Is this end? (1/1)
After spending time thinking about Tiffany, a part of me want to stop chasing her but there's something tells me i should've hold on to her and wait until she come around. Sometimes, i am tired missing her, i am tired with this one-sided love. Even as a friend, i am tired getting treated like this, but i can't tell myself that i need to move on from her. I am still that delusional.Most of the time i spend my time at home,online on Twitter, when suddenly I saw Tiffany tweet something to me. m style="line-height:1.6;">@ByunTaeng”@Lovequotes Sometimes, when I say “I’m okay”, I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight and say, “I know you’re not.” My heartbeats fast, am I that someone? What does it means? Is she for real?? I can feel myself blushing. If I can jump around I will. Am I really that someone???! Am I really that special to her? Is she finally feels the same as I am????I was so happy. The happiest girl on earth that night. As I decided to fight for her, I want her so much that time. If I can call her and tell her how I feel I will. I looked at the tweet again, I am so speechless. I don’t know what to think, all I know is I am so happy.After a while, I try to control my feelings because that’s not how the Kim Taeyeon rolls. When suddenly someone text me. It’s Tiffany. Tae, are you sleeping? No, Fany-ah. Why? What’s wrong? Is she going to tell me how she feels about me??! m style="line-height:1.6;">We kissed. Two words from her, it’s breaking my heart apart. I was too late. Oh. Wow, then you guys are what? A couple? No, I don’t really care about it now. The weird thing is I was thinking about my ex while I was kissing him. It is really weird. What about me? I see. I’m so confused Tae, it is really weird! Well, you do loved your ex a lot before. m style="line-height:1.6;">I guess so. m style="line-height:1.6;">Anyway, congrats and cheer up! After that, no replies from her. I realize I am nothing to her. I realize I don’t have any place inside of her. I realize that quotes means nothing to her. I realize how I am such a fool thinking I could actually have a chance with her. I mean, look at me, I’m nobody.I am not rich, I am not pretty, I am just a weird geek, who fall in love with her best friend. That is pathetic, really pathetic.I cried as hard as I can so I won’t cry for her anymore next time. I prefer being a loner than getting hurt like this.I want to disappear from her. I want to leave her for good. I can’t be her friends anymore, I can’t be the one who hearing about her love problems and at the same time killing myself. I can’t faking myself around her.I don’t f*cking care about anything anymore!I rant about my feelings on twitter. I want to disappear from you, if you’re wondering who, try to text or anything to reach me. If I ignore it, means that person is you. I won’t unfollow you here, but I will delete everything. Because, I like you. A lot. And it’s time. Yes, I’m being the obvious here. I don’t care about anything anymore. I won’t care about what people will feel or think anymore. Now I will only take care of my own feelings. I am sorry Tiffany. This is too hurt for me and I can’t be your friends anymore.I can’t be that someone anymore.You already have that someone. I love you, but I am sorry. This time I will go. Take care.---------But, is this end of it? _________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________COMMENTS AND SUBSCRIBE! ^^P/S : SORRY GUYS FOR THE LOOOOOOOOOOOONNNGG HIATUS. I'VE BEEN BUSY WITH MY STUDIES AND HERE I AM TRYING TO MAKE IT UP TO YOU. ^^ ANYWAY, I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY. ^^,