My oh My (1/1)
Chapter Nine – My oh MyI perfectly knew that I was literally crossing the line when I decided to meet Jongin today. He was certainly someone’s husband but in this case, he needed someone to lean on. Rather than anyone else, he called for me. And of course, I will be there for him. That was what friends were meant to be, right?Once we met after office hours, Jongin hastily spilled what was on his mind that kept on disturbing him these days. It was related to his wife, Suzy. Their relationship went a bit off lately. He was adamantly stuck between her wife’s threat and the intention to take care of his mom’s heart. Since Jongin was widely known as a mommy’s boy, he would probably be by his mom’s side but in this problem, Suzy was dragged along. And thus, the tension was seen here.“I don’t know what to do right now, Yoona. Suzy seems to have stopped being patient. On the other hand, my mom is also a pain in the neck. She doesn’t let us move out of the house.” He heaved an audible sigh as he ruffled his hair gruffly. It seemed like he was really in utter distress.On the other hand, I was merely listening to his thoughts. Jongin would not have shared me his problem if he could solve it by himself. But to me, I did not really think I was not the right person that he should ask for help. If he were a bit smarter, he would have discussed it with his own wife since the problem started by her in the first place.“Suzy’s not a person who’d listen to me,” said the latter, “whenever I tried to talk to her, she’d throw a fit and say that I’m at fault. I was the one who was completely wrong. If I’d talked to my mom about us moving out in the first place, this problem wouldn’t have happened in the first place. But how can I say it to her, Yoona? I don’t want her to be upset, though. She’s my mom!”Seriously, I had no idea what should I say about this, though. I did not intend to give any thoughts since I might make the other parties upset. So in the end, I simply listened to his story. Nodding and shaking were a must as signs of reaction and sympathy.“You know what, Yoona? I was really pissed when she literally dared me. I felt like wanting to divorce her at once!”I gave Jongin an incredulous stare. I was caught off guard upon his remark. I knew that someone’s patience had its own limit when he or she encountered an intense moment. I hoped after this Suzy would not be so impulsive and dare her husband to do something beyond his control. I was worried if Suzy’s dare will make Jongin divorce her. That should not happen, really.“Be patient, Jongin,” I finally spoke, breaking the brief silence. “She’s bearing a baby so that’s why she’s become a bit emotional.” I initiated to soothe his distress and provoke him in a persuasive tone. I tried to make Jongin remember that Suzy was pregnant and her emotion was not stable. Maybe by mentioning their upcoming, first child would at least appease his sullen heart.I could let out a sigh of relief when I saw Jongin nod in agreement. Maybe with the remembrance of their child, it prevented him to do something beyond dangerous.“If there’s no baby, we’d have parted ways earlier,” he remarked honestly. How easy the closure, Kim Jongin. I guess even if I told him about how stupid he was, it would not mean anything because he cannot think rational at this moment.“Sometimes, I didn’t go home, Yoona.”Astonished, my pair of eyes was wide open. I was not expecting their crisis would be horrible to this extent.“If I go home, I’d only get headaches. My mom says like this.... Suzy with her non-stop threat... in the end, I guess I’m going to be nuts!”“Then where did you spend your night?” I asked inquiringly thinking the sheer possibility that Jongin might have another ‘house’ or something.I went impatient the moment Jongin opted to stay silent. “Do you already have another girl, eh?”To me, our close relationship will not make him offend of my question. I was curious and simply wanted a definite answer.Jongin shook his head lightly, rendering a big smile upon my lips. Though his life now was a big mess, he did not turn around to lean on someone else.“I sleep at office,” he answered, sighing.“Jongin, let me tell you this,” I started, “married life is not easy as you think. There will be a lot of complications between you and your wife. If you only be a little stricter, this kind of thing won’t happen.”Surprisingly, he stared at me upon my remark, in which I thought otherwise. I thought he would gladly welcome my opinion or something but it turned out really unexpected.To Jongin, maybe he thought I was not good enough to talk about marriage since I had yet to get married. Well, that was what he thought. I did not mind if he did not want to listen to me. I merely stated my opinion. It was up to him to accept it or not.“When I ever get married one day, I want to live in my own house. It’s okay if it’s a small one. I just don’t want to live in a house with my family-in-law,” I blurted out unbeknowingly.Jongin rolled his eyes keenly whilst frowning, trying to figure out what my words meant.After a moment, he voiced out his thoughts, “It’s not like I don’t want to move out to my own house, Yoona... but I want Suzy to be a little bit more patient. I can’t move out right now. I feel pitiful to my mom. You know that my dad has just passed away.... so it’s a big deal if I were to move out in an instant. My mom would feel lonely and deserted.” It was as if Jongin tried to appeal for my assurance. Maybe he used this excuse when talking to Suzy. But it would be nice if his wife paid a little bit attention to what he was feeling right now. He was stuck in a dilemma.