Scar (1/1)

Momo is tossing and turning, every time she shuts her eyes, she visions Dahyun's back, from shoulders all the way down, reddened. I did that to her. She tries to get the image out of her mind, but it is no use. She eventually gives up and instead, thinks about how she can make it up to the younger one.They had an unfortunate argument just hours before, which has left Momo with tremendous guilt and Dahyun with a painful wound. They were in Dahyun's room together, just getting ready for bed when Dahyun asked Momo about something she had been curious about. There was nothing to argue about and Momo calmly wanted to clear things up, but since she's not good at explaining her feelings, everything suddenly went wrong. Due to Momo's poor choice of words, Dahyun took the story out of context and understood something that hurt her, causing the scene to become frantic. Without letting Momo continue, Dahyun started to change out of her pajamas into her street clothes to get some air outside as an attempt to release her anger.But before she could get a shirt over her head, she suddenly felt a sharp pain from the top left of her shoulders down to her waist. It felt like a burn, like a flaming sword stabbing and poking down her back. The only difference is that it was not a sword, instead, Momo's nails that were filled with sudden anger. Unable to explain herself, unable to contain herself, Momo let her anger control her in the heat of the moment, which shocked herself too. Dahyun was stunned, she was filled with pain and disappointment, in disbelief. She acted calm, but her anger was clear as she sent Momo out of the room, Momo's eyes brimming with tears. The older one slept on the couch for the first time, or rather, cried herself to sleep.Now, Momo finds herself creeping to Dahyun's room, the dark hallways silent except for the sound of her heart beat thumping in her chest. When she finally gets to Dahyun's room, she cautiously opens the door to find Dahyun sleeping peacefully. Momo stands by the door for a while, watching the girl sleep, her palms all sweaty. She spots Dahyun's eyes flutter a bit before they eventually open."Oh," Dahyun sits up immediately, rubbing her eyes, "what are you doing up so late?"Momo stands silently, picking at her arm. "I wanted to say that I'm sorry." Before she can realize, thick tears start to flow from her eyes. "I should have controlled myself."Dahyun sits up a little more as she silently watches the girl sob. She can feel the stinging of the wound while sitting up, but she is able to endure it for now. She then gets out of bed to pull Momo into an embrace. She feels Momo shake as the girl sobs into her shoulder, leaving tear marks. Dahyun leads them to the bed and pats a side on the bed, letting Momo hop up and scurry under the blankets."I know that you're gonna say that it's not my fault, but I hurt you! I could have—" she swallows the lump in her throat, "I could've hurt you even worse!" Momo can barely talk due to her choked sobs.Dahyun is silent and just pats the girl on the back. She doesn't know exactly how to react because she knows that Momo has been struggling at dealing with her feelings for a long time, but at the same time, she knows that such severe events shouldn't be happening."That's why I want to make things up to you," Momo mumbles as she wipes her tears."You don't have to make anything up to me," Dahyun says, her voice calm, but her hands shaking. She smiles at Momo, her eyes filled with a hint of sadness, but her smile still bright as always.Momo pauses for a bit. "Can I see it?"Dahyun straightens her back a bit from the sudden question. "Are you sure? I mean, you can see it, but I don't think it looks very good."Although, Dahyun knows Momo means what she said by the way the older one is looking at her, so Dahyun removes her shirt, revealing herself only in a bra. Then, she turns around to reveal an almost dried up wound on her back. "Does it look bad?" she asks.Momo looks at Dahyun and is shocked at what she has done. It is a long wound that follows vertically along the younger one's entire back. It looks like Dahyun tried to apply some disinfectant onto it, but missed most spots. That makes Momo feel even more terrible. "Not at all," she says, realizing that she has been staring for too long.It is silent for a moment before Dahyun turns back around, reaching for her shirt. But before she can get it over her head, Momo pulls her into a hug, her