Hurting? (1/1)

Hurting?Jessica's POVI woke up a little late than the usual. I noticed that Krystal woke earlier than me and cooking breakfast."Good morning unnie. Coffee?" She sadi with a smile. I guess she really had fun yesterday with Amber. I nodded and she continue cooking."Good morning Krys. What you cooking? Do you need help?" "Bacon and eggs unnie. Fried rice also. Just prepare the table this is nearly done." She looked so happy. I cant help but to feel envious yet happy for her. Contradicting isnt it? She got Amber and she is happy while I got nothing."Here is your coffee unnie." She said as she put everything on the table."Thanks sis. So what did happened yesterday?" I am still her sister I want and need to know."You wont believe it unnie! Amber asked me to be her girl. It was so perfect that I cant find the words to describe it. The setting the mood and the person doing all of it. I felt so special." She said as if she is still in those moments."Is that so? I am happy for you Soojung-ah." I told her. Yes I am really happy but I dont know if I am happy for myself. Giving up on Amber is the best for my sister but I guess it is not good for me."Oh before I forgot unnie, Amber said she will have dinner with us in the day after tomorrow. Are you busy on that day?" Oh this is it I guess. Asking for my blessing for her to date my sister. "I am free. Soojung I will be home late today. I am with Tiffany we will go somewhere." I lied. I just dont want to see you with Amber giving you a ride home."Its ok unnie. Take care ok? Tell me if you need anything." "I'll be fine. By the way where si Amber? She usually comes here early in the morning to fetch you right?" Now. More pain isnt it? "Nahh unnie. She wont for today. She'll inspect the new site and meet some clients this early. She will just fetch me later at work." "Ok. I thought she is just late or something. Take care also Krys ok?" "Ne unnie. I can take care of myself."After having breakfast I volunteered to clean the table. Krys left few minutes later. I decided to call Tiffany. Now is the time that I need a friend.*ring ring ring*"yoboseyo?" A voice said on the other line. Still sleeping Fany-ah?"Its me Jess. Are you free today? Lets hit the mall and go to a bar later." Now I need this. Distractions to avoid of getting lonely"Oh sorry Jess. I didnt look at the caller id. Im not busy in fact I will ask you the same thing. I am so bored and I know you will fly back to the states after a few weeks.""Then it settled. Lets just meet at the coffee shop in the mall.""Ok ok. Im going to hang up now." And the line went offI hate being the older sister. Giving way to my younger sister but I cant also help to feel happy that she got someone who can take care of her the way I take care of her.---

Tiffany's POV"Ssup Jess?" She looked so sad whats wrong with her."Oh. Im just bored and Krys is always busy with work. We dont talk with each other too much." Oh I see. Jessie misses her sister so much"Just asked Krys to get a leave from work. A day or two wont hurt right?" Of course Krys is busy she is a doctor but a leave wont hurt right? Besides she doesnt always get the chance to be with Jess."I'll ask her. Lets go shopping now ok? I heard they got new items." She doesnt sound the usual her but I shrugged it off. I will just asked her later."Ok lets go then." I said to her

We went in every botique in the mall. Well I had fun but I doubt Jess had fun. She seemed so lost in her own thoughts. Yes she checked out some things but she seemed off to somwehere most of the time. We had lunch and spend some more time strolling around the mall.

Something's really wrong with Jess today. I should ask her"Hey Jess. Are you really sure you are alright?" I asked her worriedly"Yeah Tiff. Why'd you ask?" She said and pretend to be happy"You are not like the usual. I just felt somethings wrong.""Ohh I am fine Tiff. Dont worry about me. Lets go? I will just change and drop these off our house. You too. Lets meet at 9 pm ok?""No need to meet. I will just fetch you at your place. Thats better." I told her"Ok Tiff. We are going to be drunk later. Get ready!" Now I know something is really wrong. Jess is not that type of person who would like to get drunk."Oh see you in a bit too."

9 pm and I am already at their door. I texted her to inform I al already here. "Wow Jess. You look gorgeous tonight. I love the outfit." She is really indeed beautiful but I can see right through her she isnt happy."Oh you too Tiff. I hope we are going to have fun tonight."

Minutes later we arrived the bar. Its not fully packed like the weekends. We decided to settle in a VIP section. "Hey Tiff. What drinks would you like?" She asked me"Oh I'll go for a martini."A waiter came and listed everything we need."Oh a bottle of tequilla and a glass of martini." Jess said. Whatttt?!!! A bottle of tequilla."Hey Jess. What are you going to do with the whole bottle? Are you crazy its just the two of us.""I told you I want to get drunk tonight. Come on. Its not like we are not allowed to."Once our order came. She started drinking. Its not the first time I saw her drinking but not like this. All alone and she seemed to have the problems of the world."Jess. Take it slow. Its not like someone will snatch your drink away." I told her"Tiff, dont I deserve to be happy? Why I always need to give way? Huh?" Now I noticed she already half way of the bottle. My gosh Jess what is happening to you."Of course you deserve to be happy. Really Jess? What is your problem?""Aj. I gave up on her. I turned her down again." Oh she did it again. Why Jess? I know she is confused last time but now is the chance to take her back. Amber is a good person not to mention she is loving and everything someone could ask for."Why Jess? I know you like her too. This time its your chance why did you do that?""Krys loves her. Amber loves her too. Maybe she likes mep but not like the way she likes Krystal. I can see it." Aw. Giving way for her little sister."Why Jess? You should have thought of your feelings too. You know. You already give her the chance to live the best of her life. Away from responsibilty for your company and family.""Is it wrong to gave way for her happiness? Crazy as it seems right? They looked so perfect together. But when she kissed Aj I felt like a thousand knives is stabbing my heart. I felt hurt and I dont know why. I started doubting if my decision is right.""No it isnt wrong but you shouldve have thought of yourself too. Have you tell Krys about your feelings too?""She doesnt need to know Tiff. She have to be happy. If it means giving up my own happiness its fine with me. I just dont help but get hurt. Maybe I did love Aj I just cant figure it out." And the drink her next shot."Jess stop drinking. It wont help you." I said with concern. I nearly finish my martini but she nearly finish the bottle she ordered."Let me Tiff. I want to have a good sleep and drown my heart until it feel numb." Oh poor Jess. I hope you thought of yourself first. "Alright just this time. Seriously Jess. Next time think of yourself first. Your own happiness. Giving way its not always the right thing.""I just dont want to see my sister hurting. I want her to be happy. Even with Amber. I can endure everything. I just need time." Jess is indeed a good sister.Like what I expected she got drunk and fell asleep I ask the waiters to help me carry her to the car after I settled all our bill.I texted Krys that I am with Jess once we arrived in front of their home."What happened Unnie? Why did she got drunk?" Oh no Krys. I have no right to tell you everything. Jessica should be the one telling you"Nahh. We just had fun. I decided not to drink to assist her. I cant stop her. She wants it.""Sorry for the trouble unnie. But can you help me put her in the bed?""No. Its ok. After all she is my bestfriend. Im always here for her." And she you should to Krys. Your sister is hurting. You should see it yourself"Thank you unnie. I walk you to the door." She said"Its nothing. Please take care of your sister oK? She is strong but she also has weaknesses and burdens. Talk to her." With that I left. Jess I hope you will tell krys and find your happiness. You deserve to be happy.---Another update. Random update actually. Crappy? I guess so. Sorry for not satisfying you enough. Hahahahahahaha cant sleep. Sorry for the mistakes. Im not perfect and I am not really good at writing at all hahahahahah

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