Damn (1/1)

(Neira's POV)Beep. Beep. Beep.My eyes slowly opened. White walls. White sheets. Bright lights.Where am I?“Ah, you're awake,” a motherly-like lady announced as she walked into the room.“Wait, what am I doing here?” I asked.“Poor dear, you must not remember a thing,” the nurse responded. “You fainted and your husband brought you here?”Husband?“What? But I'm not married?” I mumbled.“You're not?” she said. “Oh I'm sorry about the mistake. A young man brought you here and I just thought – well, never mind about that. But a beautiful girl like you would be lucky to have a handsome boy like him.” She gave me a wink.What 'boy' is she talking about?Confused I sat up slowly in the bed, reaching a hand to rub my eyes.“What's with that?” I wondered, pointing to a white bucket by the side of the bed.She looked in the direction my hand was pointing. “Oh, you've been vomiting ever since you got here,” she exclaimed. “We're not sure if it's the medication we're giving you or if it's just your condition. Other than that, your doctor did some brain x-rays to figure out the problem...” But she stopped when my face suddenly changed; quickly she reached for the white bucket and placed it underneath my head as I spewed out... well whatever that gunk is.“Is that natural?” I asked, pointing to a red streak in my vomit.She eyed it. “You'll be perfectly fine,” she said instead but a concerned look was etched across her plump face.Suddenly another wave of bile came up my throat but it was unnaturally warm. Before the nurse could place the bucket back down on the floor, I grabbed it and spat back into it. This time it was a dark red.I touched the tip of my tongue to my lips and tasted – blood.“That doesn't look right,” I gasped.“Oh dear,” the nurse said.The sound of something being dropped onto the ground diverted my attention and my gaze swept past her shoulder to the doorway.GD stood there, a bag laying on the ground next to him. I couldn't read the expression he had on his face but I know I don't want him to see my like this.“Go away!” I yelled at him.His eyes met mine and his lips moved as though he wanted to say something.“Leave!” I shouted as I clutched at my stomach, trying to hold down the vomit.The nurse ran over to him and gently took him by the arm.“Just go, son,” she spoke soothingly. “You can see her later.”I whimpered softly to myself as my hands clutched the bucket, my head bent over the top. (GD's POV)I didn't know she would be that bad. I covered my face in my hands, trying to suppress my emotions as I patiently sat in a plastic chair, waiting.“Young man,” someone said to me. I looked up and recognized the nurse from before. “You can go in now and see her.”She gave me a nod with her head.I sighed and slowly stood up.Quietly, I pushed open Neira's door and walked in silently. The curtains were drawn and her eyes were closed.Thinking that she was asleep, I walked over to her side and sat down in the chair next to her. With shaking hands I reached for her right hand and held it gently in my grasp. I cringed from how skinny she had gotten, I could see every curve of bone in her hand.“I'm sorry.”I looked up at Neira's face. “You're awake.” I gave her a smile.“I'm sorry that I snapped at you,” she apologized.I took a deep breath. “Nah, it's all good.”She looked at her hands in mine and I could feel her trying to pull it away from me but I held on tightly.“Why do you keep doing that?” I pointed out.“Doing what?”“Pushing yourself away from me?!”“I'm not...”I shook my head. “I know you are and you know it too.”She turned her face away. “What if I am? What are you going to do about it?”“No matter what, I'll still be here,” I said.“What if I don't want you here?” she asked.“Why wouldn't you?”“Because I'm afraid – afraid that...” But she stopped.“Afraid of what?” I urged her on. (Neira's POV)“I'm afraid that I'll – fall in love with you,” my voice had grown quieter and I hope that he hadn't heard what I just said.But he smiled and clung even more tightly to my hand. “Have you?” he said.A slight mist began to ruin my eyesight. Embarrassed I wiped away at the tear that betrayed my emotions.“No I don't!” I gasped out and watched as his face fell. “I have nothing else to live for.”GD shook his head back and forth. “You have me to live for, Neira, don't forget about that.”I smiled through my tears. Sweet, caring GD. He's always been too good for me.“They're discharging you tonight if you stop vomiting,” he spoke softly. “And you're going to come and stay with me.”I shook my head no. “What about the guys? I can't -”GD chuckled. “They heard about you and helped me find a better apartment closer to the hospital, so don't worry. You're only job is to get better.”He poked me on the nose with the tip of his finger.“Ahem!”We both turned to look at the door. GD's face turned a bright pink when he saw the guys standing there.“TOP, Taeyang, SeungRi, Daesung, what are you guys doing here?” he squeaked out.TOP chuckled and Daesung's eyes crinkled up as he smiled. Taeyang smirked and SeungRi clapped his hands.“We came to see the little missus,” Taeyang announced.I gave a bright smile and sat up straighter in my bed. “Come on in,” I called out.“So have you done it already?” Daesung asked as he hopped over.GD faked a cough and I spotted him flash Daesung a 'look'.Daesung nodded his head and acted as though he never said anything.“What are you guys planning?” I asked.“Oh, nothing,” SeungRi butted in.I looked at them but decided to let it drop.“Ahem!” Another voice coughed out. We all looked up, who else is it?“May I speak to Kwon Ji Yong for a second,” a doctor said.GD's eyebrows rose as he stood up. He gave my hand a gentle squeeze and left. What are they talkin' about? (GD's POV)“The test results on her brain screening won't be in 'til next week so we'll give you a call when they do come in, OK?” the doctor informed me.I nodded my head. “Do you think she'll get any better?” I whispered, hoping that she would say yes but she sighed.“Not until the screening comes in will we be able to determine that,” she replied.I nodded my head as she gave me an encouraging smile and walked away.What am I supposed to do?