“You should’ve moved out right after you got married, Jongin. This problem wouldn’t have happened then,” I uttered after he had become much composed.“I’m at fault. That’s why I can’t put the blame on Suzy. I understand her when she said she want to live in a separated house.”“Jongin... I’d also want to live separately when I get married one day. Living with family-in-law in a house will be seriously tough, you know. When we live separately, of course we can decorate our house in our ways. Plus, we can also wake up late once in weekend since no one can tell us off. And living separately would be comfortable for couple to have their cuddling session.”“You’re definitely right, Yoona. I think this problem will end once I move out. It’s not like my mom doesn’t like Suzy. She regards her very well.”“I think you should move out, Jongin. The only thing you should do now is discuss this matter with your mom in a soft way. I know she’ll understand your needs.”Jongin scratched his head, seemingly flustered of my suggestion. I had no idea what was on his mind that he seemed deep in thoughts.“Kim Jongin! You’re an all-grown up man yet you still want to live with your mom?!” I quipped playfully, trying to lighten the atmosphere.We both erupted into big laughter. The calm expression on his face eased my heart. In any way, I hoped that his marriage will never cease and the ‘moving-out’ problem will be over in an instant.***I barely remembered the contents of the meeting between me, Victoria unnie and Jaejoong oppa until she showed me the concept of design and the cost for the proposal.“Jaejoong-ssi said he wants English concept... including the decorations for the interior design,” the elder stated with a jubilant smile.“What did he say more, unnie?”“When I met him the other day, he said if we could, he wanted me to do the assumption cost for the garden landscape as well. I’ve already spoken this matter with Baekhyun and Taeyeon,” she added, sounding so vibrant and full of laughter.My jaw dropped dramatically as I listened to her remark. They both met again? When? Why they did not inform me in the first place? Anyhow, those questions only popped in my mind. I did not bother to ask further though I was filled with utter curiosity.I tried to conceal this feeling of shock. Jaejoong oppa had apparently preferred to keep in touch with Victoria unnie. It was okay. I did not mind it. It made my job easier, though.Skimming through the proposal and the design laid on the table, I merely gave out my opinions and suggestions. I solely believed the rest of them had been agreed by Jaejoong oppa, so I did not have to change anything more.***During the lunch hour, I went to meet Luhan at the restaurant nearby my office. It had been a quite while since our last meeting. As I could remember vividly, we last met at The Garden, happily eating pizza and talking so cordially to each other. Besides, I could only listen to his soothing voice only when he gave me a call, in which was scarce. If I ever had his phone number, I would have called him every day.Yes, I missed him. I cannot deny that. I missed him so badly. But my mouth felt so stiff to confess those three words. I was afraid I would only end up getting hurt. So in the end, keeping silent about my feeling seemed to be the best option.“We haven’t met for a long time, have we?” I said with a big grin, deliberately stressing the word, ‘we’ in a romantic, subtle tone. I would love to add that I had been missing him so badly but what if he did not feel the same way? I would only get embarrassed ultimately.“What do you feel when we haven’t met for a long time?” I did not expect the question; I nearly choked my fizzy drink. The moment when he gave me his sharp stare as if he was looking forward to my answer, giving me a set of goosebumps.I realized I had to be discreet. Any kind of dubious answer would lead him to think what I had been keeping inside my heart for all this time. My mind had started to spin, considering between simply being honest about what I felt towards him and making up a lie only to cover myself from getting exposed, what should I tell him?“Why you didn’t reply?” he asked, breaking the silence.“What should I reply?” I tried to look clueless.Luhan grimaced queerly. “Just tell me what do you feel... I just wanted to know.”“I don’t feel anything,” I answered, almost abruptly. “I feel nothing!”“You don’t feel like... missing me?” The tone of his voice was different this time. He was back to be the subtle, romantic Luhan. His pair of eyes did not stop from matching mine, making my heart to race uncontrollably.To be honest, I was not a woman who was decent enough to arrange good words. I often got anxious and ended up telling what was inside my heart. I did not want him to know about my feelings (in which I was not ready as well).“I don’t know!” I thought it was the safest answer to flee.“You don’t miss me even... for a slight, Yoona?” asked Luhan, sounding a bit provocative.I simply shrugged and avoided his deep gaze. I cannot say anything about my feeling, seriously.“People often say, when a couple hold hands, their feelings become one... is that true?”I pretended not to understand his statement. My memory when I used to be with Jongin came across unwillingly. But to me, when I held hands with him, I did not feel anything – electrifying or feeling jittery. Instead, he should be the one who knew better than me since he had tons of girlfriends. Why did he ask me that question in the first place, huh?