past & present (1/1)

FLASHBACK...2006Hana's POVHi.. My name is Hana and I am a new student, here in SMHigh.. I am so excited for new life but also st the same time, kinda nervous.. About what people think of me.. Would they like my quiet and shy personality.. Some people misjudge me as a cold person because I rarely smile or talk to anyone.. Its just, I'm afraid to talk to people because I'm shy..and now,, i'm outside my new classroom.. "Okay class.. Today we will have a new student as what I said to all of you yesterday" said Mrs. Lee as she gestured me to come into the class..I take a deep breath and went inside.. I see all the students are giving me their sincere smiles.. And I can see all of them are nice.. I introduced myself.. Mrs Lee asked me to sit at the back because of my height. I am tall, so if I sit infront, I might blocked the views for the people behind me..As I walked to the empty seat at the back, I saw this one guy, he's so tall, taller than me.. He's giving me this cols gaze and its so creepy.. I sit quietly without saying anything to him because i'm afraid he'll yell at me."Hi there.. My name is Wu Yifan but you can call mr Kris.. And this is my friends, EXO" he said while pointing to the 11 students sitting either on our sides or at the front..I smiled at him and the others.. And introduced myself to them.. That day, I made friends with Minyoung, Sooyoung, Hanbyul and Minji.. They are so nice to me.. So thats basically what happened on my first day in SMHigh.. 2007here I am.. Sitting next to him.. Again.. I've been his seatmate and also his close friend since last year.. To tell you the truth, I kinda have a small crush on him.. He's a very nice person.. He's friendly too.. And this year, he's sitting on my right, just like last year.."Hana-ah.. Are you ready for tomorrow Maths test? i'm not ready.. Please teach me" he pleaded me with his cute puppy face.. How can I resist his this cutie-pie.. I teach him all the basic things and even go through few questions to make him understand even more....we laugh together, crack jokes together.. With EXO and my 4 best friends... Until that day happened...~~~I was in the toilet because I need to wash my fingers. Someone tried to prank me by putting a glue on my desk.. So I have some of it on my fingers.. When I go back into my room.. I saw EXO (except Kris) and my 4 bestfriends were near to my bag...One thing I can only think about.. My diary.. I wrote my feelings there... Everything that I feel about him.. My love towards him.. My crush letter that I never send to him..I ran to my bag and try searching for my diary.. It was gone.. I started to be panic... What should I do.."guys.. Did you see my... Mmm.... Aa....m...bb....book" I asked them.."What kind of book are you talking about, Hana-ah" they giggled.. i know something was wrong.. I looked at them and give them a death glare.. Why... Why did they do this to me.. Why did they gave my diary to kris.. I dont want Kris to read it."Hana-ah, i didnt mean to hurt you but I only see you as my friend.. Not more than that" that time.. Only god knows how sad I am and how my heart broken into pieces... 2008now.. We are in our senior year.. We were not in the same class anymore.. Some of the EXO are in my class while others are at the other class, the same class as Kris. Even Minji and Minyoung are in kris's class.. While Sooyoung and Hanbyul still in the same class as me..Since the time kris knew about my feeling, our friendship started to grew apart. He's busy with his friends while i'm busy with my studies, because I need to get all A's for my senior year, final exam.~~~~"hana-ah, kris said he want to kill himself because Minji rejected him" yes.. Thats the craziest thing Minyoung said to me.. I didnt know kris love Minji.. He was just using me for the past few years becaus ehe want to be close to Her.. minji rejected him because she values our friendship,, among the 4, she was the closest one to me.. Since she used to my my childhood friends in elementary school.I rushed to kris room and saw kris back hugging Minji and I saw minji blushing... Well.. I think i now know who she like.. Because she did tell me once the guy who she like last year."Hana-ah.. i think I like this guy. He's nice and sweet.. He's tall to.. But a girl like him.. But he doesnt like her.. I pity her because I know she's a very nice girl.. I want to be with him but I dont want anything bad to happened" thats the thing that she said to me.. It still breaks my heart when I heard news that they couple after Kris keep courting her to be her girlfriend.. I 'give' them my 'bless' because I dont want to see Kris sad.. ~~~~~~I passed my exam with flying colours.. While some EXO did well, some didnt. Kris got all A's except for one subject, which I didnt believed he can get D.. He got D for ENGLISH.. He's suppossed to be good in English... Better than me.. But I didnt expect he get DWhen someone told me the reason why he didnt do well in his English, is because he was all night long, calling with minji.. Well... He kinda slept during english paper so he only managed to do some of it.. I'm really disappointed in him.. In 2007 we planned to do well in our exam so we can go to the same college, SMCollege, where only smart and straight A's student are offered to study there...and now.. I dont know how will my life goes without him.. NOW......I saw his social account last week.. After being lost contact with him for more than 5 years... I added him to my friend list.. And guess what..HE BLOCKED ME.. In his twitter.. Instagra,.. Facebook.. He even blocked my phone number.. And he sent me a message.. Which make me think.. What happened to you Kris.."sorry who are you miss.. Stop spamming my inbox with your annoying questions.. I dont even know who you are.. I even get slapped by my girlfriend because she taught I cheated on her when she read your text 'I love you Kris'.. You are really sick miss.. Even if I knew you.. I think you are not important in my life.. Or else, I would probably remember you.... Get the hell out of my life and dont call me or text me or try to contact me ever again"Thats the last time.. I read his text.. i delete all my conversations with him on my old phone.. I burned all the pictures and all the things that he gave to me...and I got information from Minyoung, that kris and minji broke up because minji realised that she's so selfish.. She's happy while i've suffered more than anyone can feel... 2014...earlier.. i saw him on my way to supermarket.. I saw him.. And he's still wearing our friendship's necklace.. What are you kris... Did you totally forget about me, hana who love you and have a crush on you.. or you forget about your bestfriend, park Hana who's always by yourside when you need me.. Because when I greet you with my 'fake smile' you ignore me.. Did you forgotten my face,, because my face didnt change kris.. Its still the same...  WHY????????????~~~~~~~~~~~~~~so thats the story.. I know its short.. Since its oneshot.. I just want to express my feelings... Of what happened... Hope you like it.. Do comments...