What Now? (1/1)

Dear Diary,I told JR what happened with Minhyun, and I told him that I had given up. He asked if I were sad about it, and I lied and told him I was fine, that I‘ll get over it in the near future.At the thought of the ‘near future,’ I began to ponder. What now? Now that Minhyun is out of the question, what do I do with myself? Falling in love with Minhyun, does that make me gay? I certainly was able to fall in love with a boy, so that means I’ll be able to fall in love with more? Or maybe I’m straight with Minhyun being an exception? I tried to imagine myself with Ren or JR or Baekho and shuddered. I tried then to imagine myself with a girl and I also disapproved. It’s not a matter of gender; I simply didn’t love anyone but Minhyun now.How long does it take to get over a love like mine? I can’t imagine myself ever getting over Minhyun. He’ll always hold a special place in my heart, always. If I ever do get another partner (strange how this alleged partner is genderless in my head right now), I can’t imagine loving him/her more than I love Minhyun. Maybe I just say that now though. We’ll see.