[M] Midnight Love (1/1)

Momo stares at her phone, rereading the same message that Dahyun had sent her over an hour ago. "Meet me at midnight?"This is the third time this week that Dahyun asked her to sneak out and see her. Momo is getting kind of tired of it. If they were actually going out it would be a different story, but Momo knows that it will be the same as always. The two of them sitting in an empty parking lot, making awkward small talk until one of them blurts out how desperately they want to be together. As if this were the 1950s and they couldn't hold hands in public. Nevertheless, she is still going. If not to tell Dahyun how she really feels about the situation, at least to see her face again.By the time she gets there, her mind is reeling. Dahyun is perched on the hood of her car, waiting for her to show up. It was kind of romantic the first and second time they snuck out, but now it feels like their lighthearted romance has turned into a serious drama. When Dahyun spots Momo's car, she quickly fixes her hair and sits up straighter. It makes Momo smile a little, but it isn't enough to take away the feeling that is nestled inside of her gut."I didn't know if you were coming." Dahyun sighs with relief, holding a hand out for Momo to take."I always do," Momo says. She takes the offered hand, but she just can't bring herself to look up at the girl."What's wrong?" Dahyun asks. One part of her wants to pull Momo closer, but the other part makes her drop Momo's hand instead. Why? Because that feels easier for Dahyun."I'm just getting a little tired of hiding like this," Momo admits, finally raising her gaze. She wishes that she hadn't when their eyes meet. Dahyun's eyes are so big and dark, taken aback by the confrontational words."I don't know what else to do." Dahyun wraps her arms around herself. She suddenly looks cold, but it isn't even that cold outside."We could try to go out for real," Momo says,  grabbing Dahyun by the shoulders, but not in an aggressive way. In fact, she is extra gentle with it.So gentle that the feeling of her fingertips make Dahyun's insides warm. But her arms are still around herself and she still looks cold. "I don't know," she takes a step back, "I can't."Momo is left stunned by the action. She has been more than patient with Dahyun, but this feels like a hard slap in the face. "Do you know how it feels to be hidden away by somebody you love? To be their dirty little secret?" she asks, tears pooling in her eyes.Dahyun is quick to close her own eyes to avoid the image of Momo crying being burned into her brain. "That isn't fair," she shakes her head."This isn't fair!" Momo sobs. She has never raised her voice at Dahyun before, but she gets dangerously close in this moment. "You tell me that you love me like I love you, but you can barely even touch me. You don't even look at me half of the time!"Dahyun slightly flinches, then slowly opens her eyes to make a point. She is crying too now, her eyes rimmed with red and tears sparkling on her cheeks. When she makes eye contact with Momo, it feels like a cosmic shift has just taken place. Dahyun has never doubted her feelings for the girl standing in front her, but she is so afraid of what everyone would think if she said the words out loud. She can't bare losing Momo."All of this is new to me, okay?" Her voice is shaky, also on the verge of shouting. "It took me six years to finally admit to myself that I like girls. How could I possibly just flaunt the fact down the street? I can't do that, I'm an idol.""I'm an idol too. I'm not saying that we should make out in public, I just want to do what other couples do! Walk hand in hand, eat ice cream together, maybe even wear matching clothes." Momo is still crying, her eyes already swollen and cheeks tinted pink. "I don't want to spend time with you only at odd hours in the dark.""I want those things as much as you do," Dahyun takes a step forward. "I just don't know how to do that, Momo. I'm not like you, I've never fallen in love before."Momo's eyebrows slightly raise in surprise. It's true that she has been in love before. With a man. But that was before finding out that Dahyun is interested in her. Momo had stuck by the girl's side for so long, waiting for a chance, but she realized that it will never happen. It's only now that Momo knows the reason why Dahyun always avoided her. It was because she was battling her sexuality. Possibly even battling her love for Momo, just like she is right now."It doesn't have to be so hard, Dahyuni." Momo sighs, taking a step forward as well. They are within arms distance from one another. "You just have to let me in like I'm trying to let you in."Dahyun, watches the girl for a moment, her eyes still wide and watery. She thinks back to all the times that Momo tried to lean against her shoulder or play with her hair. She had always felt strange about it and turned away, like someone was watching them and judging the action."I want you to hold me," Dahyun blurts out. When Momo gives her a puzzled look, she sighs with frustration. "Now, right now. Please hold me.""Okay." Momo is still confused, but she does as Dahyun asks. Gently, she wraps her arms around the girl's shoulders. She pulls her close, resting her head against Dahyun's bare shoulder.Meanwhile, Dahyun is as stiff as a board. After a few seconds, she manages to wrap her arms around Momo's waist, pulling her into her own body with one swift, desperate motion. The feeling of Momo's head on her shoulder makes her stomach rise in temperature again. She lowers her own head onto Momo's