A month with him (1/1)

It's kinda funny to think back. We were too shy to even hold hands during our couple days and now...we've divorced.It's awkward and uncomfortable for two people who're already divorced to live together.  First night, I took my blanket and slept on the couch.It's damn amazing. There's no one to nag beside you. Only one thing, it'll be better if the couch is softer. It hurts my neck when I woke up. When I go to the bathroom, I heard water running.Aish, it's him.It's an annoying habit of him that he shower before bed and shower again right after wake up.Ok ok, let it be. I just open the door and went inside.  As I'm about to pee, I heard a loud scream.There's no ghost in the early morning. Why the hell is he screaming..  "What the hell, hyukjae. Can't you see I'm having a shower? No one on earth will come in and pee while other is having a shower. " He peek from behind the curtin, wrapping a towel around the waist and shouted at me. "What are you shouting at? There's a curtin between us and it's not the first time to come in while you're having a shower. We did more than that. Plus i don't need to peek you. I remember very detail of your body even I close my eyes." "Y-you" he didn't say anything and went out of the bathroom. I heard a loud thud sound of closing the door. Rude!! If he keeps on being like this, I bet no one will dare to marry him. After finishing my problem, I went to the bedroom and found that it's lock. I knock and knock. My suit for work is inside the room."I'm changing" he answer with a cold voice. He come out after 30 minutes. He looks shining and his clothes are perfect match with his white skin. And I'm late for work just because of that 30 minutes for the first time. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I didn't go straight home after work. I wander around the town. It' kinda boring but it's better to see his face.I just have some random food and went home around 10.  As I enter the room, I see him sitting on the couch. He motion me to sit and hand me a juice. The smile on his face is kinda scary. It's not his usual angelic smile."Well, we are no longer husband and wife. But we still have to live together for a period of time. So I made some rules for both of us." He said and pull out the paper.I took and take a look.1. One cannot enter the bathroom while other is inside. (for any reason)2. One cannot touch other's body no matter what.and blah blah blah..There's more than 50 rules. " Sign it if you agree" he hand me a pen. At first I think of evoking his anger. But it's no necessary. I just have to stand it at most 1 month. I just sign it."As a thanks I'll continue to cook for you" he said.  -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------  With those rules, I feel more controlled. There's no freedom. And I still have dinner outside. Hmmph.. do you think i'll thank you just because you cook for me?? Never Donghae, never. I won't die for not eating your food for a month. But restaurants can't satisfy me. I miss my favourite food ... The first week goes on peacefully without any problem.   One night, he's preparing to go outside. He looks damn beautiful."Where'r you going?" I unconciously asked. I don't like him going out late at night. Especially when he's this beautiful."Yeah, Jessica said she'll let me meet someone. Do you think I'm ok with this?" he asked me, turning around."Not bad. You can catch some stupid with this.""What?" he eye me and laugh. "Yeah, I can catch a stupid since I'm single now. I may find someone who'll treasure me.""Just go" I said and open the door for him.  Since there's no one to annoy me, i get on the internet and flirt with some girls. But I feel odd. Something's not right.Am i jealous???No way...we're already divorced and there's no way I still love him.Don't think too much Hyuk, you're just tired from work.  He came back home after 2 hours. I see his face and it's..... sad???HA..I feel happy when I see his sad face. It means the date is not ok.He went straight to bedroom and not even bother to shower.   Around midnight, I suddenly woke up because of a loud scream from the bedroom. It's Donghae. He sounds scare.I was about to go inside, he came out and got on the couch hugging me tightly. "What's wrong?'"C-cockroach"  I know it immediately. He may mock me and shout at me but he's scare to death when he sees those, cockroach, lizard, mouse.  "It's okay. I'm here" I comfort him like always. And I went inside the room and look for the cockroach but it's nowhere to be found.As soon as I came back and he hugged me again and asked " Is it dead?"He looked so scared with tears glittening on his face. But it's kinda beautiful under the moonlight.I just answer yes. If i say I can't find it, he'll make me go again and search for it again. "There's nothing now, just go and sleep. We still have work in the morning""No. I won't sleep. I'll just sit here.""Have you forgot that we're already divorced? And you just broke our rule no.2 . You started to hug me." I said with cold voice. Hmmph...he went out for a date earlier and just think of me when he see cockroach.  He fell silent for a moment and bit his bottom lip and muttered " Sorry"I heard the door close.  