Trust... (1/2)
“Yongbae ah…can I ask you something?” Top looking directly to Yongbae who are busy scanning the menu to order. “Yes hyung?” Yongbae head up full with curiosity. “Have you done with your order?” Top asked. “Ah…owh.. yes.” Yongbae pointed the menu to the waiter and Top just waiting until the waiter leave their table. “So hyung,..what do you want to ask?”asked Yongbae. “About you and Jiyong. Are you sure you will be ok? We have seen how both of you suffered when you two being apart before.” Yongbae release a heavy sigh before answering Top’s question. “I’ll be ok hyung. Even though I can’t…but I will. As long as he is happy.” he said. “That is why I asked. I don’t feel he is happy right now, so do you. Why do you need to lie?” Top asked with concerned. He didn’t mean to interrupt with their problems, but seeing them two makes him curious. “I really don’t know hyung. Is it love and hate relationship? When we are being apart we miss….erm..I’m not sure about him..but I miss him..when we are together there is no day that we will end up without arguing. It’s really hard to get the chemistry like we had as a best friend before. I can’t deny the love that I have for him, but I think being together just makes him miserable, and maybe me myself is not a good boyfriend for him.”
“And why is that?’
“I’m such a coward bastard, I think…that is why.”
Yongbae quickly change the topic. For him, what had happened between him and Jiyong is too personal to be shared with the other members and it is not something that should be diffused. It will be disgusting topic to be discuss with their members, he thought. So, he just let it be theirs, him and Jiyong, big secrets.I still love you
I wanted to tell you that
Though you gave up at last
Saying that this can't work out no more
Rather than I starting to hate you, I miss you more
Rather than I feel sad, I miss you too much
Is this ain’t it, Is this ain’t it
What should I do if I see you by any chance
Should I hide in people pretending not to have seen you
It will be a waste of emotion which doesn't mean anything for now
I worry tens of times a day
They say time heals everything but it has been a while
This ain't it, This ain't it, This ain't It
You would smile
Saying that you're happy now
Though you left a deep scar
Not a beautiful memory,
Rather than I starting to hate you, I miss you more
Rather than I feel sad, I miss you too much
Is this aint it, Is this aint it
From the first, it was too familiar
More than couples who have been seeing each other for a long time
Now it's meaningless, just a thing in memories
I worry tens of times a day
They say time heals everything but it has been a while
This ain't it, This ain't it, This ain't It
I tried to empty my heart which is filled with you
But I feel like maybe the things in movies will happen to me