[M] S (1/1)

Ahhhhhhh. Yes. Finally, someone easy to open to. But sadly, not someone who easily opens to me. Well, considering the fact that I almost know nothing about her. Despite the fact that we've been bestfriends for almost 5 years. -Well we only became like super-close-friends-that-are-always-with-each-other last year but since the start of that almost 5 years, we've definitely been bestfriends. Same with the others, except G, we've only become a 'group of bestfriends' since last year. And this is going to be an awesome year with awesome memories with G.- I've been wanting to tell her a lot of things. "You know what? I don't know A LOT of things about you. If I don't tell you about myself, doesn't mean you shouldn't tell me about yourself. I want to tell you, all of you, that I don't want to open up so much with you guys because you guys aren't my friends to talk about with that stupid shit. I don't want to get you guys involved with my shit either. Firstly, I don't want to talk about my 'love' problems with you guys because I'm pretty sutre you'd guys tease me about it and you'd try hard to answer my questions, which I don't need answers for. Just lessons and realization from. Second, I don't want you guys have to worry about my stupid being and thinking. And as a third, I don't want you guys to get into a sad feeling. Plus I'm too stupid to worry about. I think we should worry more about you guys. So here it is. I'll tell you guys everything if you ever want to skip this, just not to worry about me, VERY fine with me because I feel like we'd be awkward. I have/had suicidal thoughts, obviously. My mom has told me to be kidnapped, raped or killed or something. I almost got hit by a car on a bike, I got trauma. I think I'm sadistic. My brother has epilepsy, I think you know that. My brother was spoiled by my grandmother, mother side, my sister was spoiled by my grandmother, father side. Who ever said I was spoiled? My birthday actually really is 1997. No I'm just joking. I'm really born on February 29, 1998 like Fuji. Seriously. I can't stick to one guy, thing, food for long. I had a mutual understanding with Austin Salvador. OK? OK, ROSHEL? I think I like a guy in Endu. Wahahahahaha. I'm afraid of heights, flying bugs, roller coasters, worms from inside the body. What else? I read smut and Yaoi. I write fanfics. Duh. I find it hard to trust people close to me or I barely know. Those friends, yes I can trust them. YESSSS, I hate cliche and happy endings. I love reading angst. I have a tendency to like weird guys, feminine guys, and blonde guys. My father and mom are seperated/going to. They're obviously looking for 'other people' now. My mom can easily open up to me but she motherfucking hates me. I tried slitting once. But not on the wrists. Me coward. TT^TT Sa hand lang. I couldn't believe my mom took around 2-4 weeks to find out about it. When I said I almost got hit by a car, the first person I saw and asked if I was okay was that guy. Yes. Austin. Ace is my favorite card not because of him, but I've liked it for so long now." That's it for my confession/speech. I love you Shane. SOrry if I always hurt you, hit you, laugh at you, never listen to you, persuade too much. What else? Hrrmmmm..... I'm into fictional guys and celebrities more than people here. So Shane, I feel you.