Please dont let me be mi (1/1)
I put my face in my hands; I’d suddenly gone from being in pure pleasure, to sickening guilt.Jonghyun leant his forehead against my back, and smoothed his hands along the curves of my hips. I pulled myself out of him and quickly covered myself up with the duvet.I was so close to tears, I was meant to be Onew’s wife on wgm, we’d only filmed one episode, how was I going to lie to him for a whole fricking series?“Oh my god Jonghyun, this was not a good idea.”Understatement of the century…“Why?” He asked, looking confused/angry. He moved closer to me, trying to pull the duvet away from me. “What’s wrong with a man touching a woman when they both want it?”He hastily slid off the condom and threw it in the bin, then got under the duvet with me. He tried to make me relax so I would let him touch me again and in all seriousness, I wanted him to, I just knew it wasn’t right.He lay on top of me and began kissing me all over again. He was still as hard as a brick wall. I must be good. I placed my hand on this torso and pushed him away. “Get dressed Jonghyun; you’ve got to get out of here before the girls come home…” I whispered, but I wanted him again just as much as he wanted me right now.“Why… should…I…” He said in between kisses, he sucked my neck and I tried to throw him off before it was too late,“Don’t you dare bite me! I don’t want a hickey!!!” I moaned.“I’ve gotta mark my territory somewhere…”He laughed, not backing off.“I don’t belong to you Jonghyun. Just cause you’ve had your way with me, doesn’t mean I’m yours.” I was fuming, I sat up which made him automatically lift himself up onto his arms. Now we were in a more uncompromising position…“Yeah, but I want you to belong to me,”Now he was pushing it.I shook my head and tried to move out of bed, but he was having none of it.“Maybe you should just hear me out. Stop trying to make out this means nothing.” He tried reasoning with me. Jonghyun sat up and covered his manhood with some of the duvet (thank fuck cause it was starting to distract me!)“Onew likes you, he’s the good guy right? And what about Key? Yeah poor little Key, not getting any of the action. Bet Onew gave you a right sob story about how he loves you and couldn’t let Key play your husband on the show….and what about me?! What the FUCK about me?” Jonghyun demanded. I didn’t understand what he meant…had Onew lied to me?“I was the one who found the list of girls Key had to write for the producers. I was the one who showed Onew. I was the one who secretly flipped out over it. And I honestly had no idea how Key felt about you up until that point, and it was exactly the same with Onew. You think I’ve just turned up here for a fuck?!” He shouted. I wasn’t scared. I had to listen to what he said.“I…I decided not to interfere, Key was the one who had been picked for the show, it was up to him who to choose. But Onew kept getting wound up about it, he couldn’t help but ‘be the leader’ and mess things up. Then surprise surprise, he got to be your husband. While the whole time I had to keep my fricking mouth shut. It was just a coincidence we all liked you Gina.”Jonghyun looked like he really needed to say that.“If it had all happened a bit differently, I wouldn’t seem like the bad guy right now…”Oh my, he was right.Why should I feel guilty when I hadn’t heard the truth before now?Jonghyun picked up my hand.“Please, you have to believe me…I want you to understand that yeah, as SHINee we’re all happy, we still get on like best friends…but I still can’t help the way I feel about you. I’m not gonna be the one to step back and let Onew have all the glory.”I really sensed that Jonghyun didn’t know I’d slept with Onew, nor gotten very close to him- urgh why does it have to be complicated like this?“Jonghyun, you need to know about something…Hye really fancies you. I mean she’s practically in love with you….When she saw us dancing together tonight, everyone got really shitty with me about it.”I wasn’t sure how he’d react. He just knelt there, looking at the covers.“Uh, I’m sorry, I should’ve told you before…before any of this happened.”He shook his head and smoothed down his hair.“It wouldn’t have changed anything. I still would’ve made love to you.”Ohhhh he used the ‘L’ word in place of sex…For a split second I considered letting him begin round two, but I still felt pretty awful.“Jonghyun, go home. If anyone catches us, we can say goodbye to our friendships, our careers and everything we worked so hard for.” He nodded, he knew I was right.We picked up our clothes; I got into my pyjamas while he got dressed. And I hurried him round to the back door in case anyone saw us.I opened the door; he turned to me one last time,“Don’t push me out Gina; I don’t want this to be a one off. I’m serious about us.” He leant into my ear and whispered “I want you,” kissed my neck and left. I shut the door and leant against it. Had I made a mistake? Was Onew just being a dickhead and trying to claim me over Key and Jonghyun? I stood there for another 5 minutes and saw the headlights of a car shine briefly through the window. I quickly sprang over to the security system and un-ticked the lock sign. The girls were home. And I was up at 6am filming for the second episode of We Got Married.
I think I'm more confused than Gina! Haha ; )Whose side are you on? I know who I believe (but that's because I write the story!)Let's see what happens when Gina is confronted by Onew, who wants an explanation as to where she was the night before,...and he still wants his present! XD