[M] 7 - Jungkooks past pt. 1 (1/1)

Jungkook didn’t understand why Seokjin became so sad. The desire he felt was long gone. He worried about the elder, he didn’t want to see him like this; his tarts started to flow like nothing could stop them, hugging him tightly, sobbing.“The fa-fact that so-someone hu-hurt you…” Seokjin couldn’t finish his sentence, he cried and sobbed so hard his whole body was shaking.Jungkook soothed his back, gently stroking his hair as he tried to calm him down. What a pure soul , he thought. He’d never thought that the elder would react like this; he knew what he was, but it looked like he didn’t think through about what this meant exactly and what this could be meant.“Please calm down, I’m okay now.” Jungkook said, he didn’t know how much time went by until Seokjin calmed down a bit, but it didn’t bother him at all. Jungkook felt his heart ache to see the other in this state. Seokjin unfolded his arms around him and laid back a bit, looking at him in the eye. His eyes were still a bit teary, sad, but at least he stopped crying.“I’m sorry, but I got distracted by what you’ve said...” Seokjin whispered.“You don’t have to apologize.” Jungkook looked deeply in his eyes, making sure for the other that he really meant what he said. The elder glanced over, biting his lips like he was afraid to say the words out loud.

Jungkook had a hunch what the latter wanted to know, so he prevented him.“You can ask me anything.” It made Seokjin look at him surprised for a second, but he looked away again, blushing a little. Jungkook found him cute like this, he had to hold back a smile.“How many times did they… hurt you?” Seokjin asked quietly.“Fortunately, it wasn’t that common that they hurt me.” It seemed like his answer caught the elder off guard as his eyes went wide, filled with horror.“Is… is that so?”A deep sigh left Jungkook’s lips. He felt sorry for Seokjin, he didn’t expect how much shit he had to suffer for taking the source he needed to survive.“Okay, fine. Take a bath first, then I’ll tell you what you want to know if you’re still interested. Is that okay for you?” Jungkook asked. Seokjin nodded yes, and the younger leaned back from his lap and let both of them take their time for washing themselves in silence.

Seokjin was still processing what he’d heard while he’s brushing his body with the body wash and then leaned under the water to wash it off. He was really curious about Jungkook’s past, but he was afraid of what he would hear. He knew there were some pervert, sick bastards who enjoyed hurting and causing pain to others. But it’s a whole different story when it hits you in the face, to see it in person.

They wiped themselves with the towels before they headed to Seokjin’s room. Seokjin walked towards his wardrobe while Jungkook sat down onto the bed. Seokjin randomly picked two shirts, underwear and pants, handing one of each to the younger. The shirt was a bit big for Jungkook, but the pants fitter perfectly. Damn, Seokjin thought, he even looked hot in these casual clothes.

They went to the living room and sat down onto the couch, shifting their bodies in front of one another. Jungkook’s facial expression was serious as he looked deep into Seokjin’s eyes. Seokjin sensed that the younger was nervous, it felt like a thousand needles were piercing his skin.“Do you still want to know?” Jungkook asked.“Yes.” Seokjin’s voice sounded serious, but inside he was scared.“What do you want to know exactly?”Seokjin didn’t reply right away, he needed a few moments to think about it thoroughly. He knew what the younger really was, but he didn’t know how he found it out.“How did your powers show up?”Jungkook sighed, looking at him in the eye.“Should I start from the beginning?”Seokjin nodded yes. The latter inhaled deeply, exhaling it before he started to tell his story.“On my twenty-first birthday my friends made a surprise party for me. We went to one of their houses to watch a film as his parents went on a trip or something for the weekend, so the whole house was ours. I only found out the truth when we arrived there.”“What happened at the party?” Seokjin asked curiously.“We drank. A lot.” Jungkook replied, and the elder noticed that the younger’s expression was like he was ashamed.“Nah, come on, it’s okay to have some fun.” Seokjin reassured him, gently soothing his upper arm, to let the younger know he didn’t scorn him.

Jungkook glanced at him, a bittersweet smile appeared on his face.“Anyway, we were quite drunk, and there were a few girls with us too as they were invited. There was a girl I had dated before. Both of us became too brave because of the alcohol, and, well…” Jungkook trailed off, like he didn’t know how he should express himself.“I can imagine what you two did.”“Well, yes, we soon ended up in one of the rooms upstairs. Unfortunately I can’t remember much as I was way too drunk. I’m certain that we slept together, but I don’t remember much, only some flashbacks. I remember the desire I felt, and the hunger too, but I didn’t know at that time what it exactly was. My… power took control over me, and it felt like my body moved by itself, by my power.” Jungkook lowered his head, and Seokjin knew he blamed himself for what he had done.“Jungkook, your powers activated for the first time ever, and you had no idea about it until then. No one can control it when it first shows up.” Seokjin put his hands onto his, squeezing them a little. He sensed that the younger became a bit calmer at his action; he turned his hand over and intertwined his fingers with his. It seemed like it gave him some kind of courage as he sighed before he continued his story.

“As I woke up the next morning, I noticed that something was wrong. I drank so much the day before, but I didn’t feel hungover at all, in fact, I was full of energy. Obviously I had no idea why it had happened. When I outdone myself, I saw the girl next to me. She was still sleeping… or that was I thought. I tried to wake her up, I even shook her shoulder, but nothing worked, I couldn’t wake her up.” Jungkook felt his stomach clenched by the memory. Seokjin gently squeezed his hand, making small circles on his skin.“What happened?”“As I started to say her name louder and louder, trying to wake her up, my friends came into the room to check out what’s going on. When they realized the situation, one of them called the ambulance. Seokjin, I was so scared, I had no idea what I had done to her...” Jungkook felt his eyes start to tear up.

Seokjin pulled him closer and hugged him tightly, the younger immediately hugged him back, putting his head at the crook of his neck. He tried to hold back his tears, Seokjin soothed his back with his hand. Jungkook flooded out a few moments later and gathered his courage to keep speaking.“They took her for many tests, they diagnosed coma, but they had no clue what caused it. All of her tests were fine, her labs were good too, but she didn’t wake up.” Jungkook’s voice was a bit wary as he spoke.“How long was she in a coma?”“Two days.”Seokjin looked at him with wide-opened eyes, his lips were a little agape. He cleared his throat.“What happened when she woke up?”“She was confused, she had no idea why she was at a hospital. Then…” Jungkook paused a little. “Then she saw me, and her whole body started shivering. She screamed at me to not go near her or touch her.” Jungkook closed his eyes as a flashback came through his mind; how terrified the girl was, the horror in her eyes as she looked at him. He swallowed hard before he continued.“A nurse and a doctor came into the room as they heard the screaming. The doctor asked me to leave the room and go to the hall, promising me that he’ll soon follow me to tell the developments. I was really worried about the girl so I did as they asked. I was so nervous while I was waiting for the doctor, I wanted to know what was going on.”“Did they find out why she was so scared of you?” Seokjin asked after a few seconds of silence.“Yes.”