Chapter 26 (1/1)

Jimin sat at the dinner table feeling awkward. No one was really speaking nor making any type of conversation. A part of him wanted to get up and walk away or go back to his room, but his position at the table made it impossible without asking a Yoongi to stand up so he could move past it.“Well…it’s good to have everyone home….” Jin said after what felt like an entirety in silence.Taehyung glared at his eldest hyung “not everyone is home, hyung.”Jin’s mouth opened slightly before he closed it and lowered his head, muttering an apology.“That’s not what he meant,” Namjoon said before turning to Hoseok “we are happy you’re home, again.”Silence once more filled the room, making things feel tense once more.“Um, so Jimin…are you excited for your first surgery?” Namjoon questioned next. He couldn’t believe it was tomorrow. It was insane how much time has passed since Doctor Lou said he and other surgeons had come up with a plan to have Jimin walk again.The younger looked up, nodding his head “y-yeah, a little nervous.”Nervous? He was practically shitting himself. He was undergoing major surgery on his spine. If something went wrong, there is no chance of him ever walking again. He would be in a wheelchair for the rest of his life. He was terrified.Taehyung looked towards his hyung, sensing how nervous he was. They hadn’t really spoken since the day Hoseok awoke in the hospital with his memories restored. That was just over a month ago. Now, Jungkook has been missing for over a year, and his friendship with Jimin was broken. He didn’t know how to repair it. He didn’t know how to fix any of this. Everything was just so fucked up, and Taehyung was reaching his limits.“I-I’m sure it will go fine,” Taehyung mumbled.Jimin looked towards him in surprise. They hadn’t spoken directly to each other in so long.“Taehyung is right; BigHit got some of the world’s best doctors to work on your case. They have come up with a good plan. We have to trust the doctors,” Namjoon said, trying to give Jimin some encouragement.Yoongi nodded, rubbing his shoulder “remember when I went for surgery? I was so nervous, but you messaged me and cheered me on. I was so grateful for that. Now it’s our turn to support you.”Tears began to drip down Jimin’s eyes in gratefulness to everyone. He didn’t deserve to go through with his surgery, not after what he did. The rest of dinner went by pretty quietly. Jimin didn’t eat much of it. His stomach too full of rocks of nervousness and guilt. Namjoon pushed him to his room, helping him get changed before helping him into bed. Jimin now had a handle attached to the roof he could use to lift himself up and onto the bed. It was weird how he was adjusting to life as a cripple. Almost as though he has accepted it; however, tomorrow, he would hopefully be on the road to proper recovery. To one do be able to use his legs again.“Night, Jimin,” Namjoon said as he adjusted Jimin’s blanket. “Do you need anything? Water?”Jimin shook his head; he still had a bottle of water from yesterday beside his bed. “I-I’m good. I just don’t know how I’m going to sleep.”“I know. But try to get some. You have a big day ahead of you,” Namjoon said before leaning down, kissing the top of the youngers head. “Everything will be fine. Soon you will be up and dancing just like you used to.”“A-Are you sure?” Jimin mumbled.“Positive. Try to get some rest,” Namjoon said before turning off Jimin’s lamp and leaving the room.Rest? Jimin didn’t think that was what he was going to get tonight. He would be tossing and turning the best he could with half an abled body.Sighing, he made his first roll onto his side just as a knock sounded through the room, making Jimin sit up with the help of his handle. “Y-Yes?”The door opened and to Jimin’s surprise was Taehyung, standing there with a pillow in his arms.“H-Hyung…can I sleep with you tonight?” Taehyung questioned.Jimin felt his heart skip a beat; Taehyung wanted to sleep with him? They hadn’t spoken to each other since Hoseok had told Taehyung Jimin still wasn’t over him.“Y-Yeah…i-is everything okay?” Jimin questioned as Taehyung entered the room, closing the bedroom door.“Y-Yeah, I’m just nervous about tomorrow,” Taehyung sighed as he approached Jimin’s bed.Jimin could have laughed; Taehyung was nervous? He himself was freaking out.Taehyung sat on the side of the bed, still slightly unsure if he should be doing this. “I-I’m sorry about...ignoring you the last few weeks…I just…I thought you were okay with Jungkook and me.”Jimin felt his heart sink. His eyes cast down, looking at anything but Taehyung. “I thought I was too. I thought I’d be able to give you up and that we could still just be friends. J-Jungkook…he clearly loved you a-and you loved him. I accepted that, but it still hurts.”Tears started to drip down Jimin’s face as his heart twisted “e-even now…J-Jungkook is gone…h-he may never come back, but you still love him, and I feel guilty for loving you.”The hurt look on Taehyung’s face only made Jimin feel worse when he glanced up for just a second. He buried his head in his hands as he cried, feeling worse than he had ever felt before. “M-Maybe this is my punishment for being an awful friend. Maybe I shouldn’t go through with the surgery and never walk again.”Taehyung reached out, hugging his friend tightly “hyung…don’t say that. This wasn’t all your fault.”Jimin pushed Taehyung away, shaking his head “b-but you think some of it is! Don’t you! Don’t lie to me!”“Yes,” Taehyung snapped without hesitation, “yes, I do think some of it was your fault. But some of it is on Hoseok too, and the bastard who drugged and kidnapped Jungkook and the police are fucking useless to boot.”“But you blame me the most. You hate me, don’t you!” Jimin shouted.“I don’t hate you! I still love you too,” Taehyung shouted back before slapping a hand on his mouth as words slipped out before he could stop them.Jimin’s jaw dropped in shock; Taehyung still loved him? But how? After everything he did, Taehyung still had some sort of feeling for him?Before either of them realized what they were doing, both clashed each other lips together, kissing for the first time. It was hot, it was passionate, it was a mess, but it sent sparks into Jimin’s brain as Taehyung pushed Jimin to lie down and climbed on top of him.