Ryeowook (1/1)

Chapter 4 Back in Korea, everything is running smoothly just the way it should be. Everyone else was busy with their own work and world. They don’t even realize that they have been growing apart. Ryeowook was having a drink alone in the kitchen. His schedule for that day is only radio dj and it only start later that night. Because of too bored, he scrabble all the letters that he received ages before. He thinks that may be it is time for him to read all the letters. As he was scanning though all the gifts and letter, an envelope attracted his attention. The envelope was not so lively like the others but he had the feeling that there’s something there. He opened the envelope and found out there’s a few pieces of music sheets. Together with it is a pink letter. May be it is from another fan, he guessed. Dear Ryeowookie,              This is Sungmin hyung. It’s been a long time right? I miss you and your cooking the most, Wookie, and I regret that I have to leave all that behind. How are you now? Is everything alright at the dorm? Hope so everything is under control. You must be surprised to get this letter right? And I’m sure you feel weird when you see the music sheets.             Actually, Wookie, just like you I also have a dream of becoming a music composer. It is just that I was not as talented as you are and are not lucky enough for my piece to be recognized. Well, I didn’t ask much but just an appreciation. Still, not all the things I expected are going alright. Remember the first time I show you my composing? You say it was great and I should show it to the manager hyung about it. Do you know what did he do with it? Right in front of me, he throws it into the garbage and said it will not sell anywhere. I was so heartbroken. I didn’t know who I should believe more. After that, I decided to never show to anyone my composing anymore. But, I was really happy when you praised me at that time. Thank you so much, Wookie.             The main reason I send this letter is to ask for your opinion again about my composing piece. I don’t know who else I should send it to. You are one of my best dongsaeng and I really hope that you will play it one day. At least for once, I want someone to actually accept and appreciate the things that I did. I don't want to feel more hurt than I have already feel. And I don't want you to feel the same too.

If only...If only one day there's someone, your loved one ever hurt you or lie to you, I hope that you could calm down. Before you make any conclusion of breaking up, think again about all your memories and all the time that you spent together. Everyone make a mistake, Wookie and no one is perfect. I want you to at least know this before it is too late. I don't want you to make a mistake.              After I left, did anything happened? Did Kyuhyun ever talk about me to you? I’m sorry to ask this stupid question with you. It is just that you and Kyu are both the maknae and I know how close you are with each other so maybe he has said something to you. Silly me, even though I ask you those questions, there’s no way you could answer it. You don’t know where I live and may be you don’t even care about my life anymore. Sorry, Wookie. I didn’t mean to leave without any words. I was not at my right state, there’s a secret that I kept and I am not planning to tell it to anyone.             I just hope that you will not hate me and forget about me. It was the only hope that I want from you apart from playing the song that I composed. For the last time, I hope there are still people to appreciate my song and really accept me as a singer. You, Yesung hyung and Kyuhyun are the main vocal of the group and will always be. I could never take away your place, Wookie, and I will never do so. Please don’t hate me more than anyone else has done. I don’t know how much longer I can tolerate with the hatred that I get.              I’m sorry if I ever give you the inconvenience. I hope that one day we will still have the chance to meet again. I’m sorry again and thank you for everything. Sincerely Pink Prince,Lee Sungmin. Ryeowook stared repeatedly at the letter and music sheet back and forth. He couldn’t believe himself that Sungmin had actually written him a letter after leaving him heartbroken without any words. It’s true that he was angry at him because when the time Sungmin makes a composing, it was supposed to be approved by the director and his own composing is rejected. But, he never expected the truth that Sungmin himself rejected the composing. He was his most rivals because Sungmin really do have talent in composing. Slowly, he took the sheets and walk inside his room where the piano is situated. He put the sheet on the board, and started playing the song. Somehow, the song feels so much familiar to his taste. It was very soothing and calming but at the same time, it felt so sad. It sounded so much like Sungmin. He missed him. Sungmin was always there by his side whenever he was sad or angry or whatever he was feeling. He was always gives in whenever the director wants him to sing his part.             He said that their voices are different. Of course they are different, they are two person so there’s no way for their voice to be the same. But, Sungmin always said that his voice is the best. And no one could be the main vocal more than Ryeowook. As Ryeowook continue on playing the song, he didn’t even realize a tear has fall slowly from his eyes. How he wished to turn backs the time and changes everything that he had said and done. Flashback “You stole my music sheet!” Ryeowook yelled angrily. “No, I’m not. Woookie please, you know that I will never do something like that.” “Then what is all this hyung?” he pointed to the music sheets that shattered on the floor. “I have been looking for it everywhere! I have asked everyone! Including you! How could you lie to me! I thought that I am important to you!” “You are…it just that…I…” Sungmin doesn’t know how to explain the situation more. “Even if your composing is rubbish, you shouldn’t treat mine like yours!” that word stabbed right into Sungmin heart. He tried to control himself. “I hate you hyung! I wish that you will disappear forever and I don’t care even if you die anymore!” Ryeowok gathered all the sheets and left the room. Leaving Sungmin on the floor, holding himself from crying out loud. His heart was hurt and he knew everything is too late to say anything more. Flashback end The song ended by Ryeowook fall onto the floor crying, broken. He made a mistake, a very terrible mistake. “I’m sorry, hyung. I’m very sorry…” the song that he played just now is the proved that what he did before was a big mistake and Sungmin never blamed him on anything. Still, he knew at that moment, everything is too late to fix it again.

TBC here's the composition that i find so sad and so beautiful at the same time...www.youtube.com/watch?v=TzrYvXT1o8s