Talk to me (1/1)

“Taekwoon, why aren’t you listening to me?” Hakyeon asked at the table sitting across from Taekwoon. He has been trying to grab Taekwoon’s attention by talking about a dish he researched on his phone that he would like to make. But Taekwoon didn’t look at him, not even a glance and stood up from the table. He headed to the bedroom expected to lock himself up again. Although this time, Hakyeon reached the doorway before him, blocking his way he asked politely “can you please tell me why?” But Taekwoon pushed beside him and quickly turned to close the door. It was a stupid idea but Hakyeon needed to think quickly and placed his barefoot in between the door frame and the door resulting Taekwoon to crush it.“Ow Taekwoon you hurt my foot!” He whined and bent down to examine the red marks. Taekwoon sighed rolling his eyes, knowing what game Hakyeon was trying to play and shut the door. Hakyeon pouted, his plan didn’t work even if it was a really stupid idea. But even so, Taekwoon could’ve shown that he was slightly worried. Hakyeon just risked his foot, what if he injured it badly? What if he had to miss out on lessons for it to heal? If it were that bad, it could’ve affected the group, but Taekwoon gave no signs of being worried. What if he was in pain? Everyone knows how he feels about animals and children and if any of those were injured, he would be insanely worried about them. Must be different for adults.Hakyeon also knew how Taekwoon enjoys cooking so Hakyeon researched for a recipe on his phone and found a dish that he desperately wants to try. He just wanted Taekwoon’s attention. Hakyeon noticed how much Taekwoon has been avoiding him, and not only him, but Jaehwan as well. Hakyeon would honestly confess that he was felt jealous every time he saw Taekwoon talking with the others, laughing, smiling and engaging in their conversation. He disliked how Taekwoon was avoiding him, barely making any sound around him, calmly walking away from him and frowned in his presence. Hakyeon wanted Taekwoon to smile around him or even laugh at him but he gets nothing.The only time he has been the closest to having Taekwoon smile was probably when they had kissed. After the kisses they shared Taekwoon would be embarrassed and his lips would form a thin line, even if it wasn’t a smile, it was better than a frown. Hakyeon had enough and stood up, he ignored the pain throbbing in his foot and knocked the door. No response.“Taekwoon?” he asked, “can you open the door?” there was no response so he knocked the door again louder this time.Again nothing,Hakyeon tried to ignore that slump in his chest and knocked for the third time. He waited for a while but a response still didn’t come.  Hakyeon sighed and leaned his forehead on the door, he asked again feeling the slump in his chest grow heavy “can you let me in please?” he begged.Rustling of the bed sheets were heard and suddenly the door clicked, Taekwoon unlocked it.Hakyeon entered through, closing the door behind him quietly. He saw Taekwoon on his bed reading a novel like he has been doing the past week, no curious eye glanced at him. He ignored Hakyeon completely. Hakyeon walked slowly to the bunk, while rubbing his arm he quickly sat on Taekwoon’s bed. Taekwoon reacted and began to move out. The slump in Hakyeon’s chest sunk and he reacted quickly by pinning he down by his shoulders “Taekwoon!” He shouted.Taekwoon was shocked, completely wide eye by the sudden attack. His eyes were focused on Hakyeon, after a long time has he seen his leaders face and his expression wasn’t a pleasing one. But his breath was still taken away. After blinking a few times, Taekwoon looked away, somewhere behind Hakyeon on Sanghyuk’s bed began to interest him so he looked over there completely to avoid Hakyeon’s gaze.Hakyeon’s heart you could say kind of dropped when he noticed Taekwoon avoid his gaze, but he fought on “Taekwoon can you please look at me? I don’t understand. Why are you avoiding me?” He asked, Taekwoon’s eyes grew wide at the question and he started to struggle out under Hakyeon. Hakyeon applied more pressure on Taekwoon’s shoulder’s, holding him down, He knows that he shouldn’t become aggressive but something was telling him that he couldn’t