arms wrapping all around Dahyun, careful not to touch the wound.Momo can't help but start crying again. "I'm sorry." It's silent except for Momo's sobs and her repeated apologies to Dahyun.. "I'm such a horrible person, I shouldn't have let my anger out on you."Dahyun feels Momo shaking against her again. They both just sit there together, waiting for Momo to calm down."Dahyuni... can I touch it?"Dahyun is taken aback again. She feels awful about how guilty Momo seems to be, but it confuses her why the girl wants to touch her wound. "Alright, but then you should go back to bed," she says as she turns around and lets the girl explore her unfortunate creation.Momo runs her fingers up and down the redness. It might just be an excuse because she has already missed the feeling of Dahyun's soft skin on her fingertips and being close to her. But it could also be because... no, that's the only reason. "Do you feel anything?" she asks."Not really. I guess it's still numb, since it's fresh." Dahyun turns around to face her. "We should go to bed now. You can sleep with me.""Really? Can I?"Dahyun lets out a little, sad chuckle. "Of course you can. What happened didn't change anything between us, you know that, right?" She pulls Momo towards her, letting the girl get comfy in her lap.And Momo does, cuddling against Dahyun as much as she possibly can, taking in the younger one's smell that will never fail at making Momo absolutely melt. "I really don't deserve you," she says with a weak voice."Yeah, you're right. I'm too much of an overthinker.""That's not what I—"Dahyun doesn't let her speak further. "While I was trying to sleep, I was thinking about what you said and I realized that I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions. I'm sorry for blaming you, I know you have trouble explaining yourself."Momo shakes her head, reaching for Dahyun's cheek to caress. "You have nothing to be sorry for, Dahyuni. I literally hurt you and I will do anything to make you feel better." Momo leaves a soft kiss under Dahyun's. But right after, she gives a sudden glance at the girl. "Wait, you shouldn't be leaning against the bed like that. How about I treat the wound and then put you to sleep?""That sounds good, thank you."They've been together for almost four years now and they moved in just a little over two years ago. Dahyun definitely wasn't the easiest person to get to know. In the beginning, Momo sometimes felt like Dahyun didn't even like her nor did she want to get to know her at all. But that was far from the truth. It started with them remembering the little details about each other; the way they have their coffee, their favorite foods, their routines, they picked up on how the other person acts when they're nervous, calmed each other down every single time, and so much more. The only problem was that neither of them were and still aren't big in talking about their feelings.It's 8 p.m. on Friday, a week after the accident, when the front door opens. Dahyun steps inside and Momo is quick to get up from the couch and approach her to welcome her. Dahyun hangs up her coat, takes off her shoes, and walks inside."Hey, Dahyuni. "Momo gives Dahyun a quick kiss on the lips. "I missed you. How was practice?""It could've been better. I screwed up a lot, so I finished two hours late," Dahyun answers, slightly annoyed, but trying to hide it."I'm sorry to hear that. I made dinner, are you hungry?"Dahyun nods and they walk to the kitchen. It's the first time Momo actually takes the time to really look at Dahyun since she came home, and Momo immediately notices that Dahyun is carrying herself differently. She is walking slower than usual and her steps are more calculated. But Momo doesn't want to make Dahyun uncomfortable, so she quietly walks behind her to the kitchen."You can sit down, I will get our plates," Momo says, trying not to make it too obvious.Dahyun's back still makes her uncomfortable and sometimes makes her feel ugly in her own skin, especially because it's healing at a quite slow pace. Her wound also starts hurting when she gets sweaty during practice, which has unfortunately happened today. They've told the girls about it, but it's difficult for Dahyun to make up a lie for the stylists when they want to dress her up in an outfit that shows off her back.Dahyun does as Momo says and sits down. "What did you make?" she asks, her voice as neutral as possible."Just some rice and vegetable curry, I hope that's