Icey roads ahead. (1/1)

“This might not be so easy today, the fans have guessed where we’re filming this morning- there’s no way we can be at a funfair, it crowds are gonna be crazy.” Explained the director. That’s a shame; I was looking forward to going on the carousel and riding the horses…. Not like that you dirty people! Onew and I were sat in the meeting room, discussing alternatives with the director.“Well, we had a back-up option which was going ice-skating- it would be an open air rink but I can imagine it would be a lot of fun….I’ll go and see what the others think and if the cars are ready, I’ll be back in a minute.” He smiled, got up and left. It was just me and Onew in the room. I couldn’t take the silence anymore.“Onew, I have to tell you something-,” I began desperately,“Why? Think you’re pretty good at keeping secrets.” He said bluntly. “Onew look, you can hate me all you want. It’s not going to take back what I did. It’s just going to make it really difficult for us. I shouldn’t have slept with Jonghyun-” I admitted finally, it made Onew look terribly uncomfortable, “But I did and it was a mistake. And… well I want to say thank you for helping me yesterday and staying in hospital with me.” He made no comment, and still wouldn’t look at me.I gulped“Cho told me that the doctors believed I sort of-well- miscarried.” I said quietly.This was so awkward.I waited until Onew said something. But he didn’t. Asshole. The director opened the door,“We’re off, looks like the ice skating is going ahead- come on guys!” He beamed and off we went. I had my hair in a long plait today and was wearing my tights, skirt, coat and scarf- thank god! Onew had his coat on over his hoodie and he kept the hood up, almost as if to block me out when we sat in the car. I wondered if he still felt the same way about me, but how can you still like someone in that way when they’ve hurt you so much? When we got to the ice rink the camera’s were set up all around and me and Onew got on our skates, I’m awful at ice skating, it usually consists of holding onto dear life at every chance I get. What was worse was that we actually had to pretend to get along and be all flirty. Cho wasn’t with me today so I felt quite lonely.As we go on the ice, I skated round; holding the sides like my life depended on it. Onew, on the other hand, was quick and made it look easy.The writer was asking me a series of questions like “How do you feel about Onew after your third date…” blah blah blah and all that jazz. I pretended to be all cheerful and sweet but in all honesty, I hated it.“What’s taking you so long?!” teased Onew for the cameras. He smiled like he does just for television.I was fed up, and for a few minutes, I forgot we were being filmed.“Just leave me alone.” I said still gripping onto the edge. He skated over to me fast, and stopping just in front of me. He hid his face from the camera a little way away from us.“Don’t bother Onew, you don’t care anyway.” I mumbled.He looked at me, his nostrils were flared and his expression stern. He rested his arm on the barrier, blocking my way forward.I was getting ready for him to begin firing abuse at me.“How do you know it would’ve been my baby.” He began, his voice was hushed.“Because when we had sex…well… it was just before…well you know how the female reproduction works….it would only make sense that it would’ve been yours not- not his.”  Onew looked at me, for a second I saw the sparkle he used to have in his eyes when he saw me.“Why did you tell me?” he asked.Because Cho told me to?!“Because it’s your right to know, as you would’ve been the father of the baby.” That sounded much more mature.He stayed there, thinking for a minute.But I was worried what he may say next, what happens if he began being nasty or throwing insults at me? I didn’t want to hear it…plus I felt rain droplets in the air.“But it doesn’t matter anyway, because there is no baby, so there is no problem.” With that, I pushed his arm out of the way a continued round the rink,“That’s a heartless thing to say.” He said after me, the camera’s definitely caught that. The crew looked confused as to what we had been talking about. Heartless, but true.  Within seconds the sky filled with dark clouds, the heavens opened and the rain began to pour by the bucket load. Everyone was rushing about trying to cover the cameras and take shelter. I just stood there, a little way away from Onew; I didn’t really give a shit about getting soaked.“Why did you have to hurt me like that?” I heard Onew shout out through the rain. I turned around, “I told you, it was a mistake. Jonghyun- he told me this story about how he wanted me all along and you managed to get there before him. Oh, I don’t know- I wasn’t thinking…”Oh god. I’ve just realised something. It was Onew I liked, not the sex. It was Onew that I felt something for…He came closer to me.“Would you do it again?”“Definitely not.” I replied quickly.If you expected some happy ending here, then you were unfortunately very wrong. I desperately wanted him to lift me in the air and twirl me round. But I should’ve known he’d act the way he did. He skated off to the car and took shelter, leaving me stood in the cold to find my way slowly off the ice.  Well that got us nowhere.  The camera’s were still rolling so I expect to see some sad tribute to my shit skating skills as I make my way to safety.I know I’ve treated him badly, but he ‘s not exactly helped by being so cold…mind you, he did help me yesterday after my fall, and he did stay with me in the hospital….anddd after all that I had done, he still wanted to remain my partner on the show.  I had a plan, from now on, I will try my absolute HARDEST to make it up to him- I will go out of my way to surprise him and win back his trust.   But at the same time, I must apologise to Key.