give up so he ordered again “Taekwoon, look at me” but Taekwoon didn’t flinch, he still looked at Sanghyuk’s bed ignoring the order “Taekwoon please” Hakyeon begged.Taekwoon knew he shouldn’t ignore his leader’s orders but he agreed not look at him.Because if he looked at Hakyeon, he saw him. And he didn’t want to see him.Seeing Hakyeon touching Jaehwan like that, he disliked it and from that day on he began to ignore them. Hearing yells and orders during that morning, the one thing that woke him up continually repeated in his head “Take off your shirt quickly now!” each time it repeated, the more needy Hakyeon sounded.Taekwoon frowned. His mind must be tricking him. Since when did he think of his leader like that? Sure Hakyeon ordered Jaehwan to take off his shirt and then clutched it to the bare chest looking up adoringly and affectionately at him, like Taekwoon shouldn’t really care right?He’s afraid that if Hakyeon does look at him, he wouldn’t do the same. He shouldn’t really care anyway, his leader is always so touchy with the other members and they play along so well, Taekwoon is given the same treatment, but he gives the wrong response. And he also feels if he does look at Hakyeon in the eyes, he wouldn’t stop.He needed Hakyeon’s kiss. It’s a selfish thought but felt he needed it. It may be what Hakyeon said, it makes you feel better, might as well be a medicine but not really good one. Taekwoon blushed at the thought. Hakyeon kissing him as he has done like the previous ones, taking and controlling him. Hakyeon has only kissed him right? It’s weird for two males to be kissing but needs one. And who was he to turn to? It’s a really selfish idea to have in his mind but Hakyeon started it.“Taekwoon look at me” Hakyeon snapped his thoughts, Taekwoon’s breath got caught. Shit what was I thinking? Taekwoon thought, I can’t be thinking that! No way in hell did I just think that I would need him to kiss me. Hakyeon can kiss whoever he wants! He is just lonely, lonely and needy and this is just covering it all up! The idea must’ve come from his phone, that stupid phone!Without Taekwoon noticing Hakyeon took his hands off of his shoulders. One placed on the bed supporting him while the other was in the air. While Taekwoon was arguing with himself, deep into thoughts he didn’t notice any of these movements. He was completely distracted but he was once again cut out of his thoughts when he felt a hand chop at his neck. He looked at Hakyeon and glared as an immediate response then he swallowed disappointedly. Hakyeon didn’t kiss him… why would he anyway? Wasn’t it only used to make someone happy? When did he think that it would be used as punishment?Hakyeon leaned in close leading Taekwoon to move his head to the side. Hakyeon’s nose was hovering over Taekwoon’s cheek making him exhale shakily with his heart beating through his ears, he felt the other exhale “Taekwoon don’t ignore me, please~” he whined threatening to come closer. Taekwoon felt his arms move on his own.His heart was tight and his mind was fogged, but it didn’t stop him from snaking his arms around Hakyeon’s neck.Hakyeon only took it as a comforting gesture and laid himself comfortably on Taekwoon, hugging him tightly worried that Taekwoon would go back to ignoring him. He could feel Taekwoon’s heart beating rapidly in his chest beating against his own. He was concerned but yet he felt calm feeling it beat against his chest and hugged Taekwoon tighter.Taekwoon tried to calm his breath. He felt his breath coming out hotter through each pant and was becoming more erratic. Hakyeon had buried his head in Taekwoon’s neck and Taekwoon turned to face the ear of his leader. Once again his body making movements without him knowing he shifted under Hakyeon and got his leaders head in his hands to have him to look at him. Hakyeon wasn’t sad but looked like he didn’t want to leave just yet, afraid if Taekwoon would change.“Why are you ignoring me?” Hakyeon asked again, taking the risk.