended to choke. ,,No. I missed you so badly. We haven't seen eachother for 3 weeks already,'' ,,We didn't see eachother longer when I was in Japan,'' ,,It was different situation,'' ,,Explain me how,'' ,,Because back then you were in Japan not in Korea. We had no chance to meet.'' I said and went to look for other boys. Ofcourse they were watching tv. ,,Oh, hey Hyejin,'' Hoya said and made others turn their heads. ,,Hello you all,'' I said and popped on the couch next to Sungyeol. ,,And hello Dahae-shi, Minye-shi and Yerin-shi.'' Hoya told to other girls. We have been hanging out at eachother plces or 4 months already but girls and Infinite are still very formal. ,,Let's drop the formalities. We're been hanging out togeher for 4 months already and still use them?'' I said and cut he cake into slices. ,,If you think so,'' Sungyeol told and quickly took his piece of the cake. ,,So, what are we gonna do?'' I asked, looked slightly at him and blushed. ,,How about some card games?'' Myungsoo thought. ,,Alright, I agree,'' Minye said and popped on the couch next to Myungsoo, this girl is actually the most outgoing girl from us four. ,,Wait, but first, before you start, let's make a toast,'' Sunggyu said and quickly brought juice to us in glasses, which made me laugh. ,,And the reason is...?'' I asked. ,,Well, there's two reasons. One is that Woohyun finally debuted today! And the second one is that you also debuted today. Congurlations to both of you,'' he said and signaled us to take our glasses. ,,Thank you,'' both I and Woohyun said. After Sunggyu's small speech others started playing cards and Sunggyu dragged me to kitchen. ,,So, Hyunnie...''' he started. ,,Sunggyu..'' I told and laughed, but he didn't. ,,When are you gonna tell him?'' he asked. ,,Who and what?'' I pretended not to know what he's talking about but he knew I was lying. ,,Heo Hyejin, please, we both know that you know that I'm talking about you telling Dongwoo about your feelings. So, when are you gonna confess?'' I could hear two people yelling at eachother and others laughing from other room and thought how much it's gonna change if I'm gonna do that. ,,Not in the near future,'' I sighed ,,Why?'' he was confused ,,It's going to ruin everything. We all have special relationship, we think of eachothers as friends. Some more, some less than that mabye. What if I'm gonna confess but he doesn't like me? I can't just stay and watch how he's going to other girl and I don't want to hear him telling me he loves someone else. If that happens, I don't know how long I can stay here and see myself falling apart. So, it's better to stay as friends because I don't know what he thinks about me,'' tears came in my eyes and I reached to wipe them away. ,,You may be right but you never know. You have to tell him. I don't want to see you suffer,'' Sunggyu said. ,,I'm gonna suffer even more when I hear that he doesn't like me at all.''