What a stupid Hyukjae!! I slap myself.I lay on the couch but I don't want to sleep even a bit. I heard a faint sob sounds from the bedroom. I fight myself if  I should go in or not. And I decided to go inside. I saw a figure under the blanket. I open it and saw him crying, soaked with tears. I feel my heart hurts to see him like this. I never like to see him cry."What's wrong?" I asked gently."What are you doing here? We're already divorced and I don't want your pity." he said, throwing a pillow at me and push me.I hugged him tight and muttered "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to tell you like that earlier. You know I suck at speech. Please forgive me" I kissed the tears away and rubbed his back in a soothing manner. He don't struggle anymore and cry his heart out in my embrace.Then he tell me the reason of his tears. His not-even-worth-to-be-called-friend Jessica introduce him with an old man who's old enough to be our grandpa. And that bastard old man make some touchy-touchy to him.Jessica even tell him that he's already divorced and that old man is good for him.  "Am I that low just becasue I'm divorced? Why? Why we have to divorced?" he cried and asked me. I'm really speechless. I don't know the answer myself. I know it's me who want to divorce but why?? I don't know. He keeps hugging me till my neck hurts. But I let him be. We can't hug anymore later even if we want to.  Then we both fall asleep.That night, he sleep in my embrace for the first time after divorce.  --------------------------------------------------------  When I woke up, I see him still in my embrace and he's still hugging me like his life is depend on me.To be honest, his sleeping face is really cute just like a baby. He won't cling to me or nag me with various problems like this. I don't dare to move. I'm too afraid that I may destroy his sweet dreams. It's been a long time that I don't feel like this. We both are nagging each other and busy with work. As the time goes by, the feeling towards each other is set aside. Why we even reach this stage??I know I loved him and him too...   He's awake too. He realized that he's still hugging me and released it immediately." Morning" he said shyly. I also remove my hand and jump off the bed."Last night...""Last night is nothing. Just prepare for work . You might be late."  ----------------------------------------------------  That night change out condition a bit.I saw his favourite waffle on the way back home and bought it. I went home quickly and saw him cooking in the kitchen.  "I bought some waffle for you." I said. He gladly came out of the kitchen and ate one quickly."Go and wash. Dinner's ready" I saw the food on the table. All are my favourite. I realize that I really miss his cook. I still remember he try really hard to learn those just beause I love them. "Okay. You can eat now" I took the plate and started digging. "Eat slowly. You'll choke and here drink some soup" he hand me a bowl of soup. He place some food in my plate."You look thinner.  Don't eat outside anymore. It's just expensive yet not nutritious."  When I'm about to wash the dishes,"Just leave it. You never do the dishes. I'll do it.""No. I..""It's okay. Just go and watch tv."  After he finished cleaning, he come and sit beside me. I give a cup of juice to him."Which channel you want to watch?' I asked."What happen to you? It's awkward like that" he said."Am I that bad when i'm with you?""Bad? who says you're bad, you're just lazy.  Since we're divorced now, you should learn how to do laundry. There's no one to help you wash your clothes.""Yeah, we'r divorced" We both fell silent.  That night we watch a random channel together for 3 hours without talking anything. He told me that he found an apartment and he's going to move this sunday.  My heart felt empty when I heard this. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------   Saturday came really fast.I'm sitting on the couch while he's packing his things up.  The room is messy now. But it's silent. "I'll go out for a while." I said and went out without waiting for his answer.      The sky is blue.Just like the day when we went on a picnic on the hill 3 years ago.  The breeze is warm.I wonder if it's the same breeze 3 years ago. There're many couples on the street.We pass our sweetest times holding each other's hand.    "Mom, that uncle is crying." a child beside me said to his mom.I rub my eyes and smile back at him. "Something got into my eyes."  I walk down the streets aimlessly till the night.Then, I receive a message from him " Dinner's ready. Let's have the last meal together."  I ran home immediately.  The light is off inside the house. The candles are beautifully arranged on the table. There's a bottle of wine.He sat on one of the chairs wearing the suit that I bought for him on our first date.  "We've married for 3 years but we haven't drank wine together except for the wedding night. So let's have a drink tonight. After all I'll have to leave after this night." he said as he pour some wine in my glass. "Cheers, for our last farewell"  After that we said nothing. There's nothing to say at all. Whatever we say , we can't change tomorrow. I drink and drink. It's best if he already left when I woke up.  Haven't I been wanting for him to leave?Haven't I been getting annoyed with his clinging?Aren't I the one who don't want to hear his nagging anymore??There's no one to scold me if I stay up how late it is.There's no one to tell me how dirty I am if I don't shower before bed.There's no one who will constantly telling me to sleep beside him.I will have the bed on my own.   How wonderful it is?I should be happy now.But...why this wine taste bitter in my mouth??    "I've put your clothes in your closet....... Boxers and socks are in the drawer......... You have gastritis so don't eat too late......... And don't be lazy to cook. Feed yourself........... I've bought enough food for the week in  the refrigerator. Don't forget to go grocery shopping too............Learn to cook something.................... Ah, I should've taught you............. Anyway, don't always eat outside. Eat real food. " "And I've already sent money to mom and dad for this month....don't forget to send for next months....and they're missing you, find time and call them....I've called them today...dad said his phone's dead so I already bought a new one...send it tomorrow with the his medicine...he might have run out of it...here, this is the address, so go and buy it as soon as possible." "I haven't told them that we're divorced. Find chance and tell them later. Don't be angry if dad scolds you. ...Oh, and this is the sweater for dad and mom..sent them together with phone."  He keeps reminding me one after one. I want to remember all but half of me don't want to. I feel myself really stupid. I'm been living in this house for 3 years but everything seems to be unfamiliar now.I'm scared, scared if I can live alone without him. "And, this is the ring mom gave me on our wedding. I won't bring it. Please say sorry to mom for me"That ring, simple with one single diamond. It's shining brightly."I'll just bring the ones that we already agree. Do you want anything to ask??"  I don't know what I want to ask. I don't know anything now. I just know one, that I don't him to leave now.When I feel that I need him the most, he's leaving. And I can't do anything. He used to say that I'm not man. I think he's insulting me. But now I know that now.I'm not a man. I'm just a child under his love and care.I'm totally lost without him. I'm just a lost puppy.  -----------------------------------------------------------  "If you don't have to say anything, let's sleep early. You sleep in the room. I'll just sleep on the couch. Or you'll wake up when people come to move." I don't know what to say. I just get in the room and lay on the bed.  I keep looking at the ceiling.  It's morning now.I heard the door bell ring. I heard people came in and move the things out. I heard him telling them to be careful. But I can't hear my own heart beat. He knock the door.... But I don't move a bit...."I'm going....Take care of yourself" he said through the closed door but don't enter the room.  I heard the front door closed.No sound is heard now. The whole house fell silent. There's no one now. Only me.  Why do we have to divorce? Why?"Visit if you're free" I heard some neighbours voice. Aren't you a man,Hyukjae? Arent' you a man?You can still stop him. It's still not late. I look outside the window and shouted "Wait, don't go."    And I ran down the stairs.I have to get my love back. My love for him is always there. It's just being set aside by my busy life. But I won't let it happen now.I know that I'm nothing without him now. He's just my everything. He was since 6 years old and he will always be.  He stand beside the car and smile at me. But I can see the tears in his eyes."Thanks for sending me off.""What about me if you leave??" I held his hand and said."We're divorced""But I don't want you to leave. I can't be without you. Please don't leave"I beg him."You are the one who want divorce.""I'm sorry, I now know that I'm wrong. Please forgive me."Aren't you a man? Why are you crying in front of people?" he said as he wipe my tears off with his hands. His hands are cold."I don't want to be a man. I just want you back."  "We've been together for 6 years. You don't care for me anymore after we're married. You don't know what I want. You don't ask what I'm thinking. When I tell you, you're annoyed. But did you know, I'm very tired for this 3 years.I love you. I tried and tried. I tried hard to keep our love. " " I know now. I know I missed many chances and made many mistakes. But I don't wanna lose anymore. I'll try to make them right. Please give me a chance. You still love me, right? Please don't leave." my heart hurts. I hate myself that I caused him so much pain. "We're divorced now. You must propose me again." I heard him said."Ok, I'll do it. Please marry me again." I kneel down and proposed him again."But proposal needs ring and flowers. Do you have it??"  Rings? Flowers? Where can I find them now? "Here,uncle." a little girl come and give me a bunch of roses. I took it immediately. And then I remember that diamond ring. I ran up quickly and find the ring everywhere. Damn it!! Where the hell is the ring? I'm still looking for it when he came with some neighbours behind. I pull him and give him roses and said " I can't find the ring yet. Please marry me first."I heard him giggle. He took a small box from his bag and slowly open it.    That's the diamond ring inside it.  "Sorry..I think I bring an extra thing with me"  he hugged me tigh and laugh.     --------------------------------------------------------------    And I promise myself silently that I'll never let him go again.  "No matter what happens, rich or poor, healthy or sick, I'll always be with you"       ____________________________________________________________________________________________________  A/N  :   fully credit again to HZ Zane   (but may be a little credit for my translation :P)            I change some of it from the original story line. I hope you all like it.   Comments??