shoulder. "I love you," she mumbles towards Momo's ear."I love you too." Momo lets out a silent breath. It isn't the first time they've said that, but it feels more real now. "All I want to do is love you."Dahyun lifts her head from Momo's shoulder. She pulls back until Momo follows suit and they both search each other's eyes for the next move. They both know what they want to do at once, but a million other thoughts shout over one another and distract Dahyun from saying it. Momo knows that the girl won't be able to say it."Don't move," Momo instructs.It takes Dahyun by surprise since Momo was never the demanding type, but she does as she was told and stands incredibly still. Gently, Momo holds Dahyun's face in her hands and brings their lips together. Everything in the world stops moving. Momo can only hear Dahyun's heartbeat. It sounds like a love song that is always played on the radio. Dahyun can only taste Momo's lips. She tastes like strawberries and sugar.The kiss itself is tame and sweet. Dahyun's heart has started to sound louder than the bad thoughts in her head. She is so tired of fighting herself. It feels good to be able to finally let go, giving herself fully to Momo as they kiss. When they break apart, she is still hazy."The world won't come to an end if you kiss me, sweetness," Momo whispers. She rests her forehead against Dahyun's."Thank you." Dahyun's voice cracks as she speaks. She opens her mouth to go on, but Momo silences her with another gentle kiss.Sometimes it's just easier to shut the demons up than it is to fight them hands on.A week after their first kiss, it has been playing on repeat on Dahyun's mind. She had never kissed another girl before. She has also never kisses a boy, but it seemed nothing like a boy's kiss. How they show it in movies is harsh and intense. They always use too much tongue. Kissing Momo was nothing like that, though. They've been kissing more and it's always soft and sweet, using just enough tongue.At first, Dahyun didn't know what to do with her hands. She would keep them stiff at her sides like she was afraid of the kiss. In a lot of ways, she was. But the more they kissed, the more Dahyun was able to loosen up. She found herself cradling Momo's body, running her fingers through her hair, holding her face in her hands. Now that she's more into it, she can't get enough."It's almost three in the morning," Momo notices, leaning away from Dahyun.They were sitting on the bed, papers spread out to simulate a study session. They had to memorize a script for an upcoming show, but in reality, they ended up making out for hours."Already?" Dahyun whines. She doesn't want the night to end. Going to bed alone after meeting up with Momo was her least favorite part about this whole thing. It has gotten better since they stopped meeting in random parking lots, but she still hates to be alone."We lost track of time again," Momo giggles. She slowly begins to gather the untouched papers, stacking them onto the nearby desk. "I wish you didn't have to go.""Yeah," Dahyun frowns, her gaze turning to her lap. "Me too."A comfortable silence settles over them for a moment as they think about things. They think about each other. It isn't long before Dahyun scoots closer to Momo, closing the gap between them and bringing their lips together. It's a desperate, needy kiss from both sides. It was actually supposed to be a "see you later" kiss.Their hands cling to one another, their bodies suddenly press together once more. Moon has yet to tell Dahyun, but the feeling of their breasts against one another is enough to create a tingle between her legs. Without thinking of anything but that feeling, Momo lies back against her fluffy comforter, her hands tugging at the loose fabric of Dahyun's pajamas, encouraging her to kiss her from this new angle.Dahyun follows suit with little hesitance, climbing on top of Momo in order to keep their lips together. She hums as they kiss, her hands cradling Momo's blushing cheeks. Momo's hands went from Dahyun's hips to her waist, squeezing lightly. Dahyun hums again, this time moving her leg up so that her knee parts Momo's thighs."Dahyuni," Momo gasps, that tingly feeling growing more intense from that kind of contact."Sorry," Dahyun apologizes, eye widening at what she has done. She looks down, taking an extremely detailed mental note of the image of her thigh between Momo's. Her eyes are slow to trail back up, but once they do, Momo is pulling her into another hungry kiss.Lucky for Momo, Dahyun doesn't move her leg away. She can't help but rock her hips against it, her hands shaking in Dahyun's soft hair. When neither of them pull away and object to the action, she keeps going. Her back arches off the mattress, soft whimpers leaving her mouth as they kiss more deeply.Dahyun can't believe what is happening. The idea that she has gotten Momo so hot and aroused weighs heavy on her shoulders. Since she is a girl too, she is intimately familiar with what that entails. She slowly pushes the evil voice out of her head, popping open the first few buttons of Momo's pajama top until her breasts are exposed. Dahyun is aware that Momo sleeps without a bra.They both moan in sync as Dahyun's hands cup Momo's warm, soft breasts. She gives a light squeeze before running her thumbs along the already hardened nipples. Dahyun has only ever felt her own breasts before. She has seen other girls naked, but always repressed that urge to think about touching them like this. She can't hold herself back with Moon though. Momo is too pretty, especially laid up underneath her