okay. We had so many vegetables left in the fridge, so I thought it would be good to use them before they go bad, and I—""It's fine, honey," Dahyun says, interrupting Momo's little ramble.Momo quickly goes back to preparing their plates. She puts a plate and fork in front of Dahyun, whereupon Dahyun thanks her. Then, Momo sits down on the opposite side of the table, looking at Dahyun with a smile. However, Dahyun doesn't even look up, she is just carefully moving the food back and forth on her plate, taking very small bites in between. Momo looks down at her own plate, not really knowing what to do. She doesn't want to ask Dahyun if she's alright, just in case Dahyun doesn't want to talk about it right now, but then again, Momo is really worried about her.After about ten minutes, Momo just can't take the quietness anymore. "Hey, sweetness, are you okay?""Yeah, I'm alright," Dahyun answers."I know you're not alright, Dahyun.""Can't I just eat my food in peace?" Dahyun glares at her and suddenly snaps."Well, clearly you're not eating," Momo snaps back."I'm not in the mood to do this with you right now, Momo."Momo takes a deep breath before getting up and crouching down in front of Dahyun. "Don't do this, Dahyun. I know you're upset."Dahyun looks at her and frowns. "I'm perfectly fine," she utters and avoids Momo's gaze again.Momo shakes her head and puts her hand on Dahyun's thigh. "Dahyuni."Dahyun's eyes finally flick to Momo's face and after a while, Momo holds her hand tightly."What can I do for you?" Momo asks.Dahyun's lips start to tremble. "I don't know," she answers helplessly."Hey, it's okay," Momo squeezes her hand, "Do you want to keep on eating? You haven't really had much yet."Dahyun shakes her head. "I kinda feel nauseous. I'm sorry, honey.""There's nothing you have to be sorry for, sweetness. I'll put it in the kitchen so whenever you want to eat a bit more, you can. Or do you want me to make you something else?""No, I can't. I'm sorry" Dahyun looks at her, her eyebrows furrowed."It's alright, don't apologize." Momo gives her a smile. "Do you want to move to the couch? Or maybe to the bedroom?.Dahyun shakes her head at first and after a few seconds, she says, "I'm not sure.""Let's go together then, okay?"Momo gets up and takes Dahyun's hands in her own, slowly helping her stand up. Dahyun's legs are slightly shaking, the long workday and the pain of her wound adding up to the soreness of her legs."Okay, put all your weight on me. Should I hold you by the waist?" Momo asks.Dahyun nods, whereupon Momo makes Dahyun put her arm around Momo's shoulders. Then, Momo gently holds her by the waist, carrying all her weight until they make it to the couch. Momo helps Dahyun sit down first."I'll go and get your pajamas. Just wait here, alright?" As Momo turns to go, she gets stopped by Dahyun's hand grabbing hers. It must be the girl's way of saying thank you without actually saying anything. Momo knows that, she always has. "I love you," she says with a smile before hurrying to get the pajamas.When Momo returns, Dahyun is sitting in the exact same position that Momo left her, the only difference being that her eyes are now shut. Momo doesn't want to startle her, so she speaks softly. "I'm back, Dahyuni."Dahyun opens her eyes and looks at Momo. As Momo found out a few days ago that Dahyun doesn't want anyone, even Momo, to see her wound, she hands Dahyun the clothes. Dahyun is very self-conscious and prefers not to be seen naked until her scar is completely gone."I'll leave so you can change." Momo turns around to walk into the kitchen."Wait," Dahyun calls out quietly, "could you please help me?""Of course I can, I just thought you wouldn't want me to."Momo gently starts taking off Dahyun's jeans, then her hoodie and the shirt underneath, all while trying to have her eyes straightly on her front and not her back. "Do you want me to take off your bra too?"Dahyun nods and Momo makes sure to be quick so Dahyun doesn't feel exposed for too long. She brought one of her own pajamas for Dahyun to feel more comfortable in, since they're a little bigger than Dahyun's.Lastly, she dresses Dahyun into the pajamas. "Okay, all done, sweetness. You did great. Do you want to lay down?"Dahyun closes her eyes again for a second and when she opens them, there are tears in them, but she still nods. Momo give her a peck on the lips and helps her lay down on the couch, propping a pillow under her head."When was the last time you