Intimate (1/1)

Hey guys, sorry for not writing for a while (suffering form major writer's block). But I have finally stopped being such a lazy ass and have finally written a chapter, I'm sorry if you may find it boring. But if you don't find it boring I'll be very happy ^^  thank you guys for sticking with me! you're all really nice :)-DeepMeaning“How was school yesterday, sweetie?” Father asked, shoving a small portion of vegetable kimchi into his awaiting mouth.“Heh, same as always” I shrugged.Mother and Father came back from work way earlier than expected and they looked extremely exhausted. So as to treat them for working hard and also having a lot of time to spare before I leave from the house for school, I cooked them some breakfast.Silence was introduced into the room for mere minutes before Mother started speaking “So, did you and Yongguk cope well while we were gone?”I mentally smiled sardonically “Yeah, everything was fine, Yongguk stayed in his room the whole time for some reason and I was studying for my exam” More lies sprang into my mind and I continued “Nothing really interesting happened, I guess me and Yongguk were just tired from our hectic school hours, so I guess that we can cope without you Mother”She scoffed in response then returned to eating her meal.“Speaking of Yongguk, why isn’t he awake yet? He’s the one that wakes up the earliest…” Father declared then glancing at the staircase.“Yeah, maybe I should check up on him” Mother said as she rose up from her chair, but she and everyone came to a halt as Yongguk slowly descended the stairs; his skin colour drastically faded into a very pale shade, faint black circles formed under his eyes and his eyes were bloodshot.He looked awful, and I definitely knew the reason why.“Yongguk…” Mother’s face was drawled with worry as she rushed over to him “Are you sick, honey?”He was about to respond to her question until his tired eyes traced onto me, the pair of eyes widening at an extreme rate.   I giggled very discreetly “Yeah Yongguk, you don’t look too good” I feigned innocence.His lip started to quiver at the sound of my voice “I-I-I n-n-n-eed to get ready for s-school” was all he managed to splutter out before bolting up the staircase and into his room, the sound of a loud bang followed after a few seconds later. Father raised his eyebrows in confusion “What’s the matter with that boy?”“I don’t know, puberty” I said in monotone, picking up my chopsticks. Mother and Father exchanged glances with each other before agreeing with my suggestion. The room drew to a silence once again as we continued eating the breakfast.---------------------------------------  An hour later, I placed my textbooks and notebooks into my schoolbag, closed my bedroom door and walked down into the family room. I glanced at my watch.7:58am, not bad Bang Jaemin.A dull banging noise came from the staircase suddenly as Yongguk briskly walked down the stairs and aiming towards the front door. It was obvious that he was trying to ignore me and avoid our daily routine of walking to school together. Fortunately, he stopped in his tracks as Mother called out for him.“Yongguk, where do you think you’re going?! Can’t you wait for Jaemin?”“Yeah Yongguk, was you going to leave me?” I slowly walked to him with gleaming eyes, earning a glare from Yonnguk before he twisted the door knob. “For fuck sake” he muttered angrily.  His face screwed in frustration as he was trying to roughly budge the door open.“You know you have to unlock the door to make it open” I joked, twisting the metal lock and opened the door. He sheepishly scratched the back of his head in embarrassment and waltzed out the house, in the meantime pushing me harshly out of the way, making me fall against the shoe rack. I huffed at his rude action and followed his path behind him. I tried to catch up to him as we got to a familiar, secluded pathway but he was too fast for me, I couldn’t reach up to him.He’s really trying to get away from me “Yongguk!” I called out to him.No response. “YONGGUK!” I sprinted up to his pace and grabbed his arm, making him stop walking. His face was turned away from me as I started speaking to him “Don’t start ignoring me, you can’t deny what happened yesterday…” I trailed off when I saw him slowly turning his head to my direction. Cold shivers ran down my spine as I saw his facial expression, he was livid to say the least; his eyes were filled with raging anger, causing frown lines to show on his forehead, his nostrils were flared open as prolonged puffs of air roughly travelled through them, and those once lovable lips now resembled a furious dog, his white teeth seeming to be tightly clenched together. I flinched as he grabbed the back of my head whilst leaning towards my face.“Don’t……..you………EVER…………talk about what happened last night” he growled, his voice sounding deeper in each word. “Ever…..” He painfully pulled me away from his grip and walked off, leaving me frozen in the same spot.What the hell just happened?I didn’t move, I couldn’t move. I was extremely shocked at what just happened. A pang of guilt began to hit me as the hurtful words repeated in my thoughts and I felt completely awful of how this issue affected him, but why couldn’t he just accept our undeniable love together? I mean, he wasn’t really trying to push me off when I was orally pleasuring him yesterday, right?