So called Crush~ (1/1)
It was in the middle of the night and I can’t sleep. I was thinking about Sunggyu oppa, I wonder how he’s doing. I keep waking up after several hours of sleep and finally, it was 7 o’clock. I woke up and sat on my bed with my phone in my hand. “Is he there yet? I wonder if he can find a wifi connection.” I thought to myself. I turned my phone on and saw a message from Sunggyu oppa. “Hey! I just arrived in China!! This place is awesome and some people in this tour group is my age. This is going to be fun! And the hotel has Wifi so I can still bother you every night! Mwahahaha I hope you’re not disappointed. I’ll text you again when I get a wifi connection since now I’m leaving the hotel. Seeya! Take care there little sis!” That was all I got from him. ‘Little sis’, that term kind of feel like a punch in my stomach. Why am I disappointed being called a little sis? I think of him as a brother, that means it’s suppose to feel good when he called me sis… right? Oh well, never mind. I spent most of the day doing the most random things on earth. I lay on my bed doing nothing, staring at the ceiling till I fell asleep for few hours. I ate and walk around the house with no sense of direction, which is sad. Night finally falls and I was back on top of my bed again, hugging a small teddy bear. I turned on my laptop and sign in to Skype. DING! A chat pops up. Again, it was Sunggyu oppa. “Can I call?” He wrote. I replied with a yes and there’s an incoming call immediately. I picked it up. “Good night princess!” He said cheerfully “Hello oppa. How’s today?” “It was awesome. I really do miss you already though. Haha” “Haha!! Awww, isn’t that sweet? Did you find any cute girls just yet?” I said, teasing him. “Naaah, no one really caught my attention. These people are nice but they’re just friends.” “Is it possible that you already have a crush back here in Seoul?” “Well, come to think of it. I actually do have a crush back there. And I miss her like hell…” “AH REALLY?!?!” I said almost screaming my heart out. I really was joking when I asked him about a crush. He never told me before, so of course it shocked me. “Don’t need to shout that loudly alright… Yea I do have a crush. Why?” “Who is it? Is it someone I know??” I asked, I was so curious. There was some kind of adrenaline rush inside of me just so curious about the topic. “What?? No way! There’s no way I’m telling you…” “Then describe her!” I demanded. He finally gave up and told me what she was like. We spent about 2 hours or so on the phone talking about his crush. Something just died a little inside of me all the time while we were talking about his oh so perfect crush. I realized that maybe, just maybe, I might think about him more than a brother. I think I’ve fallen in love with him. “So, is that it??? That is so not helping my investigation!” I said “What? 2 hours of talking about her and you still don’t think it’s enough? You’ve got to be kidding me!” “Why can’t you just tell me? Tell me who it iiissss! Or at least tell me the reason why you won’t tell me…” “And the reason is youuuu~” He started singing along to hoobastank’s reason. “Oppa… Seriously don’t tease me…” I pouted. He smiled and let out a small laughter. “It’s the truth princess… The reason is you” He said, smiling. I always knew he has eye smile but it never looked as attractive as it is now. His smile was sweet and warm, like I’ve never seen before. His smile this time is so sincere and pure I can barely avert my eyes. His short cut messy hair adds extra cuteness that I can’t resist. My face turns red from the sight of his face. He is charming, my so called brother, Kim Sunggyu, is super charming. He wore a blue t-shirt and a wristwatch on his right wrist. “What do you mean the reason is me? Is it because it’s me, you don’t want to tell?” I asked, trying to act as in nothing was wrong, hiding my red face behind my teddy bear. “Exactly, but don’t be mistaken. It’s not that I don’t trust you, it’s just that… It’s you, I can’t tell…” “Doesn’t make any sense…” I pouted again. “Hahaha, oh come one. Don’t be like that. You’ll see… One day you’ll know, don’t worry. Now go to bed and try to figure out my descriptions. I also have to sleep now.” “Running away mister??” “No I’m not. Just…. Figure it out, okay?” “Alright alright fine… Good night” “Good night girl!” He said, I hung up the phone. It doesn’t make sense, he can’t tell me because I’m me? That’s ridiculous. I don’t understand this guy. And why in the world is he so adorable tonight? I could never win over his cuteness. He looks so gentle and loving, but impossible. I turned my mp3 player on and put on Hoobastank’s reason. I listened to every part of the lyrics, trying to figure it out. I have to know who his crush is. From the way he talks of her, sounds like she means a lot to him. If I want to win him over, I might want to compete with that girl. I wonder if I know her… I can’t believe a person like him could actually make me feel this way. I have no idea what to think right now. I should probably talk to someone and ask for opinions but I’m afraid that I’ll look stupid or just… too confused? This is really the first time someone ever makes me feel this way. Way weird. I grabbed my phone and called a good friend of mine, Lee Chosub. “Yeoboseyo?” His voice said. “Chosub-sshi!! What should I do???” I said in panic. “Whoa whoa whoa. Yongra? What’s wrong? Slow down…” He said, just as panic “I… I don’t know… I think… I think I’m in love….” ---------------------------------------Update update update~~ :pI'm clueless in making chapter titles... seriously, pardon the crappy title. Read, subscribe, comment...? ;) XOXO Inspirit_KissmELF