put cream on the wound?" Momo asks."Not long ago," Dahyun answers.That breaks Momo's heart because that means that Dahyun most likely tried to apply the cream on her own, which is really difficult, considering how it's pretty much impossible to reach her own back.Momo carefully lifts Dahyun's head and sits down on the couch, replacing the pillow with her lap. Momo softly strokes her cheeks and then her hair. Dahyun enjoys it as she slowly blinks several times, then eventually shuts her eyes."Dahyuni?" Momo waits until Dahyun opens her eyes again. "I'm sorry for making you go through all this. I regret it every single day.""It was an accident, Momo. Accidents happen and we can't do anything to stop them from happening.""Still... it hurts to see you trying to keep up with practice and everything else while being in pain. I'm sorry that I can't do more for you," Momo says as she strokes Dahyun's cheek.Dahyun reaches up for Momo's hand to lace them together. "My love," she plants a kiss on Momo's hand, "just be by my side, that's enough for me."Momo successfully puts Dahyun into sleep by stroking her hair. That's all that Momo does for about an hour, never looking at her phone or the TV, just watching Dahyun sleep as she plays with the girl's hair. But eventually, Dahyun slowly starts shuffling around before opening her eyes. Momo leans down to kiss Dahyun's forehead, getting a smile from the younger one."Do you want a bath? You'll feel better," Momo asks."I'm not sure.""Are you still feeling nauseous?"Dahyun just nods and closes her eyes again, so Momo decides not to talk further. Although, after a while, she hears Dahyun quietly whisper her name."Yes? Do you want something?" Momo asks."Do you think..." Dahyun shakes her head, "No, never mind.""No, it's okay, what is it?""Can you bring me to the bedroom so I can get ready and run myself a bath?""I can definitely bring you there, but let me run the bath for you," Momo pleads. "How do you want to do this? Should I just support your waist again?""Yeah, that's fine."They both stand up. Momo supports Dahyun by her waist and Dahyun's legs are still shaky, but they slowly make it to the bedroom. Momo makes her sit down on the bed and stands in between her legs to lean down and give her a kiss."Okay let me prepare the bath for you. I'll be back in a bit."Dahyun simply nods, closing her eyes again. Momo goes inside the bathroom and turns on warm water before putting some bath salt in, exactly how Dahyun likes it. While the tab is running, she goes back to Dahyun."Should I help you undress here or in the bathroom?" Momo ask in a quiet tone, not wanting to startle her.Dahyun shakes her head. "Here.""Okay, but if you're uncomfortable with being naked on the way, I could just get you your robe?"Dahyun looks at Momo and doesn't say anything at first, considering her idea, and then mutters a quiet "Okay."Momo quickly gets her robe and start to undress her. "Tell me if you need me to stop."But Dahyun never stops Momo and Momo undresses her as quickly as she can, putting her robe on after. The bath is also ready. Momo helps her get up and walk to the bathroom the same way they made it to the bedroom. Dahyun lets her robe fall to the floor and steps into the bath, still holding onto Momo. Then, Momo lights some candles and turns off the harsh bathroom light."I'll be in the bedroom, so just shout if you need me, okay?" Momo says.But Dahyun stops her again. "Can you join me?""Are you sure?" Momo asks, trying to hide how surprised she is at Dahyun's request.Dahyun nods. So, Momo walks back to the bathtub and starts undressing. The past few days, Dahyun didn't want to take baths together, since she wasn't comfortable yet with Momo sitting behind her, having a more direct look at her scar. It made her feel insecure."Should I just sit on the opposite end?" Momo asks."You can sit behind me, honey.""Are you sure?" Momo asks again, trying not to sound shocked."Yeah," Dahyun replies quickly.Dahyun makes some room for Momo, so Momo slips right into the bath behind her. When Momo sits down, Dahyun leans back against Momo's chest, whereupon Momo gives Dahyun a kiss on the shoulder and wraps her arms around Dahyun. With soft fingertips, Momo strokes over her stomach."Thank you," Dahyun whispers."There is nothing you have to thank me for, sweetness. I love you.""I love you too," Dahyun says, squeezing Momo's hand and leaning even more into her, feeling better because Momo is with her....