“YOU’RE JUST IN DENIAL!” I screamed at Yongguk in the distance, though he probably wouldn’t have heard me. I exhaled sharply and crossed my arms.“Who’s in denial?” A soft male voice said behind me.I turned around and I saw Daehyun; one of Yongguk’s best friends in school. I mentally rolled my eyes. Even though Daehyun is a nice guy and we do talk at times, making him count as my (only) acquaintance, I really wasn’t in the mood to talk to him.“Oh nothing really” I said with a fake smile “If you want to walk with Yongguk, he’s-“Actually I want to walk with you…” He mumbled, softly biting his lip in the process.I gave a nonchalant shrug “Okay” then we started to walk. It was silent for a few seconds and due to the lack of dialogue between us, we both ended up glancing at the scenery of the densely populated street in awkwardness. I breathed in relief as Daehyun started to speak, albeit in inept “So how are you finding your studies?”Really? “Good, I guess” I said and began to twirl a section of my hair around my index finger in boredom. He noticed this and from the corner of my eyes, he started to lick his lips.“Listen……….Jae…………” his tone of voice seemed apprehensive “I-I-I j-just w-w-wanted-d to s-say……that maybe w-we can-n hang-”We both jumped at the sound of two husky male voices screaming Daehyun’s name, I heard him curse under his breath as Himchan and Zelo (another two of Yongguk’s best friends) ran up to him and started a conversation with him. I stood there awkwardly as they began talking about a meaningless and non-relatable topic. “I’m just going to go” I said stiffly, wanting to get away from his immature friends. He smiled apologetically at me. “See you later, Jae” he said and I walked off to carry on with my journey to school. --------------------------------- Yongguk  I feel like such a mess; I couldn’t sleep at all last night because my mind was continuously re-enacting what happened between me and Jae every time I closed my eyes. And it really didn’t help when I saw her this morning as the memory became more vivid. Every time I think of it, I either feel frustrated or confused….I don’t know…..I just need to stay away from Jae or I may do something I would later regret. But at least I still have my friends and girlfriend to look forward too. My vision suddenly darkened as I felt two soft hands covering my eyes.“Guess who?” My heart softened as I heard a familiar sugary voice whisper into my ears “I’ll give you a guess. She’s kind, loving and if you get the person wrong, I’ll be really mad”I chuckled before turning around to face Eunmi – she’s so beautiful, this is one of the reasons why I love her so much. She pulled me into a soft kiss, my eyes closing at the tenderness of her lips. But what threw me off was that I instantly thought of Jae kissing me and fondling me, just like last night.My eyes flew open and I pulled Eunmi away, she then looked at me in confusion.“Are you okay, oppa?”“Yeah, I’m fine” I cleared my throat loudly to ease off the lump forming in my throatShe began to observe my face and stroked under my eyes with her thumb “No you’re not, you don’t look so good”Really? Do I really look that bad?“Have you been sleeping well?” her voice sounded concerning “Did your sister do anything to you?”Yes.“No, why would you say that?” I laughed profusely, obviously making Eunmi more suspicious. She raised an eyebrow and was about to speak, but I interrupted her.“Listen baby, there’s nothing to worry about, I’m fine so stop being so concerned about me. Just try to have a good day, okay?” I softly squeezed her hand whilst trying to convince her with my speech. She smiled sweetly and embraced me into a hug“Okay, jagiya. I’m going to head off to my first period” Afterwards, she waved me goodbye and walked off to her awaiting friends who were waiting for her afar.Fuck! I sighed loudly and ran my hand through my head in frustration. I don’t want to pretend to be okay in front of my peers when I know that I would be having an ongoing war with my mind, I feel fucked up and it’s all thanks to Jaemin. Why, just why did she have to do this to me? And why did i kiss her?Speaking of the devil, I saw her walk to up her locker to collect her textbooks, picking up some papers that she dropped in the meantime. Anger built up in my chest as I stared at her intensely.“YONGGUK HYUNG!” I turned to the sound of the calling voice and I see Zelo, Himchan and Daehyun run up to my direction. They greeted me enthusiastically and we started to banter about random topics for a bit. “I studied for my exam all night yesterday” Zelo groaned “and I swear my brain is fried at the moment”“Oh yeah Daehyun has an exam too, right Daehyun?” Himchan said but instead, Daehyun was too distracted onto something else apart from our conversation. Realising that our attention was focused onto him, he diverted back to us “Oh, yeah right”Himchan turned to where Daehyun was previously looking at “Don’t tell me that you were looking at Yongguk’s sister again” Himchan bloated out. I watched as Daehyun’s face contrasted into a deep red shade as they started to snicker at him.