“I’m bored, I want to play a game” Taekwoon responded half true, He wasn’t bored but he did want Hakyeon’s mind to change, and it appeared it worked “Oh? What game do you want to play?” Hakyeon asked. His tongue worked faster than his brain, he quickly responded “the drawing one” which he knew he always lost in.Their legs were tangled with each other’s and Hakyeon still wasn’t prepared to let Taekwoon go. He felt that Taekwoon was really trying to avoid the subject but he didn’t really appear to be hiding anything either, and also, this was the first time he talked to him directly after so long. The soft, adorable, melodic voice spoke to him. He couldn’t help but ask “can you talk to me?” Hakyeon asked looking at his lips. Taekwoon frowned thinking his plan didn’t work but Hakyeon continued “I want to hear your voice”Taekwoon was confused, eyebrows furrowed “Why?” he asked, Hakyeon chuckled “just talk a bit please” he said brushing Taekwoon’s hair away. Taekwoon blushed. For one thing, he doesn’t speak much so what was there to talk about? Another was Hakyeon wanting to listen to him but why?“What do I talk about?” He asked his voice sounding shy as he tried to sink into the bed and disappear. Hakyeon shrugged “whatever you want” he thought for a while before speaking again “tell me what you did today”Taekwoon felt a bit calm about the topic and nodded “W-well I, woke up, and had some breakfast” he started off basic and cursed to himself about how lame it was, he avoided eye contact from then on and continued talking “I went to practice, our vocal teacher told me I was improving” Hakyeon hummed in appreciation sinking in every sound Taekwoon made while combing his hair “dance practice was fine, I guess, and then we all went home, w-well here” he said.“And now—” Taekwoon stopped after slowly realising their position. Hakyeon remained to lay on his body, moving at times to get more comfy, he felt his legs were tangled with Hakyeon’s and he has noticed the stare his leader was giving him. Taekwoon blushed again and tried to speak but kept stuttering “more” Hakyeon pressed on, his hips rolling up as he felt himself slipping away and rubbed on Taekwoon’s body accidently. Taekwoon gasped and quickly covered his mouth but luckily, he guessed, it went unnoticed by Hakyeon and he positioned himself comfortably on Taekwoon again. Taekwoon didn’t want to talk further but he did “and now I’m here” he said avoiding eye contact knowing his cheeks must be highly visible to Hakyeon.Hakyeon knew it was the end of the story telling but wanted to hear more of him “another one please” he ordered “I- I don’t know what else to say”“Tell me what you feel right now, or when your teacher said you improved” Hakyeon offered hints of parts to say. Taekwoon thought back to teacher “I felt happy” and Hakyeon hummed again “that’s good” he said and placed his forehead on Taekwoon. Hakyeon’s forehead was nice and cool unlike Taekwoon’s hot and burning one, he shut his eyes afraid to look in case he might go dizzy.His lips were so close, so close, Taekwoon could kiss him now if he wanted but he dismissed the idea. No Taekwoon get a hold of yourself! He battled in his head.Hakyeon moved away and instead peck his cheek “I guess you have been training hard” and got off of Taekwoon. He blinked, was that all? He thought. No kiss? He questioned. He had a hard time trying to remind himself that Hakyeon was just an affectionate leader, that he had no interest in what has been happening and that Taekwoon was his bandmate.Taekwoon did not want it to end like that so when he looked to his side to target and tackle Hakyeon he noticed that he had already left. He sat up and looked around to make sure Hakyeon was not in the room before he jumped up “Yah Hakyeon what about that game?” and ran off.   A/NHey guys sorry for this late and really crappy chapter, it has literally been going all over the place and it doesn’t make sense. I’ve written, then erased then re-written then deleted (purposely) and then my brain shut down. I think of something but it’s not right, it doesn’t suit it, or it shouldn’t happen so quickly but yet it might work but it wouldn’t make sense, then the next thing I knew two weeks have almost past! Ahhhhh I had a good one but it got swept away in my head like ahhhhh seriously!? DXI have been thinking of you guys and I’m so sorry I had missed a week, I’m so glad you stayed and didn’t unsubscribe thank you for your patience I will work harder for you all!Thank you!!!