like this. She can't resist. With a shaky breath, Dahyun kisses down Momo's neck.Her lips make goosebumps rise on Momo's skin and she lets out a surprised gasp. "Dahyuni," she moans, arching her back off of the mattress again.Dahyun doesn't speak. Instead, she gently nips at Momo's exposed breasts. Momo is sure that marks will be left behind, but she wants nothing more than a reminder of this moment, of the sweet treatment she is getting from Dahyun."I like that," Momo praises, whining when Dahyun's tongue runs over her nipple."Can I go lower?" Dahyun asked, looking up at Momo with hopeful eyes. Her heart is hammering in her chest, those terrible voices with terrible bodies breathing down her neck, but she doesn't care."Dahyuni..." Momo trails off, biting her lip. It takes so much self control to slow herself down. She wants Dahyun to go lower so badly, but she wants to take everything slowly. "Are you sure?""Yes," Dahyun quickly replies, moving her thigh against Momo to remind her that it's still there. She whimpers, tossing her head back in pleasure at the sight of Momo grinding herself against her."Then, please," Momo hums. "Do anything you want."That's all it takes. Dahyun patiently helps Momo out of her ruffled top and shorts, suddenly exposing her entire body. Aside from a pair of lacy black underwear, she is completely naked under Dahyun's eyes. Dahyun kisses her, hands exploring her soft skin, groaning at the feeling of her body."Not fair," Momo complains, tugging at Dahyun's top. "I want to see you too.""Yes, my love," Dahyun smiles, sitting up for a moment.She takes off her own pajamas, tossing it to the side without a care in the world. She is wearing a baby blue bra with matching underwear. Momo smiles at the memory of helping her pick the set a few weeks ago. Dahyun unclasps her bra, making it meet its fate on the floor as well. She smirks as Momo's eyes trail over her bare chest, her hands reaching up to feel her just as Dahyun had done to her moments ago.For the first time, they are able to kiss with skin-to-skin contact. It feels so intimate, there is nothing else that can compare. Dahyun's pounding heartbeat, Momo's quiet pants. They can't get enough of each other.Momo drags her tongue from Dahyun's collar bone to her breast, where she returns the favor that Dahyun had given her. Dahyun gasps, watching as Momo's tongue dances around each of her nipples, teasing her before sucking and nipping on her breast in full. As Momo continues her work, Dahyun dips her hand between the minimal space of their bodies, grazing her curious fingertips over Momo's entrance through her underwear."Oh, Dahyun," Momo tosses her head back, moaning before the girl even really touches her.Dahyun loves hearing her name said like that. She slowly works her kisses down Momo's body, sliding her underwear down as she gets to the spot she really wants to be at. She takes a deep breath, spreading Momo's legs apart for her. She nearly moans at just the sight, so embarrassed by how attracted she is to Momo. All those years of hiding that she likes girls, all leading to this. She places open mouthed kisses along Momo's trembling thighs, slowly making her way to her sex. She takes a shaky breath, then allows for her tongue to glide over it."Oh my god," Momo gasps, her hands immediately going to Dahyun's hair.Dahyun moans in response, moving more intensely against Momo's heat. She isn't nervous anymore, she is lost in the taste and feeling of her."That feels really good, baby," Momo praises, arching her back off the mattress.Dahyun just let her instincts guide her. Based on the noises that Momo is making, it seems like she is doing a pretty good job, but there is that shroud of anxiety that stays hovering over her. Is she even good at this? What if she can't make Momo..."Wait, slow—slow down," Moon's voice interrupts Dahyun's self-deprecating thoughts. She doesn't even have time to finish her sentence before she reaches her climax, Dahyun's tongue lapping up everything that she has to release.The two girls let their eyes meet slowly, anxious about what the other thinks in the aftermath of something like this. When neither of them seem to be afraid, they curl up together and let their drowsiness take over. The only issue is that Dahyun is actually afraid. She lies awake beside the sleeping girl, who is obviously more than pleased with what they just did. Dahyun is listening to those terrible voices again, the ones telling her that she just did something disgustingly unnatural. She almost feels like she will be sick.After a couple of hours of her stomach turning and not being able to sleep, Dahyun decides that Momo being there is making the anxious feeling worse. She carefully gets dressed and quietly tip-toes out of the house. She is cautious enough not to wake Momo or her dogs. Tears are already streaming down her cheeks when she gets to her car. This feeling isn't because of what she did. It's because she liked it so much.After kissing Momo for the first time, she felt like a weight was lifted off her shoulders. It took her a while to adjust to the idea of kissing her more frequently, but she eventually managed to do that with little issues. The voice in her head didn't seem to care about the kisses anymore. This felt different, though. This made her feel dirty, like she did something terribly wrong and ruined something beautiful she and Momo had going on.When she gets back home, she opens up her liquor cabinet. A few bottles are missing, but the strongest ones aren't. She opens one up, hoping that it will help her forget.