final (1/1)

I knew that this moment was coming i could feel it in my body but i didnt imagine it would happen today.no i couldnt believe kris was leaving him and his dream along with the team behind to start off new somewhere else.   I  should have known this was coming though especially from the way kris would sneak of somewhere but when the new of kris's lawsuit and him leaving hit me, i couldnt move. I remmeber though the distant voice of lay calling out my name but i didnt pay attention though i just kept my eyes on the floor while tears ran freely down my face.  "Hyung are you okay". I could hear someone say but he couldnt make out the face as tears blurred his vision and everything went black as he heard people shouting his name all around. When i woke up again i prayed to god that it was all just a nightmare, that kris was still there but somehow when i went to the room kris shared with luhand and xiumin, the room was void of anything that was kris.The only thing left was a stuffed teddy bear with a note stuck to it. I was about to take it when all of a sudden the door openned startling me and i jumped back in surprised. "Suho-ah i knew id find you here and i guess you found no ? He left it for you so you could hug it and remember him" luhan said as he walked to where i was standing and grabbed the teddy bear and gave it to me. "Why? Why did he leave? Couldnt he have stayed maybe just a little" i said as i looked at the bear." If he knew he was gonna leave why did he make me fall in love with him only to leave me behind, when he promised me he would never leave me" i shouted as i hugged the teddy bear tighter. "Suho you yourself knew what he was going through.you knew what was wrong with him and the cruel things they made him do, he couldnt take the amount of practice and work put on him" luhan said as he stood in front of me. "But cant i be selfish for once and keep him here" i say as i take a step back and turn around.i dont look back to luhan as i walk out the door but not before uttering a low warning "dont you ever do this to xiumin-hyung, luhan-hyung" and then i walked out the door closing it behind me and walking to my room trying to avoid any of the members. I enter the room and walk towards my bed and sit down while debating whether to read the letter or not.   I decided to read the letter, just maybe this letter can further explain his reasons for leaving me behind.i knew i was being selfish wanted him to stay with me but what else could i do if i loved him so much that i just couldnt let him go i thought as i opened the letter.    Dear suho,  Knowing you, your probably angry with me and at the sametime sad because leaving means me breaking the promise i made you.Remember when we first met, of course you do.when i first saw you i thought i was seeing an angel because that was how you truly looked.you shone with unheld happiness, you looked so happy when you found out you were finally gonna be in a group.when we first where introduced you smiled at everyone and introduced yourself with a smile on your face.  You know you were always the first to worry for a member when they felt sick or tired.I admired that about you since your qualities justified my idea of you being an angel more but never did i think i would fall for such a beautiful angel as you.i dont regret falling in love with you and spending the little time we had together.I remember when i found out i had fallen hard for you.it wasnt as i had imagined but i found out when i saw you together with lay.why you may ask is because lay he...well he likes you and when i saw you with him i couldnt help the jealousy.it took tao and chen to convince me to tell you.i remember your flushed face as you stared in shock and surprised before you hugged me and said you felt the same.i thank you for loving me and understanding ne during the time we had together but now its time for you to be strong for me my little angel. I know im gone and im sorry for that.if i could of stayed i would have but i couldnt so i hope you can understand.i left for many reasons one of them being that i wasnt treated good and you yourself knew that.i also wasnt allowed to be cast in movies or be part of dramas. So im sorry my dear angel, im sorry i broke the promise i made on christmas day when i promised to stay by your side forever and make you happy.i hope you can forg