“I was not…” Daehyun’s voice was below a mumble as he sheepishly scratched the back of his head, though his facial expression was giving him away.Daehyun has had a crush on Jae for a very long time, I remember the time when he shyly confessed to me his undying crush for her and him continuously begging me to ask Jae about him, along with what she thinks about him. Almost every day, I always catch him either staring at Jae for an abnormal amount of time then blush away if they make eye contact, or him trying so hard to get her attention, one time he even stole Jae’s sport shorts from her bag to get a whiff of it.If Daehyun had the courage he would’ve gone up to her and asked her out as soon as he first laid eyes on her, however his reserved and shy personality is restricting him from doing so.“Daehyun, why don’t you ask her out already instead of staring at her like you’re going to tear her apart”“I don’t know hyung, she’s just so pretty and innocent”She’s not innocent! “And I’m scared that she’ll reject me”We watched Daehyun meekly shift his feet, and Zelo placed his hand on his shoulder in comfort “I’m sure that she wouldn’t reject you, you’re probably the nicest guy in this school, and you’re also good-looking. No girl would ever reject you” Zelo gave him a reassuring smile, but Daehyun was once again staring at Jae, who just closed her locker to leave.  We observed as he absentmindedly began to nibble his lips, and he groaned as Himchan took action and flicked the side of his head.“Daehyun-ah, you’re such a creep!” and Himchan and Zelo started to snicker loudly. ------------------------------------ Jae The study hall was mute as a pack of students sat in their separate seats, deeply concentrated in their exam.  I blankly stared at the wall in front of me with my completed exam paper sitting on my desk, allowing me to be engrossed into my conscious.I still thought of the way Yongguk shouted at me, he’s never been angry at me before, let alone shout. I guess I pushed things too far, maybe I should apologize? I sighed as I heard the last bell ring in my classroom and everyone also sighed happily as they packed up their stationary to leave the previously tense classroom with their friends.Shouldering my bag, I started to walk out along with the huddle of students, but suddenly a hand harshly pushed onto my back, resulting in me colliding onto the floor in a loud thud.“Watch where you’re going, freaky bitch” A recognizable voice sneered behind me. I glared at Eunmi and her friends, who also laughed at my vulnerable state.I’m yearning for the day when I grab the nearest knife to me and stab her until that fucking squeaky voice can no longer be heard.Ignoring the presence of the annoying group and their loathing squeaky voices I waltzed out of the school, and barging through the bustling swarm of students, yearning to get home quickly. I took the key out of my blazer pocket as soon I arrived there and opened my front door. The house was extremely quiet when I entered, but the sound of plates clattering broke the silence.“Yongguk oppa” I rushed to the kitchen and there was Yongguk picking up the contents of a broken plate, he paused as he looked up to me and his face instantly formed into a scowl.“What do you want?” he barkedI was taken aback by his abrasive tone.“…..I just wanted to talk-”“Well I don’t want to talk to you” he walked to the bin to throw the plate away and walked out of the kitchen to get to his room, with me trailing behind him.“Yongguk, I-““Fuck off, Jae! I don’t want to see your face” he snapped at me before slamming the door in front of my face.I banged my fist on his door, much more determined to confront him despite the fact that he hates me at the moment. He finally opened the door and I strolled into his room without permission.“Get out!” He shouted“No!” I shouted back, my tone of voice levelling with him “Can you just listen to me?”I heard him growl before replying “What?!”“I just wanted to say I’m sorry, I know that you’re pissed off at me and you’re probably not going to forgive me, but can you at least start talking to me again? I miss you, oppa” His eyes softened at the content of my confrontation, his raging fist no longer clenched with each other. It became silent at a deafening rate for a while until he finally spoke“Why did you do it, Jae?” His eyes softly narrowed, observing me whilst waiting for my answer, the atmosphere of the room became extremely heavy as he stared at me. I felt uncomfortable upon his gaze and looked at my feet “I was curious, I guess…..” I said meekly.It became very silent and I started fiddling with my hands as I felt him scan my facial expression.I heard a dark chuckle “Curious?” I nodded slowly.He started to step towards me and I felt weakened at his close distance towards me, I thought that he was either going to comfort me or he was going to continue hating me and kick me out of the room. However, what he actually did took me to a great surprise.Suddenly I felt hands roughly grab my blazer collar and I was slammed onto a wall. I was so shocked by his action and I just looked at him with wide eyes, whilst he stared down at me, the intensity of his stare making me even weaker, and a little bit scared to be honest. My mind was jumbled as I tried to think of something to say.“Y-Yongguk oppa, I-” He placed a finger on top of my lips and leaned towards me, making our faces almost touching. My heart was pounding at the level of intimacy existing between us.“Sssshhhh……” he whispered, smirking down at me afterwards. “I’m not going to hurt you, Jae”